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501 HardDays | spiritual advisor - late bishop Leonid did not bless me. I was
502 AllMyLife | priest, but a thief. A good lesson again. And when I already
503 AllMyLife | it I to send such gutter letters to? Well, of course, my
504 TruePastor | unmasked their dissolute, licentious, splendourous, sinful life.~
505 AllMyLife | because I liked it so much to lie there (4), doing nothing,
506 TruePastor | persecuted during one's lifetime, driven to death, and in
507 AllMyLife | in races, you know, or to lift up forty-pound dumbels.
508 AllMyLife | the vespers she went out, lighted up kerosin lamps or something
509 AllMyLife | lived there not because I liked it so much to lie there (4),
510 | likely
511 HardDays | settling down were very limited and horrible is the fact
512 AllMyLife | showing) there was a tramway line, and my window was right
513 AllMyLife | But by some reason they lingered with it, then one month
514 AllMyLife | May be you will ... loath listening it. I didn't intend to go
515 AllMyLife | was on me. And we had two liturgies a day there. I was helping
516 AllMyLife | I took from the bank a loan for 1000 rubles in today'
517 AllMyLife | aforehand. May be you will ... loath listening it. I didn't intend
518 AllMyLife | on the first floor, and a lodgement beneath...~You may ask:
519 HardDays | of all that I felt myself lonely. Do not think, my dear,
520 OnWorship | our hand on the plough and look back" and therefore don'
521 AllMyLife | noisy, you know: at night lorries went there and back and
522 HardDays | a long journey he, if he loves his family, endeavors to
523 HardDays | love for me, and in your loyalty. No, but I was horrified
524 OnWorship | for the kingdom of God" (Luke 9:62). But we are still
525 HardDays | made noise as much as their lungs allowed. In many temples
526 HardDays | realizing the responsibility lying on me as on the father and
527 OnWorship | drawn, attracted as by a magnet to a well-defined order,
528 OnWorship | idea that appears to be the main here.~But something has
529 TruePastor | Holy Apostles, - the then major temple of Constantinople, -
530 AllMyLife | there appeared to be no majority vote. And so I left.~But
531 | makes
532 TruePastor | bishops and presbyters in managing the community's affairs.
533 OnWorship | Christian life, which is manifest to anyone and to you and
534 TruePastor | decorating churches with marble and gold, he spent them
535 TruePastor | the streets, squares, and market places he walked, preaching,
536 HardDays | us into destruction both material and spiritual, and on the
537 AllMyLife | been taught that way) I was matriculated at an institute. That was
538 AllMyLife | you, to humble ourselves (Matt. 18:4), we all have to be
539 OnWorship | more and more order. No matter new order or old.~And so,
540 AllMyLife | gave". But what does it mean, "Father Sergi gave money"?
541 TruePastor | presbyter explain them the meaning of the Scriptures passage
542 AllMyLife(6)| men, that I might by all means save some." (1 Cor. 9:26)
543 AllMyLife | town. I said: "Gather the meeting of representatives". Well,
544 AllMyLife | illiterate, slanderous, mendacious, foul, foul letter. Who
545 OnWorship | astonishing reason were not even mentioned in those wonderful old Byzantian
546 AllMyLife | wouldn't even find them worth mentioning aloud. But I was deeply
547 AllMyLife | it. Today we are treated mercifully, we are given flats, but
548 AllMyLife | there for the fortune's mercy, and that's it. So, she
549 OnWorship | obvious and in some sense even mere. But behind the simplicity
550 AllMyLife | sent to extinguish all that mess.~And again I lived there.
551 HardDays | teaching of Gospel. ~Finally metropolitan Sergi, later patriarch Sergi,
552 AllMyLife | then later through two micro heart-attacks and a stroke
553 AllMyLife | Kolchitski: "Christ is in our midst" and he would answer: "He
554 TruePastor | was carried through whole Minor Asia, the contemporary Turkey,
555 AllMyLife | though it's there only five minutes walk. Not a single time!
556 AllMyLife | heart endure it? This is a miracle.~So, I wasn't sick. Why
557 AllMyLife | poridge.it was all my life: misfortune - glory to God, good fortune -
