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  1  Pref,   1     |           the year 1935, I had no thought of preparing a similar edition
  2  Pref,   2     |                       It might be thought that St. Teresa -- so often
  3  Pref,   2     |                  Who, if she ever thought she was afraid of the Inquisition,
  4  Pref,   3(39) |        the text, as both he and I thought it advisable to do in the
  5  Pref,   3     | references to the works, has been thought worth including.~
  6  Intr,   0     |         and sudden suspensions of thought make her, in one sense,
  7  Intr,   0     |      better employed, she herself thought, at the spinning-wheel,
  8  Intr,   0     |        perfection might hardly be thought "tiny", she refers to it
  9  Intr,   0     |       which certainly exists, was thought to be the work of St. Teresa
 10  Intr,   0     |          that its publication was thought to be premature.~
 11  Intr,   0     |        the Relations. It might be thought that the Life should rather
 12  Intr,   0     |       much intimate detail it was thought unsuitable for publication
 13  Intr,   0     |            taken together, may be thought of as a complete exposition
 14  Unic,   2     |      other kinds of wrongdoing. I thought there was nothing wrong
 15  Unic,   2     |           other practices which I thought were in no way sinful, lasted
 16  Unic,   2     |        astray in anything which I thought concerned worldly honour,
 17  Unic,   2     |     everything that I did. When I thought that nobody would ever know,
 18  Unic,   2     |         was of such a kind that I thought it might end satisfactorily
 19  Unic,   2(71) |     shared in was with one who, I thought, would do well in the estate
 20  Unic,   3     |        the house where she was. I thought more about pleasures of
 21  Unic,   3     |         for His sake. I must have thought that He would help me to
 22  Unic,   3     |           I distrusted myself and thought I might turn back out of
 23  Unic,   4     |          other convent in which I thought I could serve God better
 24  Unic,   4     |        through all this; they all thought I had acted out of sheer
 25  Unic,   4     |           way that I prayed. If I thought about any incident in His
 26  Unic,   4     |         so poor that, even when I thought about the Lord's Humanity,
 27  Unic,   4     |         soul has delighted in the thought of His great magnificence
 28  Unic,   5     |         weeping for my sins, they thought that I was discontented
 29  Unic,   5     |  ridiculous. I delighted in being thought well of; I was particular
 30  Unic,   5     |  everything I did; and all this I thought was a virtue, though that
 31  Unic,   5     |        frivolous and blind that I thought it a virtue to be grateful
 32  Unic,   5     |         God's service and I never thought there was anything wrong
 33  Unic,   5     |         frequent confession. They thought that this was due to fear
 34  Unic,   5     |            from moment to moment, thought I was dying; they did nothing
 35  Unic,   5     |          confess anything which I thought to be a sin, even if only
 36  Unic,   6     |          for it would come when I thought of the favours which the
 37  Unic,   6     |         up90 in love, for I never thought about punishment. All the
 38  Unic,   7     |         vain and liked to be well thought of in the things wont to
 39  Unic,   7     |       Parents seem to give little thought to the placing of their
 40  Unic,   7     |          be the case later. For I thought that, as in many convents
 41  Unic,   7     |        displeased with her, for I thought she was shocked without
 42  Unic,   7     |           of prayer myself, for I thought that in this life there
 43  Unic,   7     |        according to my ability, I thought that the knowledge which
 44  Unic,   7     |          knew that I deserved and thought that by them I was making
 45  Unic,   8     |           my time in prayer, they thought I was doing a great deal.
 46  Unic,   9     |      great was my distress when I thought how ill I had repaid Him
 47  Unic,   9     |       glorious Magdalen and often thought of her conversion, especially
 48  Unic,   9     |        Thus it was with me when I thought of Our Lord. It was for
 49  Unic,   9     |         As He had forgiven them I thought that He might do the same
 50  Unic,   9     |      distressed by it. But when I thought of His love for me, I would
 51  Unic,   9     |       lawful to ask for it, but I thought it was only so for those
 52  Unic,  10     |            For the rest, the very thought that I am a woman is enough
 53  Unic,  10     |          how much more, then, the thought that I am such a wicked
 54  Unic,  11     |      perfection, we abandoned all thought of our own importance;106
 55  Unic,  11     |        cannot think a single good thought. This is what is meant by
 56  Unic,  11     |            to think a single good thought, for working with the understanding
 57  Unic,  11     |            Close the eyes of your thought and do not wonder: "Why
 58  Unic,  12     |           through which the devil thought to send him to perdition.
