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  1  Intr,   0    |           spontaneous. It is hard to say how far this is the case
  2  Pref,   0    |           her argument, because they say what is better said elsewhere,
  3  Prot         |   PROTESTATIONS8~In all that I shall say in this Book, I submit to
  4  Prol         |            so earnestly begged me to say something to them about
  5  Prol         |             my style in what I shall say to them more acceptable
  6  Prol         |              pleased to enable me to say something concerning the
  7  Prol,   0    |              know what I am going to say I cannot set it down in
  8  Unic,   1    |              in the book which, as I say, I have already written,
  9  Unic,   2    |    experience. If you should do as I say and yet die of hunger, then
 10  Unic,   2    |         being given us, as one might say; for I should feel as if
 11  Unic,   2    |            to eulogize it, so I will say no more about it now. I
 12  Unic,   2    |           you by His blood. If I may say what my conscience bids
 13  Unic,   2    |         remember what I had begun to say, for I have strayed from
 14  Unic,   3    |     emphasize this so much and why I say we must help people who
 15  Unic,   3    |           this struggle, which, as I say, is not light, but a very
 16  Unic,   3    |             it is needless for me to say more. Let those who are
 17  Unic,   4    |            that you have asked me to say something to you. As an
 18  Unic,   4    |       acknowledgment of what I shall say, I beg you to read frequently
 19  Unic,   4    |             and teach me what I must say, so that it may be to His
 20  Unic,   4    |           peace come of doing what I say and many occasions of sin
 21  Unic,   4    |      speaking of them here except to say that they are wrong in anyone,
 22  Unic,   4    |            all this I should like to say a little now as well as
 23  Unic,   4    |           her confession briefly and say nothing more. It would be
 24  Unic, App    |           her confession briefly and say nothing more. It would be
 25  Unic,   5    |             that no one will dare to say anything about him to her
 26  Unic,   5    |             will even go farther and say that they should sometimes
 27  Unic,   5    |           superiors themselves. As I say, excellent reasons have
 28  Unic,   6    |             to write. Perhaps what I say may be of some profit, for
 29  Unic,   6    |              pleased to enable me to say it well. If at other times
 30  Unic,   6    |             If at other times what I say is [ridiculous and] nonsensical,
 31  Unic,   6    |            another world (or, let us say, another kingdom) exists,
 32  Unic,   6    |           treat of this, and you may say that you already know everything
 33  Unic,   6    |         nothing but the truth when I say that he whom the Lord brings
 34  Unic,   6    |         blindness, except when, as I say, it relates to persons who
 35  Unic,   6    |             if they wanted to, so to say, they could not love anything
 36  Unic,   6    |             This [holy affection], I say, merits the name of love,
 37  Unic,   6    |             the body (on which, as I say, they cannot dwell), fix
 38  Unic,   6    |              loved by Him; for, as I say, they know that no other
 39  Unic,   7    |             earthly affections -- to say nothing of illicit affections,
 40  Unic,   7    |             we are unable (as people say) to sit still under it;27
 41  Unic,   7(27)|             There remains, as people say, no patience"; but, as the
 42  Unic,   7(27)|             as the phrase "as people say" (which E. omits) suggests
 43  Unic,   7    |           dare send us; and if, as I say, we are not cautious, the
 44  Unic,   7    |            important I think I shall say a little more about it elsewhere,
 45  Unic,   7    |       greater length here, except to say that, provided they treat
 46  Unic,   8    |          includes everything else. I say "it includes everything
 47  Unic,   8    |           for ourselves? Since, as I say, all blessings are in Him,
 48  Unic,   8    |              ought to be; and I must say the same about all the virtues
 49  Unic,   8    |            experience -- [that is to say, if I have any success,
 50  Unic,   8    |              follow our customs will say so [before she is professed]:
 51  Unic,   9    |              we really leave when we say that we are leaving everything
 52  Unic,   9    |            of me, or so they used to say, and I was so fond of them
 53  Unic,  10    |             nor shall I mind if they say I am judging others by myself,
 54  Unic,  10    |            do penances, as one might say, without rhyme or reason;
 55  Unic,  10    |                    But why, you will say, does the Prioress excuse
 56  Unic,  10    |            any substance in what you say, there is always a physician