558 AllMyLife | strictly. And I was sent on a mission to make an inspection together
559 TruePastor | He was sending people, missionaries to preach the word of God
560 TruePastor | great preacher, but a great missionary as well. He was sending
561 HardDays | people praying, if I'm not mistaken. ~Now I return to the beginning:
562 HardDays | of leaven makes the whole mixing sour. I hoped the parishioners
563 AllMyLife | all my family lived very moderately, - for all my life I haven'
564 TruePastor | lawyer who, speaking in the modern language, could have made
565 TruePastor | knew that John was very modest and would not wish to be
566 AllMyLife | superfluous, everyone is dressed modestly? ~For instance, yesterday
567 TruePastor | strove for the exploits of monasticism. For six years, being already
568 AllMyLife | I am a good-for-nothing monk, but my spirit, it requires
569 AllMyLife | lingered with it, then one month passed, he had a stroke,
570 TruePastor | bishop again, only for six months. His enemies: the bishop
571 HardDays | required great efforts, great moral and physical strengths. ~
572 | mostly
573 HardDays | little by little we were moving forward and I imperceptibly
574 AllMyLife | different! I cannot live in mudain surroundings. Though I am
575 OnWorship | might seem to somebody too mystical, too uncertain, too much
576 HardDays | and therefore walked the narrow path I had chosen. I loved
577 AllMyLife | self-denial. The simpler, the narrower - the closer to Christ.~
578 AllMyLife | fortune - glory to God, narrowness - glory to God! So everywhere
579 AllMyLife | co-operation had not been yet nationalised. In every uyezd there must
580 TruePastor | and all its good for all nations, for every single man or
581 TruePastor | in Constantinople, bishop Nectarius had passed away, then in
582 AllMyLife | oneself for serving one's neighbour. That one is a Christian.
583 TruePastor | patriarchate of Constantinople and neighbouring: of Alexandria, Antioch,
584 AllMyLife | To love, to serving your neighbours. This is, my dear, what
585 TruePastor | the people, serving one's neightbour that this serving would
586 AllMyLife | rather not a son, but a nephew. And in the same very uyezd,
587 HardDays | might beget. I welcomed that newness with my heart, grieved and
588 AllMyLife | father K*. I've got very nice relations of the private
589 AllMyLife | When he came to me we had a nicest conversation and I'm always
590 OnWorship | in His conversation with Nicodemos, and even more, - in His
591 OnWorship | conversation of the Lord with Nicodimos. Christ clearly speaks there
592 AllMyLife | priest, not on protopresbyter Nicolai, all of the cathedral was
593 AllMyLife | very noisy, you know: at night lorries went there and back
594 AllMyLife | work, a work. Sleepless nights, because the same thoughts
595 TruePastor | powers that be, the rich, noble, and the clergy, especially
596 HardDays | singing - protodeacons made noise as much as their lungs allowed.
597 AllMyLife | the street there is very noisy, you know: at night lorries
598 | None
599 TruePastor | church's possession not on nonsensical adornments, not on rich
600 HardDays | discover a way in those not-easy situations. What did I think
601 HardDays | those men, or even rather not-men, roam around the temple
602 AllMyLife | domination of pops - Translator's note).~Our trouble is that the
603 AllMyLife | They in their ugly letter noticed that our boxes... - well,
604 AllMyLife | coming here for? That to get nourished. We, like bees, take pollen,
605 TruePastor | Basilisk (near Poti, Pitsunda, Novy Aphon) in 407 AD he died. ~
606 TruePastor | brothers lived as one man, in obedience, fasting, prayer, and labour.
607 TruePastor | Scripture as well), but were obliged to interpret them to people
608 HardDays | there should have been no obstacles for the civil part, for
609 OnWorship | conception of water, which obviously is being perceived by the
610 TruePastor | in timelessness, at any occasion, at any opportunity, and
611 TruePastor | preacher, a prayer for all the offended. Every one knows that we
612 AllMyLife | lived there in a kind of office room. Here you know (showing)
613 HardDays | the old thieves the new ones came in their stead who