 59  Unic,  15     |   reproach and be ashamed if they thought that the reason they were
 60  Unic,  18     |         memory as if it had never thought of it. If it has been reading,
 61  Unic,  18     |          to be so very present, I thought it impossible. I could not
 62  Unic,  19     |        who spoke ill of me, for I thought they had ample reason for
 63  Unic,  19     |           from everything which I thought could cause Thee displeasure;
 64  Unic,  20     |        swift impulse, before your thought can forewarn you of it or
 65  Unic,  20     |         extraordinary thing and I thought there would be a great deal
 66  Unic,  20     |         that state of ecstasy, it thought it was being careful not
 67  Unic,  21     |        opportunity of doing so or thought they would believe me, for
 68  Unic,  22     |       would be presumption. But I thought I was experiencing the presence
 69  Unic,  22     |        could have entertained the thought that Thou couldst hinder
 70  Unic,  22     |      cannot think one single good thought. We are unprofitable servants:176
 71  Unic,  23     |           whenever I wanted to. I thought to myself that there was
 72  Unic,  23     |           of this gentleman and I thought of having him as my confessor
 73  Unic,  23     |       what I ought to do. If they thought it well, I would give up
 74  Unic,  23     |         obtain light from them, I thought they ought to have kept
 75  Unic,  23     |       afraid of my wickedness and thought that I should now be obliged
 76  Unic,  24     |         became so amenable that I thought there could be nothing which
 77  Unic,  24     |          me. For previously I had thought that, if I was to receive
 78  Unic,  24     |           back. For to do this, I thought, would be a great failing,
 79  Unic,  24     |         Spirit of God and that he thought I should not be doing right
 80  Unic,  24     |        very sorry for this, for I thought I should be bound to grow
 81  Unic,  25     |        like the first movement of thought, which passes and is forgotten.
 82  Unic,  25     |     certainly a fact that I never thought there was any other way
 83  Unic,  25     |       against me. Some of them, I thought, were mocking me when I
 84  Unic,  26     |       tempted to leave him, for I thought that the distress he caused
 85  Unic,  26     |      confess grievous sins, for I thought my confessors would not
 86  Unic,  26(208)|       written in Spanish which he thought might do simple souls harm.~
 87  Unic,  27     |        soul did I see anything. I thought He was quite close to me
 88  Unic,  27     |          that it was He Who, as I thought, was speaking to me. Being
 89  Unic,  28     |         on many other occasions I thought it was no image, but Christ
 90  Unic,  28     | recollection, which we have never thought of, and which, even in a
 91  Unic,  28     |         way, they were afraid and thought that what I saw was the
 92  Unic,  28     |           did not believe him but thought I was going to destruction
 93  Unic,  28     |         carelessly; and they then thought I was trying to instruct
 94  Unic,  29     |        made things worse, as they thought me lacking in humility.
 95  Unic,  29     |            When he drew it out, I thought he was drawing them out
 96  Unic,  30     |        for, as I have said, I had thought that only visions which
 97  Unic,  30     |          was his humility that he thought that there was value in
 98  Unic,  30     |          doubts and suspicions. I thought that I had not understood
 99  Unic,  30     |         of thinking a single good thought or of desiring to put it
100  Unic,  30     |       formulate a single definite thought, other than quite a fleeting
101  Unic,  31     |        not his. For what, then, I thought, will he not do when he
102  Unic,  31     |           too, about this time, I thought the devils were stifling
103  Unic,  31     |         have been nearly up and I thought that perhaps the devil was
104  Unic,  31     |           impulse towards an evil thought ought to come to one on
105  Unic,  31     |          now -- by finding myself thought so much of, especially by
106  Unic,  31     |     extent that I should not have thought possible. But that is how
107  Unic,  31     |       explanation of this. When I thought that a knowledge of these
108  Unic,  31(245)|           to assume that she ever thought of going to a house outside
109  Unic,  31     |        prayer, that when a person thought there was any good in me,
110  Unic,  32     |         how, I found myself, as I thought, plunged right into hell.
111  Unic,  32     |        forget it. The entrance, I thought, resembled a very long,
112  Unic,  32     |         amount of comfort which I thought we had, for the house was
113  Unic,  32     |           up to a certain point I thought these people were right.
114  Unic,  32     |       convent that the Provincial thought it would be hard for him
115  Unic,  32     |         perfection, and though he thought it would be difficult and
116  Unic,  33     |          trials. The other people thought I was very much ashamed --
117  Unic,  33     |        the Inquisition. If ever I thought there might be, I would
