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  1  Intr,   0     |         write this know that I am doing so, and at the moment they
  2  Unic,   2     |        avail, for when it came to doing anything wrong I was very
  3  Unic,   2     |           idea of what I had been doing, nothing could have been
  4  Unic,   3     |      others, even when I disliked doing it, I have been so excessively
  5  Unic,   3     |           him about it succeed in doing so. The most I could obtain
  6  Unic,   4     |          as I was in the habit of doing, I never succeeded. And
  7  Unic,   5     |        sufficient to keep me from doing them. I believe God permitted
  8  Unic,   5     |       everything that he had been doing during those years. He was
  9  Unic,   6     |          the knowledge that I was doing so. All these tokens of
 10  Unic,   7     | refraining from evil-speaking and doing other things of that kind
 11  Unic,   7     |           liberties for myself or doing anything without leave --
 12  Unic,   7     |          do what they find others doing. Many of them are to be
 13  Unic,   7     |         which tells them they are doing wrong.~
 14  Unic,   7     |        such a person, and that by doing so I should not injure my
 15  Unic,   7     |  communing with God as I had been doing before. So I told him that
 16  Unic,   7     |         he will repel it, and, in doing so, gain merit. I believe
 17  Unic,   7     |           without realizing he is doing so, will edify his friends.~
 18  Unic,   7     |        people can see him, and by doing other things which he is
 19  Unic,   7     |      cannot possibly refrain from doing these through fear of vainglory.
 20  Unic,   8     |         occasions of sin were not doing me any harm. This was at
 21  Unic,   8     |        prayer, they thought I was doing a great deal. But in my
 22  Unic,   8     |      hearts I knew that I was not doing what I was bound to do for
 23  Unic,   9     | indulgences could be gained by so doing; and I feel sure that my
 24  Unic,   9     |        when I realized what I was doing I became so distressed that
 25  Unic,  10     |         the courage necessary for doing great things. For we are
 26  Unic,  10     |      write this105 know that I am doing so, and at the moment they
 27  Unic,  10     |         to confess my sins, about doing which I have none. For the
 28  Unic,  11     |            I should like to avoid doing so; but this spiritual language
 29  Unic,  11     |            and they must practise doing this during hours of prayer;
 30  Unic,  11     |         hour, we are impeded from doing so for four. I have a great
 31  Unic,  12     |        higher, for God is already doing more for us than we deserve
 32  Unic,  12     |           spent a good many years doing a great deal of reading
 33  Unic,  13     |               This is the devil's doing. He seems to make use of
 34  Unic,  13     |           spend all their time in doing so; their method of prayer
 35  Unic,  13     |         before it, and we are not doing right if we neglect such
 36  Unic,  14     |          as less than nothing. By doing this we can gain great humility
 37  Unic,  15     |          them as to what they are doing, and the Lord will grant
 38  Unic,  15     |          and tremble lest they be doing some harm to themselves --
 39  Unic,  15     |         soon begin to fancy it is doing something worth while if
 40  Unic,  16     |         could entirely succeed in doing so. Many words are spoken,
 41  Unic,  17     |          soul realizes that He is doing this without any fatiguing
 42  Unic,  17     |       great things that He is now doing. It happens at certain seasons,
 43  Unic,  17     |          and the same time: it is doing works of charity and also
 44  Unic,  18     |       favours, there is no way of doing it, though sometimes I find
 45  Unic,  18     |            consider what Thou art doing; forget not so quickly the
 46  Unic,  18     |       Majesty knows that, next to doing what I am bidden, my chief
 47  Unic,  19     |           without knowing it, and doing nothing consciously to that
 48  Unic,  19     |         they had ample reason for doing so. This, Lord, was after
 49  Unic,  19     |         great deal of ability for doing wrong. So these people were
 50  Unic,  19     |           s sake, deliver us from doing so.~
 51  Unic,  20     |          this great blessing, and doing our utmost to draw near
 52  Unic,  20     |         have not the capacity for doing so. I have observed this
 53  Unic,  20     |          prevents the senses from doing so, and thus causes their
 54  Unic,  20     |     careful not to offend God and doing all that it could so far
 55  Unic,  21     |          I had the opportunity of doing so or thought they would
 56  Unic,  21     |       fling itself; and yet it is doing nothing, because, as I say,
 57  Unic,  21     |           so, I realize that I am doing hardly anything of myself;
 58  Unic,  22     |          not even know what I was doing. When I began to gain some
 59  Unic,  22     |           by those to whom He was doing such good, disbelieved by
 60  Unic,  22     |        have no idea what they are doing, these donkeys will draw
