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 1  Pref,   2|           am quite sure I am more afraid of people who are themselves
 2  Pref,   2|          she ever thought she was afraid of the Inquisition, would "
 3  Pref,   2|          before a person they are afraid of, I have seen them become
 4  Unic,   2|         never ceased to be sorely afraid of Him and I tried to make
 5  Unic,   3|       desire, although I was also afraid of marriage. By the end
 6  Unic,   4|       beginning, my soul shall be afraid, so that my merit may be
 7  Unic,   4|          there is no reason to be afraid that things will turn out
 8  Unic,   4|         book; my soul was as much afraid to engage in prayer without
 9  Unic,   5|        saw that all the nuns were afraid of it but for my own part
10  Unic,   5|          think I was in the least afraid of being ill, for I was
11  Unic,   5|         Jesus85 made me very much afraid about my whole position
12  Unic,   6|           getting well. For I was afraid my patience would fail me;
13  Unic,   6|      dared not pray because I was afraid of the very deep distress
14  Unic,   6|  understand, I am not lying. I am afraid, and with good reason, that
15  Unic,   7|       utterly lost, I began to be afraid to pray. It seemed to me
16  Unic,   7|       truly, they need to be more afraid of the religious in their
17  Unic,   7|        friendship, he need not be afraid of becoming vainglorious:
18  Unic,   8|          to mortal sins, although afraid of them, I was not so much
19  Unic,   8|        the fears of those who are afraid to begin mental prayer:
20  Unic,   8|         do not know what they are afraid of. The devil does well
21  Unic,   8|           real harm. By making me afraid he stops me from thinking
22  Unic,  10|     mistake is for the soul to be afraid, thinking itself incapable
23  Unic,  11|        let him begin by not being afraid of the Cross and he will
24  Unic,  13|       after he had done so he was afraid.115 These first resolutions
25  Unic,  13|          health; he even makes us afraid that if we weep we shall
26  Unic,  13|        think devils are very much afraid of learned men who are humble
27  Unic,  19|           so it made me very much afraid; but, as I shall describe
28  Unic,  20|          nature at first makes us afraid of it, and we need to be
29  Unic,  20|       times in private, when I am afraid that I may be suffering
30  Unic,  20|          great distress, but I am afraid I cannot possibly do so:
31  Unic,  20|           are beginning, I become afraid, because they do not mean
32  Unic,  20|                    At first I was afraid, as I almost always am when
33  Unic,  20|          well. And although I was afraid, because I was so wicked,
34  Unic,  20|         the blessing that made me afraid, when I remembered how ill
35  Unic,  23|      deceptions,180 I began to be afraid, for the delight and the
36  Unic,  23|          distracted, I would grow afraid again and begin to wonder
37  Unic,  23|           this made me still more afraid; for I felt that it would
38  Unic,  23|           of the devil, but I was afraid lest on account of my great
39  Unic,  23|         direction he takes, he is afraid the danger will be greater
40  Unic,  23|       Company of Jesus; for I was afraid of my wickedness and thought
41  Unic,  24|          this reason they made me afraid, though on the other hand
42  Unic,  25| experience of this; I was so much afraid of it that I kept up my
43  Unic,  25|     deluded. I, too, was terribly afraid of this except when at prayer,
44  Unic,  25|    complete tranquillity: "Be not afraid, daughter, for it is I and
45  Unic,  25|       been thinking of? What am I afraid of? What is this? I desire
46  Unic,  25|        and I should not have been afraid to wrestle with devils,
47  Unic,  25|           I have hardly ever been afraid of them again -- indeed,
48  Unic,  25|           indeed, they seem to be afraid of me. I have acquired an
49  Unic,  25|           am quite sure I am more afraid of people who are themselves
50  Unic,  26|          act like a coward, or be afraid of anything, save of offending
51  Unic,  26|         will be said, that we are afraid. Certainly there is nothing
52  Unic,  27|          I was at first very much afraid, and did nothing but weep,
53  Unic,  27|         to say about him but I am afraid Your Reverence will ask
54  Unic,  27|    subject -- indeed, I have been afraid of that even while writing.
55  Unic,  28|           that I sometimes became afraid, my fear was short-lived,
56  Unic,  28|          confusion. I was so much afraid, then, that I was plunged
57  Unic,  28|        that I had no reason to be afraid and every reason to praise
58  Unic,  28|    persons by that way, they were afraid and thought that what I
59  Unic,  28|        All this worried me. I was afraid that there would be no one
60  Unic,  28|          about that I need not be afraid that He would fail me. He
61  Unic,  29|           that my confessors were afraid to hear my confessions or
62  Unic,  29|       come again: I was not to be afraid, they said, and God would
63  Unic,  30|           impulses, I began to be afraid of them, for I could not
64  Unic,  30|       able to make me feel either afraid enough or secure enough
65  Unic,  30|         lie, but I was thoroughly afraid. One of them, realizing
66  Unic,  31|         me still. I was very much afraid and made the sign of the
67  Unic,  31|        him, I laughed and was not afraid. Some of the sisters who
68  Unic,  31|  regaining my tranquillity. I was afraid to ask for holy water, lest
69  Unic,  31|        and I was not in the least afraid. This happened nearly always
70  Unic,  31|   tormented me and so little am I afraid of them, now that I see
71  Unic,  31|          with in order to make us afraid. Let him realize that, every
72  Unic,  31|     against God, that I am hardly afraid of them at all: for their
73  Unic,  31|          Lord asked me what I was afraid of, for only two things
74  Unic,  31|       small reason here for being afraid, and I certainly ought to
75  Unic,  32|      pains of hell, I was neither afraid of them nor rated them at
76  Unic,  33|          So I told them not to be afraid, for my soul would be in
77  Unic,  33|           things I said made them afraid, but this Father Rector
78  Unic,  34|      others did not. I was sorely afraid that they would say something
79  Unic,  35|           good idea, though I was afraid that no one would ever agree
80  Unic,  35|       other possession. But I was afraid that, if others were not
81  Unic,  35|       part, as I say, I was never afraid of being without these things.
82  Unic,  35|         why it is that people are afraid to set out upon the way
83  Unic,  35|       upon Him and we must not be afraid that this Sun of Justice
84  Unic,  35|                    People are not afraid to walk among lions, each
85  Unic,  36|          purgatory.313 What was I afraid of? I asked myself. I had
86  Unic,  36|         nothing at all, but I was afraid that the foundation might
87  Unic,  37|         and God-serving men, were afraid that I might in some way
88  Unic,  37|          as wicked as I should be afraid.~
89  Unic,  38|         too great a favour. I was afraid lest it might be an illusion,
90  Unic,  38|         this kind, I was the more afraid, and did nothing but shed
91  Unic,  38|   previously I had been very much afraid. Now it seems to me very
92  Unic,  38|       communicate, and I was sore afraid, for, I thought, had it
93  Unic,  38| remembrance of it always makes me afraid.~
94  Unic,  39|   detached as I used to be, I was afraid, seeing how wicked I was,
95  Unic,  40|         hope in Him and not to be afraid.~
96  Unic,  40|         ill of me, and others are afraid to have anything to do with