614 AllMyLife | All my life is open before you..." (Archimandrite
615 TruePastor | clergy, I have to say it openly, began to hate him. For
616 HardDays | I, although having some opportunities to move, had stayed in this
617 TruePastor | having not reached the place ordered him for residence, in Komana,
618 OnWorship | lacking capability to be organized by Law. But one cannot organize
619 TruePastor | organize hospitals, almshouses, orphanages, houses for the aged people,
620 AllMyLife | faith with them. I am more Orthodox man than they. I have also
621 | others
622 AllMyLife(4)| In the cottage ouside of the city;~
623 HardDays | flock who could make a great outrage in our temple as he did
624 HardDays | disgraceful thing although outside of the temple, but it was
625 OnWorship | behind the simplicity of the outward form frequently something
626 HardDays | having been turned as an overcoat, which already was not the
627 AllMyLife | to stay at their places overnight. Wonderful people - wonderful,
628 AllMyLife | a man who perhaps even owed me his life, had said: "
629 TruePastor | away, then in the emperor's palace the powerful ruler of that
630 AllMyLife | I returned to where my parents lived and started working. ~
631 AllMyLife | when trams return to the park, - before that I never understood
632 AllMyLife | our lives, and my life in particular, so it will be.~So, my dear,
633 AllMyLife | room. It is split into two parts. In one part cleaners were
634 TruePastor | meaning of the Scriptures passage they had read. For ten years
635 HardDays | sympathy for the world that was passing away. My heart was rather
636 HardDays | therefore walked the narrow path I had chosen. I loved the
637 AllMyLife | me that there is no other patient in Moscow like me, another
638 TruePastor | hierarchs from the same patriarchate of Constantinople and neighbouring:
639 TruePastor | theologian, teacher, father, and patron of his people. In that time
640 TruePastor | his own metropolitans - Paul of Heraclia and others again
641 AllMyLife | my attitude to them was peaceful.~But there are church's
642 | per
643 OnWorship | which obviously is being perceived by the Christian consciousness
644 TruePastor | happens in life: one is being persecuted during one's lifetime, driven
645 TruePastor | but a conscious pagan, a pertinacious pagan. But it was one of
646 TruePastor | Libanius - the most renowned philosopher of that time, who, however,
647 TruePastor | was one of the greatest philosophers of that time. And Christians,
648 HardDays | efforts, great moral and physical strengths. ~But little by
649 AllMyLife | heating in the room and the pipes went right through the walls,
650 TruePastor | St. Basilisk (near Poti, Pitsunda, Novy Aphon) in 407 AD he
651 HardDays | incredibly important task placed upon it." And so I waited
652 TruePastor | not been her anger that played the key role, for John Chrisostom
653 AllMyLife | capable of. Therefore I can't plead my sickness. Yes, I am always
654 TruePastor | taken a thing or fenced a plot of land and said: 'this
655 OnWorship | constantly "put our hand on the plough and look back" and therefore
656 HardDays | one of those preparing to plunder the spiritual treasure we
657 AllMyLife | spiritually difficult.~The point is that I've got a difference
658 HardDays | consciousness. It was an act of a political character, not gospel's.
659 AllMyLife | nourished. We, like bees, take pollen, carry it to our hives,
660 AllMyLife | than they do. But I hate popovstvo (domination of pops - Translator'
661 TruePastor | money, all the church's possession not on nonsensical adornments,
662 HardDays | But, unfortunately, the possibilities for such settling down were
663 AllMyLife | Trinity and in the morning a postman delivered me that letter.
664 TruePastor | driven to death, and in postumousness, - praised and glorified.~
665 TruePastor | temple of St. Basilisk (near Poti, Pitsunda, Novy Aphon) in
666 TruePastor | the emperor's palace the powerful ruler of that time Evtropius
667 HardDays | idea seemed to me quite practicable. I thought there should
668 HardDays | everywhere I tried to put into practice the desires that lived in