 57  Unic,  11    |             if you can bear a thing, say nothing about it. When the
 58  Unic,  11    |            is really ill, she should say so and take the necessary
 59  Unic,  11    |            it would be much worse to say nothing about it than to
 60  Unic,  11    |              What would all the nuns say of me! And how willingly
 61  Unic,  11    |             put up with everything I say. Let us remember our holy
 62  Unic,  12    |             is one long martyrdom? I say "long", for, by comparison
 63  Unic,  12    |           But how harsh it sounds to say that we must take pleasure
 64  Unic,  12    |              nothing, unless we also say what consolations and delights
 65  Unic,  12    |             too severe about it, and say that God grants consolations
 66  Unic,  12    |              to perfection. You will say that these are little things
 67  Unic,  12    |           are a beast of burden, and say you ought to be more sensitive
 68  Unic,  13    |              next. Believe me when I say this -- what an absurdity,
 69  Unic,  13    |              though, it is for me to say "Believe me" when the words
 70  Unic,  13    |             hers in some degree -- I say "in some degree" because,
 71  Unic,  13    |                       Believe what I say here; if you will not, I
 72  Unic,  13    |             of the religious life. I say once more that anyone who
 73  Unic,  13    |        foundress of this convent and say I have not warned her.~
 74  Unic,  13    |           even go backward. I do not say that such a nun must be
 75  Unic,  14    |                                    I say this because these times
 76  Unic,  15    |          said and what I am going to say next. Now what I have just
 77  Unic,  15    |          none whatever -- save, as I say, in a few cases where hiding
 78  Unic,  15    |             be a falsehood for us to say we have no sin. If, then,
 79  Unic,  15    |     undeservedly, I know not what to say for myself, or what I can
 80  Unic,  16    |           placing the board, as they say. You have asked me to tell
 81  Unic,  16    |             like this! However, they say that the game is sometimes
 82  Unic,  16    |           you will believe nothing I say -- and if I were to say
 83  Unic,  16    |              say -- and if I were to say something untrue intentionally,
 84  Unic,  16    |            at a time. And this, as I say, He does because He is testing
 85  Unic,  16    |           from the way because, as I say, we do not set our eyes
 86  Unic,  16    |             I'm no saint"; I used to say that myself.~
 87  Unic,  16    |         hands to the plough, as they say. Let there be nothing we
 88  Unic,  17    |           remains a little for me to say, which is of great importance
 89  Unic,  17    |                             I do not say this without good reason,
 90  Unic,  17    |            mean that it is for us to say what we shall do, but that
 91  Unic,  18    |            will be lost. Note that I say we must all strive to do
 92  Unic,  18    |          affect you, however, I will say no more about it.~
 93  Unic,  18    | contemplatives humility also. If you say you have no need of it,
 94  Unic,  19    |            me. There are books, as I say, in which the mysteries
 95  Unic,  19    |             can remember, that is to say, for it must have many more.
 96  Unic,  19    |            fire, in which case, they say, it only burns the more.
 97  Unic,  19    |            all their might. So, as I say, the water, which springs
 98  Unic,  19    |              the other. I should not say that this prayer I have
 99  Unic,  19    |             were not done for her. I say that she would almost have
100  Unic,  19    |              I have tried, as people say, to describe the end of
101  Unic,  20    |      provided for us. But He did not say: "Some must come by this
102  Unic,  20    |              whole. I do not mean to say that no one who has not
103  Unic,  20    |           great deal which you might say about God, and then there
104  Unic,  20    |           business is prayer. Do not say to yourselves: "I have no
105  Unic,  21    |             I speak of it here. As I say, it is most important --
106  Unic,  21    |          again and again people will say to us: "It is dangerous", "
107  Unic,  21    |             quite enough for them to say their Paternoster and Ave
108  Unic,  21    |            People are quite right to say this, and, were it not for
109  Unic,  21    |              will help you. I do not say that I will explain these
110  Unic,  21    |            or vocal prayer; but I do say that you yourselves require
111  Unic,  21    |              them courage. If people say there is danger in prayer,
112  Unic,  21    |            good thing it is. If they say that frequent communion
113  Unic,  21    |          ought not to be in what you say. If they answer "Yes" --