118  Unic,  33     |      going to die, and whenever I thought of this I was very happy.
119  Unic,  33     |           God, having studied and thought very carefully about the
120  Unic,  33     |    continued to provide for us. I thought it of great importance to
121  Unic,  33     |          provided the money.269 I thought the house very small, so
122  Unic,  33     |        though a very small one. I thought no more then about buying
123  Unic,  33     |            While in this state, I thought I saw myself being clothed
124  Unic,  33     |         greatest joy and bliss, I thought that Our Lady suddenly took
125  Unic,  34     |       great desire to see me: she thought that I might bring her comfort,
126  Unic,  34     |           where I was going277: I thought I should feel fairly safe
127  Unic,  34     |         me. They must surely have thought that I was working for some
128  Unic,  34     |      waste of time. What right, I thought, had I to interfere with
129  Unic,  34     |          me shrewder than ever. I thought what great talents and gifts
130  Unic,  34     |           service, for, good as I thought him, I was not satisfied
131  Unic,  34     |         for myself, I should have thought it doubtful that in so short
132  Unic,  34     |      became almost absorbed, as I thought of the wonders of God, Who
133  Unic,  35     |          when she told me this, I thought it a good idea, though I
134  Unic,  35     |       support of such opinions; I thought I had nothing less than
135  Unic,  35     |          their superior. The very thought of this was such a torment
136  Unic,  35     |      always declined to do so), I thought it would involve my conscience
137  Unic,  35     |           nothing but weep, for I thought that this cross meant that
138  Unic,  35     |      Provincial for me to come. I thought it a very great thing that
139  Unic,  35     |       heavy cross, though I never thought it would be as heavy as
140  Unic,  35     |          this was possible. But I thought of this comparison. If I
141  Unic,  36     |              was not here, for we thought it advisable that she should
142  Unic,  36     |       this was my cross, though I thought it very much lighter than
143  Unic,  36     |          Saint Joseph. Not that I thought I had done anything of all
144  Unic,  36     |          all this myself; I never thought that nor do I now; I have
145  Unic,  36     |       with myself. Oh, if only we thought carefully about the things
146  Unic,  36     |          women, and how everybody thought that twelve women and a
147  Unic,  36     |     having than by my own, that I thought it would not be a bad idea
148  Unic,  36     |         other rules which we have thought it necessary to make so
149  Unic,  37     |          when I turn once more in thought, even for a moment, to this
150  Unic,  37     |          such things? It might be thought only reasonable that we
151  Unic,  38     |           to it was impossible. I thought I was being carried up to
152  Unic,  38     |    completely lost to myself, and thought it far too great a favour.
153  Unic,  38     |        part of what is there, the thought dwells upon it. It sometimes
154  Unic,  38     |           Saint Dominic, though I thought the rays and the brightness
155  Unic,  38(342)| invidiousness, and that Fray Luis thought this to be an oversight.
156  Unic,  38     |         at having till then, as I thought, achieved nothing, I wondered
157  Unic,  38     |           was sore afraid, for, I thought, had it been a vision from
158  Unic,  38     |        very virtuous. I certainly thought she would not have to go
159  Unic,  38     |         of thinking a single good thought. On that night a brother
160  Unic,  39     |           me great comfort, for I thought it meant that what I had
161  Unic,  39     |      every action of mine which I thought had been of some value I
162  Unic,  39     |           not enough that God has thought him worthy to be taken by
163  Unic,  39     |      found myself oppressed: they thought they were doing right and
164  Unic,  39     |           turning all the time in thought to things that were not
165  Unic,  39     |         raining so heavily that I thought I could not leave the house.
166  Unic,  39     |       fell into a deep rapture. I thought I saw, not a door into the
167  Unic,  39     |       multitude of angels, whom I thought of incomparably greater
168  Unic,  39     |          not know how I did so. I thought I had been there only a
169  Unic,  40     |          tittle shall fail."357 I thought that I had always believed
170  Unic,  40     |           consoled and humbled. I thought, without understanding how,
171  Unic,  40     |            How, my God, can it be thought fitting or tolerable for
172  Unic,  40     |            sweetness and quiet, I thought I was surrounded by angels
173  Unic,  40     |     spirit was carried away and I thought I was in a great field where
174  Unic,  40     |       others were killed. This, I thought, was a battle against the
175  Unic,  40     |          a dead thing that I once thought nobody would ever remember