669 TruePastor | and in postumousness, - praised and glorified.~He was buried
670 AllMyLife | the number of those who prayed became bigger, and the donations
671 TruePastor | sisters, pray that through the prayers of St. John Chrisostom God
672 TruePastor | people, missionaries to preach the word of God in Arabia,
673 TruePastor | at the cathedra, but John preferred to become a lawyer after
674 TruePastor | that this is a renowned prelate, a great preacher, a prayer
675 TruePastor | guidance of a bishop or a presbyter explain them the meaning
676 HardDays | Christ's love. May the Lord preserve you. ~1969~ ~
677 TruePastor | his famous sermon that is preserved up until today, and it begins
678 AllMyLife | gates of Hades shall not prevail the Church". We have to
679 AllMyLife | took the last sheep as a price for serving at the funerals.
680 HardDays | through them humbled my pride, opened for me the way I'
681 AllMyLife | I began a struggle. For priesthood. That at the God's throne
682 HardDays | sing, for we have lost our primacy, we have defiled the garments
683 AllMyLife | Because there were other problems. There were too many things
684 HardDays | me as on the father and proceeding from my loving heart. I'
685 AllMyLife | t be healthy, but great professionals yet have told me that there
686 AllMyLife | to put everything in its proper place. When I came I didn'
687 TruePastor | powers of the then world and, properly saying, of today's world
688 TruePastor | that be, the powers of the propertied, especially of the rich.
689 TruePastor | very rich, cultural, and prosperous, yet Christian family and
690 HardDays | heard blasphemous singing - protodeacons made noise as much as their
691 AllMyLife | superior priest, not on protopresbyter Nicolai, all of the cathedral
692 OnWorship | do. Because in order to prove the opposite one has to
693 AllMyLife | have to use them the most prudent way. And here I appeared
694 HardDays | things.~... My dear, the psalm "On the Rivers of Babylon"
695 TruePastor | Sevirian of Gavala, Antioch of Ptolemiada, and his own metropolitans -
696 AllMyLife | old man does. Because a pure heart immediately takes
697 OnWorship | amazing that they, in a purely elinistic or elin spirit,
698 AllMyLife | corner, I don't know what purpose it served there for. It
699 AllMyLife | such that to participate in races, you know, or to lift up
700 AllMyLife | white vestments. Not in rags like myself, but people
701 AllMyLife | to a church near Kurski railway station, - to the church
702 AllMyLife | person (it's in today's rate, back then it was 2500),
703 TruePastor | contemporary Georgia and having not reached the place ordered him for
704 OnWorship | 24). It may be that as a reaction on the unworthiness of the
705 OnWorship | Christian consciousness. When reading books dedicated to our history
706 TruePastor | little do we know about his real life, not the life described
707 HardDays | hierarchy, first of all, will realize the incredibly important
708 HardDays | want it to come sooner, but realizing the responsibility lying
709 OnWorship | bright and joyful, let us recall what Christ said to us in
710 | recently
711 TruePastor | in worship a special way: recite the ektenia and invite to
712 HardDays | occurred, issued a decree about recognizing the soviet power and praying
713 AllMyLife | he, well, finally would reconcile me with him. Because one
714 HardDays | I didn't see the church recover a consciousness worth the
715 TruePastor | them on building hospitals, refuges for the homeless, orphans,
716 AllMyLife | representatives". Well, he could not refuse and gathered them. I reported
717 AllMyLife | Alexis had various intentions regarding me. But I am a man of a
718 HardDays | were close to the church rejoiced it. And back then it was
719 AllMyLife | father K*. I've got very nice relations of the private character
720 HardDays | instead of having a sigh of relief and being happy that God
721 AllMyLife | telling you that a small remainder of the strenghts I've got
722 AllMyLife | define them well that they remembered even for the future, and
723 HardDays | being happy that God had removed a good-for-nothing pastor
724 TruePastor | invite them for splendourous repasts where all the food though