114  Unic,  22    |           have what you are going to say written down for you. It
115  Unic,  22(82)|            peer of the realm were to say "Just call me 'Sir."~
116  Unic,  22    |           mean, Christians, when you say that mental prayer is unnecessary?
117  Unic,  22    |          delays his arrival. Who can say that it is wrong if, before
118  Unic,  22    |       prayers which you are about to say you would be engaging in
119  Unic,  22    |           boy, knowing that he would say more if he had more to say,
120  Unic,  22    |           say more if he had more to say, to the speech of the wisest
121  Unic,  23    |                                    I say "wholly", but we must not
122  Unic,  23    |     resolutely and will try, as they say, to sell his life dearly,
123  Unic,  23    |             you of it. Still, I will say to anyone who is in doubt
124  Unic,  24    |         advise you, or, I might even say, to teach you (for, as your
125  Unic,  24    |          then no one will be able to say of us that we are repeating
126  Unic,  24    |        course, consider it enough to say our prayers as a mere habit,
127  Unic,  24    |              with that alone: when I say the Creed, it seems to me
128  Unic,  24    |          that this may suffice, as I say, to make us realize in Whose
129  Unic,  24    |                             You will say at once that this is meditation,
130  Unic,  24    |            the least bit tired, they say they are incapable of anything
131  Unic,  24    |            further. You are right to say that what we have described
132  Unic,  24    |         these means, we may learn to say the Paternoster well and
133  Unic,  25    |              all thought, and, as we say, taking the words out of
134  Unic,  25    |               Those of you who, as I say, have experience of supernatural
135  Unic,  26    |         prayer that you are about to say? Imagine that this Lord
136  Unic,  26    |                         A wife, they say, must be like this if she
137  Unic,  26    |             my true Spouse!" you may say to Him, if seeing Him in
138  Unic,  26    |            Take no heed of what they say to you; be deaf to all detraction;
139  Unic,  26    |            possibly do all this, and say that, if you had seen His
140  Unic,  26    |            who looked death (as they say) straight in the face. What
141  Unic,  26    |             telling the truth when I say that you can do this, for
142  Unic,  26    |             He will tell you what to say. If words do not fail you
143  Unic,  26    |           this aid you will learn to say your vocal prayers well,
144  Unic,  26    |             would be more correct to say) until the unfortunate soul
145  Unic,  27    |           and we should be unable to say another word. Oh, how appropriate,
146  Unic,  27    |             greatness could possibly say it would be. What son is
147  Unic,  28    |              the king is, or so they say, the court is too: that
148  Unic,  28    |             court is too: that is to say, wherever God is, there
149  Unic,  28    |              have already, as we may say, put out to sea; though
150  Unic,  28    |           close their eyes when they say their prayers; this, for
151  Unic,  28    |             you will laugh at me and say that this is obvious enough;
152  Unic,  28    |            is for this reason that I say He has perfect freedom,
153  Unic,  29    |             Paradise with her God. I say "desires", because you must
154  Unic,  29    |     understood of everything that we say in this book can be done,
155  Unic,  29    |          aside everything else, they say, in order to approach God
156  Unic,  29    |           there is no need for me to say as much as this. All I want
157  Unic,  29    |              Thou hast heard what we say to Thee?~
158  Unic,  29    |           there, we shall be able to say the Paternoster and whatever
159  Unic,  29    |          that, though we have had to say the Paternoster many times,
160  Unic,  29    |              acquire it (since, as I say, it is in our power to do
161  Unic,  30    |          would seem to be no need to say any more.~
162  Unic,  30    |           Now the good Jesus bids us say these words, in which we
163  Unic,  30    |            as though I were going to say that we must be angels to
164  Unic,  30    |            make this petition and to say our vocal prayers well.
165  Unic,  30    |         writing of this petition, to say a little about the beginning
166  Unic,  30    |            prayer as that. She would say a number of Paternosters,
167  Unic,  30    |           contemplate but could only say vocal prayers. She was quite
168  Unic,  30    |            becoming like them if you say your vocal prayers as they
169  Unic,  30    |          conscience. I shall have to say still more about this. Anyone