 61  Unic,  22     |          dealt with the Magdalen, doing His work in her very quickly;
 62  Unic,  23     |         me to find that I was not doing what he told me, and felt
 63  Unic,  24     |      state for nearly two months, doing all I could to resist the
 64  Unic,  24     |   comparison with what I had been doing before. But they fell short
 65  Unic,  24     |           thought I should not be doing right to resist Him further.
 66  Unic,  25     |          am being spoken to, I am doing nothing but listen and it
 67  Unic,  27     |          of everything that I was doing, and that, whenever I became
 68  Unic,  27     |           them, he could not help doing so. As a matter of fact
 69  Unic,  28     |           that, if the devil were doing this to delude me and drag
 70  Unic,  28     |   condemned and arraigned me were doing Him service and that it
 71  Unic,  29     |     discussing there is no way of doing this: we have to look at
 72  Unic,  29     |         indeed, I was continually doing so and with many tears.
 73  Unic,  29     |           hardly knows what it is doing. Yet so delectable is this
 74  Unic,  30     |        all its rigour, as well as doing those other things of which
 75  Unic,  30     |         me as much as he had been doing.~
 76  Unic,  30     |      sufficient understanding for doing so. Do not suppose that
 77  Unic,  30     |        myself in hand I feel I am doing something, or rather that
 78  Unic,  30     |           rather that the Lord is doing something when His hand
 79  Unic,  30     |          condition from saying or doing anything which may harm
 80  Unic,  30     |     against me in case I might be doing so. I knew quite well that
 81  Unic,  30     |      things I had been saying and doing. At other times, if the
 82  Unic,  30     |          to suffer again if by so doing it can render the Lord greater
 83  Unic,  30     |   imagination, I think, which are doing me harm here. My will, I
 84  Unic,  30     |         foolishness: I seem to be doing neither good nor evil, but
 85  Unic,  30     |          or tidying an oratory or doing other trifling things which
 86  Unic,  30     |             I do not know if I am doing right to say so much about
 87  Unic,  30     |      little time) without perhaps doing any good by it.~
 88  Unic,  31(244)|       which is not the case here) doing so completely dislocates
 89  Unic,  31     |         do not want to seem to be doing what I am not.~
 90  Unic,  31     |       that is impeding one who is doing so much for God? Why, simply
 91  Unic,  31     |           fire. I am incapable of doing more than that, but the
 92  Unic,  31     |         in doubt about it; and my doing so damaged neither my honour249
 93  Unic,  31     |         the choir. I felt that by doing this I was serving angels
 94  Unic,  32     |  satisfied with anything short of doing all that we can. Let us
 95  Unic,  32     |        serve God and refrain from doing certain things which I see
 96  Unic,  32     |        find some way and means of doing penance for all my evil
 97  Unic,  33     |         about the virtue of never doing the slightest thing save
 98  Unic,  33     |      blessed Saint -- the Lord is doing still more for us. Without
 99  Unic,  34     |          all this work that I was doing, it could not be done so
100  Unic,  34     |           so that I need not mind doing so myself.~
101  Unic,  35     |          her if I went I might be doing a great service to God,
102  Unic,  35     |       enter the battle, I was not doing so immediately. Thus was
103  Unic,  36     |           clearly that it was his doing. As I have never known what
104  Unic,  36     |      there was plenty of time for doing so, that it was the Bishop'
105  Unic,  36     |           near relative -- unless doing so will help to enkindle
106  Unic,  38     |          try to discover a way of doing so, I find it impossible;
107  Unic,  38     |           such visions, for by so doing He helps them greatly, yet
108  Unic,  38     |           to prevent himself from doing so. In the end, God gave
109  Unic,  38     |           this must be the Lord's doing. Soon after this, my spirit
110  Unic,  39     |          souls from purgatory and doing other such notable things,
111  Unic,  39     |       believing that the Lord was doing this because of my prayers --
112  Unic,  39     |       thousand times -- am I from doing this! It is because I am
113  Unic,  39     |        are they who serve Thee by doing great deeds. If I could
114  Unic,  39     |            they thought they were doing right and I did not know
115  Unic,  39     |        came from God, I should be doing wrong not to believe them.~
116  Unic,  40     |           Itself: "This that I am doing for thee is no small thing,
117  Unic,  40     |          Greatness! What art Thou doing, my Lord Almighty? Consider
118  Unic,  40     |       though He knows that we are doing all this, He none the less
119  Unic,  40     |        members of this Order were doing battle with great fervour.
120  Unic,  40     |          lives which are spent in doing this.~
121  Unic,  40     |           I am no more capable of doing so than is a sensible person
122  Unic,  40     |       will, that I may succeed in doing His will in all things,