725 AllMyLife | raised a question about replacing the chairman, there appeared
726 AllMyLife | refuse and gathered them. I reported everything. But, - well
727 AllMyLife | Gather the meeting of representatives". Well, he could not refuse
728 AllMyLife | monk, but my spirit, it requires special conditions. So,
729 TruePastor | the place ordered him for residence, in Komana, in the temple
730 AllMyLife | my life was in a health resort, and all my people lived
731 TruePastor | And one of the deacon's responsibilities was to run all that: visit
732 HardDays | sooner, but realizing the responsibility lying on me as on the father
733 AllMyLife | again going by. And again no rest.~In Bogorodskoye church
734 AllMyLife | of vodka, never went to a restoraunt, my dear, never in my life
735 OnWorship | frequently we forget what Christ revealed to us and what He called
736 OnWorship | we did not perceive the revelation given in the Gospel of St.
737 AllMyLife | letter, sent to me for a review as if with the blessing
738 OnWorship | woman by her not too much revived heart could perceive the
739 TruePastor | in that time flourished a richer cultural city, one of the
740 AllMyLife | sickness with our love that to rise and to carry our cross further.~
741 OnWorship | worshipped God did it only ritually, only according to the Law,
742 HardDays | dear, the psalm "On the Rivers of Babylon" always must
743 HardDays | or even rather not-men, roam around the temple and, I
744 TruePastor | anger that played the key role, for John Chrisostom was
745 TruePastor | brothers and sisters, they rose against John Chrisostom,
746 OnWorship | order, a well-defined daily routine, that everything would be
747 TruePastor | does not exist today, only ruins remain where in that time
748 TruePastor | living in accordance with the rule of communal life where everything
749 TruePastor | emperor's palace the powerful ruler of that time Evtropius who
750 OnWorship | canonical and following the rules of the Law! And very frequently
751 AllMyLife | went there and back and the rumble was horrible. And the window
752 TruePastor | responsibilities was to run all that: visit those in
753 HardDays | they gave me a piece of the rye bread I would have been
754 TruePastor | in the pious lives of the saints, but the one that was in
755 TruePastor | Aryans, heretics. And for the sake of preaching to them John
756 OnWorship | know what we worship, for salvation is from the Jews. But the
757 TruePastor | his health was terribly sapped that he suffered then all
758 AllMyLife | all right, thank you. We sat down to the table, ate that
759 AllMyLife | go here today, but last Saturday I was visited by our Fr.
760 AllMyLife(6)| that I might by all means save some." (1 Cor. 9:26)
761 HardDays | Where could the souls get saved? ~The Lord led me a special
762 OnWorship | their significance grow scarce?~One can see these words
763 TruePastor | all bishops who judged him scattered, and John Chrisostom returned
764 AllMyLife | son of an old and eminent scholar, or rather not a son, but
765 TruePastor | He was called from that seclusion by St. Meletios in 380 AD,
766 TruePastor | civil authorities for the second time exiled John Chrisostom.
767 AllMyLife | When I accomplished the secondary school (and the God's Law
768 HardDays | never had anything hidden, secret in my heart. And I thought
769 HardDays | in it that to set up and secure it the best way. And so
770 TruePastor | in the city. The people, seeing God's anger in it, arose
771 AllMyLife | cleaner at a hospital, and she sees how the ill are unattended
772 AllMyLife | Only prayer, quiet, and self-denial. The simpler, the narrower -
773 AllMyLife | seriously, I wish in today's seminaries it had been taught that
774 TruePastor | Khalkidon, - by the emperor, senate, government, and other authorities
775 AllMyLife | years of age. And is it I to send such gutter letters to?
776 TruePastor | missionary as well. He was sending people, missionaries to
777 OnWorship | there are many different senses. There is such, you know:
778 AllMyLife | Law was taught there very seriously, I wish in today's seminaries
779 TruePastor | and said there his famous sermon that is preserved up until