170  Unic,  31    |            wish for, and will gladly say with Saint Peter: "Lord,
171  Unic,  31    |                           Well, as I say, the soul is conscious of
172  Unic,  31    |              us to be careful how we say this prayer, the Paternoster,
173  Unic,  31    |             that when the Lord, as I say, puts His Kingdom into their
174  Unic,  32    |           little (little, that is to say, on our behalf) how canst
175  Unic,  32    |            His will in them. Do they say this because everyone else
176  Unic,  32    |           offers on our behalf or to say nothing about it. Let me
177  Unic,  32    |              true, for it is easy to say things and hard to put them
178  Unic,  32    |    understand. It seems very easy to say that we will surrender our
179  Unic,  32    |           realize with Whom (as they say) you are dealing and what
180  Unic,  32    |              no means seldom that we say these words to Him in the
181  Unic,  32    |              of our good! He did not say we must surrender our wills
182  Unic,  32    |            you, daughters, must both say and act, and give Him both
183  Unic,  32    |            important this is, I will say no more about it, but I
184  Unic,  32    |              to rule with Him, as we say, turn and turn about. So
185  Unic,  32    |            we repay God, since, as I say, we have nothing to give
186  Unic,  32    |         achieve everything. You must say: "Fiat voluntas tua."~
187  Unic,  34    |            yourselves to God, as you say, cease to be anxious for
188  Unic,  34    |          that, when she heard people say they wished they had lived
189  Unic,  34    |            Him. I do not tell you to say no prayers at all, for if
190  Unic,  34    |            take hold of my words and say I was talking about contemplation,
191  Unic,  34    |            you to it. No: you should say the Paternoster, realize
192  Unic,  36    |            sisters, that He does not say: "as we shall forgive."
193  Unic,  36    |             would take his part [and say] it was an insult; next,
194  Unic,  36    |              would be more proper to say, to make one weep. After
195  Unic,  37    |          Majesty knows that if, as I say, our actions and our words
196  Unic,  37    |           His Eternal Father, and to say: "Do this, Lord, and My
197  Unic,  37    |                               We may say this prayer only once, and
198  Unic,  37    |             that we shall do what we say; and so He will leave us
199  Unic,  37    |            and cannot fear, for they say they have trampled the world
200  Unic,  38    |               That being so, who can say that he possesses any virtue,
201  Unic,  38    |              look foolish when, as I say, it becomes clear that our
202  Unic,  38    |             us to ourselves, as they say, at every step. This is
203  Unic,  38    |           virtue -- patience, let us say -- because we have determination
204  Unic,  38    |           annoying word which people say to you your patience will
205  Unic,  38    |        people who practise prayer. I say "with the lips" because,
206  Unic,  38    |         hearts what we were going to say, the devil could not possibly
207  Unic,  38    |          more firmly. But when, as I say, we keep on the watch, we
208  Unic,  39    |          about these things now," we say, "and I realize that they
209  Unic,  39    |             own unworthiness. I will say no more here, for you will
210  Unic,  39    |         about this, for very few who say the Paternoster in the way
211  Unic,  40    |          even a blind man, as people say, could see them. You may
212  Unic,  40    |             what is wrong with them, say their prayers, walk in humility
213  Unic,  40    |            this means to harm us, to say nothing of others. First,
214  Unic,  40    |         could be concealed. For they say that it is impossible for
215  Unic,  41    |          surprises us to hear people say: "So-and-so has made me
216  Unic,  41    |              sorry not to be able to say a little about this worldly
217  Unic,  41    |             is as though one were to say: "Lord, although this displeases
218  Unic,  41    |              to it; see that all you say tends to edification; flee
219  Unic,  41    |           not dare to do so lest you say too much and may perhaps
220  Unic,  42    |             vocal prayer or make you say the Paternoster hurriedly,
221  Unic,  42    |          little about how you should say the Ave Maria, but I have
222  Unic,  42    |              you have learned how to say the Paternoster well, you
223  Unic,  42    |              enough to enable you to say all the other vocal prayers
224  Unic,  42    |              can think of nothing to say. The Lord has shown you
225  Unic,  42    |              in the book which, as I say, I have already written.145
226  Unic,  42    |            what I have been going to say, as the Lord has taught