780 AllMyLife | morning and in the evening. Server in the morning, served in
781 AllMyLife | alone. And the number of services was not less than now, well,
782 HardDays | something. Before the father sets off on a long journey he,
783 HardDays | little by little the life settled down the way the heart of
784 TruePastor | Constantinople there was a settlement of Germanic tribes, the
785 HardDays | the possibilities for such settling down were very limited and
786 TruePastor | those two years through severe ascetic feats and hardships
787 TruePastor | Theothil; other metropolitans - Sevirian of Gavala, Antioch of Ptolemiada,
788 AllMyLife | done it? How had they no shame? I am 77 years of age. And
789 TruePastor | had been taken away to the shore opposite to Constantinople
790 TruePastor | happened that in exile, a very short exile because soon he died,
791 AllMyLife | with him nor anything alse. Shortly before his death (2) I even
792 AllMyLife | But already in that time I showed my complete disagreement
793 TruePastor | people's love, this way is shown to us by John Chrisostom.
794 HardDays | many afflictions here, many sicknesses, but little by little the
795 HardDays | gone, instead of having a sigh of relief and being happy
796 HardDays | years. Perhaps my heart has sighed and grieved over every single
797 OnWorship | goal. We as if lose its sight before ourselves. And it
798 HardDays | The Patriarch made the sign of the cross, I did too,
799 OnWorship | something very deep and significant can be found. What is new
800 OnWorship | seeking worshipers that are similar to Himself? It also seems
801 AllMyLife | quiet, and self-denial. The simpler, the narrower - the closer
802 OnWorship | even mere. But behind the simplicity of the outward form frequently
803 TruePastor | loved him with their very sincere, very hearty love. But during
804 HardDays | would attract into it people sincerely loving it, loyal to it,
805 OnWorship | have heard the appropriate singings. But it is amazing that
806 HardDays | aspiration to wash away one's sins with tears, not an understanding
807 AllMyLife | you honestly, - often I sit in that room thinking: "
808 AllMyLife | me to talk about it. The situation forces me as if to boast
809 AllMyLife | million, he is an unworthy slanderer. And I'm afraid he will
810 AllMyLife | written?~An illiterate, slanderous, mendacious, foul, foul
811 OnWorship | less intelligible church Slavonic, but in some Chinese.~It
812 AllMyLife | But it is a work, a work. Sleepless nights, because the same
813 AllMyLife | boast of myself I have no slightest intention. On such strong
814 OnWorship | our life that we did not slip off the way of Truth and
815 AllMyLife | Nobody made that radiator any smaller, there was even no switch
816 OnWorship | different spiritual and cultural soil, but for you and me, when
817 AllMyLife | priest in Vsehsviatskoye by Sokol, - well, when he had done
818 TruePastor | character. Then there were sent soldiers who kidnapped and arrested
819 TruePastor | his laps, gave order to solemnly transport the relics of
820 TruePastor | spent in a wilderness in solitude. And for those two years
821 AllMyLife | that only to sing here some solo or stand or listen to something
822 AllMyLife | And again worked for you. Someday the time comes and you will
823 | someone
824 | Sometimes
825 HardDays | sense that I want it to come sooner, but realizing the responsibility
826 AllMyLife | They, you know, have to be soothed, for this is like either
827 AllMyLife | intention. On such strong soporifics - I don't know how does
828 HardDays | that He visited me with sorrows and through them humbled
829 AllMyLife | theological disputes, nor any sort of singing, nothing at all.
830 HardDays | leaven makes the whole mixing sour. I hoped the parishioners
831 HardDays | decree about recognizing the soviet power and praying for it.
832 OnWorship | Nicodimos. Christ clearly speaks there about "a birth from
833 AllMyLife | way. And am I really to spend these strengths on the church'
834 OnWorship | hosts of angels and men, all spirits and souls are worshiping
835 AllMyLife | its greatness, only on its splendid worship... The spiritual
836 HardDays | something terrible, rich, splendorous. I heard blasphemous singing -
837 AllMyLife | a fenced off room. It is split into two parts. In one part
838 AllMyLife | speak today of what must be spoken. So it was, my dear, and
839 AllMyLife | not find there a single spot where one might feel not
840 AllMyLife | years I received here an 8 sqare metre room. In 75 years
841 AllMyLife | 75 years I received a 16 square metre room. And I will tell
842 TruePastor | but also in the streets, squares, and market places he walked,
843 OnWorship | but in some Chinese.~It is startling that we in our past did
844 AllMyLife | institute. That was the time of starvation and hardships. I returned
845 AllMyLife | church near Kurski railway station, - to the church of Protection.
846 AllMyLife | and that's it. So, she stays there, helps them, tries
847 AllMyLife | here - the coal. And two steps up - a small, not a room
848 AllMyLife | at the God's throne there stood worthiest people, not like
849 | stop
850 AllMyLife | Later I could build a two storied annex, however. There was
851 TruePastor | church, but also in the streets, squares, and market places
852 TruePastor | through his influence and strength, he could manage to quiet
853 AllMyLife | more and more. In what? Stretching to where? To love, to serving
854 HardDays | of a sudden I was heavily stricken. I learned there was a certain
855 AllMyLife | been treated a bit more strictly. And I was sent on a mission
856 TruePastor | church's court, had been stripped of his order and cathedra,
857 HardDays | all my heart have I been striving for it, not in a sense that
858 AllMyLife | slightest intention. On such strong soporifics - I don't know
859 HardDays | I thought we would get stronger and gradually create in
860 AllMyLife | pops. And then I began a struggle. For priesthood. That at
861 AllMyLife | conscience. This is what I struggled for. It was difficult to
862 AllMyLife | knew him (5) earlier when studied in that town. I said: "Gather
863 AllMyLife | participate in writing such a stupid letter. But, nevertheless,
864 TruePastor | exile.~But they did not succeed in it for the first time.
865 TruePastor | even wished him to be his successor at the cathedra, but John
866 HardDays | dear, absolutely all of a sudden I was heavily stricken.
867 AllMyLife | did you serve, why did you suffer so much? Well, because the
868 OnWorship | differently. None of words will be sufficient here. Therefore, celebrating
869 AllMyLife | everyone is thrifty, nothing superfluous, everyone is dressed modestly? ~
870 AllMyLife | are showing their ardent support).~
871 TruePastor | then. And the community supported all the poor, sick, aged,
872 TruePastor | where a capital's bishop was supposed to be buried. And in 438,
873 AllMyLife | because he (Tsypliakovski, his surename was, God bless him), through
874 HardDays | everything and comes out on the surface you can imagine what that
875 HardDays | difficulties that needed to be surmounted required great efforts,
876 OnWorship | Truth.~We should not be surprised by the fact that Christ
877 TruePastor | But along with that how surprisingly little do we know about
878 AllMyLife | I cannot live in mudain surroundings. Though I am a good-for-nothing
879 TruePastor | earn their own bread and sustain themselves. And one of the
880 AllMyLife | finished we discovered a lot of swindling. I was twenty - twenty one
881 AllMyLife | smaller, there was even no switch on it. On the other side
882 HardDays | young, and I didn't feel sympathy for the world that was passing
883 AllMyLife | our coming over to this system without a box at all. So,
884 AllMyLife | you. We sat down to the table, ate that buckweat poridge.
885 AllMyLife | nourished. We, like bees, take pollen, carry it to our
886 AllMyLife | a pure heart immediately takes it all in and absorbs deeply. ~
887 TruePastor | school. He was a young, talented, bright lawyer. A lawyer
888 OnWorship | brothers and sisters, Christ talked with the Samaritan woman
889 HardDays | the incredibly important task placed upon it." And so
890 AllMyLife | Let's come in, drink some tea. They will likely treat
891 HardDays | consciousness worth the teaching of Gospel. ~Finally metropolitan
892 TruePastor | hardships his health was terribly sapped that he suffered
893 TruePastor | yes, not only liturgical texts, but the Holy Scripture
894 OnWorship | Samaritan woman in the 4-th chapter of the Gospel according
895 AllMyLife | temple remain, then serving a thanksgiving - again half a temple remain,
896 TruePastor | since his death, emperor Theodosius, the son of Evdoxia, who
897 AllMyLife | need anything else. Neither theological disputes, nor any sort of
898 TruePastor | way of exploit, the way of theology, but along with that, this
899 TruePastor | words - the patriarch), Theothil; other metropolitans - Sevirian
900 AllMyLife | served it. On Wednesday ther was an acathistus to St.
901 AllMyLife | priest was no priest, but a thief. A good lesson again. And
902 HardDays | horror, instead of the old thieves the new ones came in their
903 OnWorship | says in the previous, - the third chapter of St. John's Gospel,
904 AllMyLife | nights, because the same thoughts constantly disquiet me...~
905 AllMyLife | everyone labours, everyone is thrifty, nothing superfluous, everyone
906 TruePastor | word of God, in time and in timelessness, at any occasion, at any
907 HardDays | may be very small, but a tiny piece of leaven makes the
908 AllMyLife | my dear, this insomnia tortures me already for twenty five
909 | towards
910 OnWorship | didn't become part of our traditional Christian consciousness.
911 HardDays | they flow because we have trampled the covenant of the Christ'
912 AllMyLife | know (showing) there was a tramway line, and my window was
913 AllMyLife | popovstvo (domination of pops - Translator's note).~Our trouble is
914 TruePastor | gave order to solemnly transport the relics of John Chrisostom.
915 HardDays | to plunder the spiritual treasure we had here. ~And when that
916 HardDays | it as for the very best treatment. That's what my heart was
917 TruePastor | a settlement of Germanic tribes, the Goths, who were Aryans,
918 HardDays | know, there was a God's tribunal over the people who had
919 AllMyLife | stays there, helps them, tries to encouorage them. And
920 AllMyLife | liturgy on the feast of Trinity and in the morning a postman
921 TruePastor | returned to his place with triumph. When people met him, he
922 AllMyLife | because every time they troubled me I gave them an appropriate
923 AllMyLife | wonderful, absolutely trustworthy. But I was staying in the
924 TruePastor | about him; we should also try to imitate his life. First
925 AllMyLife | Law of God, because he (Tsypliakovski, his surename was, God bless
926 TruePastor | Minor Asia, the contemporary Turkey, brought him to the final
927 HardDays | remained in it only having been turned as an overcoat, which already
928 AllMyLife | late, and when they were turning on the corner they made
929 HardDays | understand what I feel. ~The twentieth years of our life. Those
930 AllMyLife | was such achpriest Arkadi Tyschik, he is now a superior priest
931 HardDays | else, something absolutely unacceptable for the church's consciousness.
932 AllMyLife | she sees how the ill are unattended there, how nobody cares
933 OnWorship | somebody too mystical, too uncertain, too much lacking capability
934 HardDays | sins with tears, not an understanding of the fact that we brought
935 HardDays | house of God desired. But, unfortunately, the possibilities for such
936 AllMyLife | hired by a Co-operative Union. I began as an apprentice
937 AllMyLife | never heard from me a single unkind word. But now such a thing
938 TruePastor | began to hate him. For he unmasked their dissolute, licentious,
939 TruePastor | sinful life.~He was a brave unmasker. If, dear brothers and sisters,
940 OnWorship | that as a reaction on the unworthiness of the Christian life, which
941 AllMyLife | got a million, he is an unworthy slanderer. And I'm afraid
942 AllMyLife | strengths, my dear, I have to use them the most prudent way.
943 AllMyLife | was absolute anarchy and utter devastation. And when, -
944 AllMyLife | to tell it to you, it was utterly ruined. I could not find
945 OnWorship | One can see these words variously. They can be seen dogmatically,
946 AllMyLife | had neither heating, nor ventillation, nor light, - it had nothing
947 TruePastor | resolution, but according to the verdict of the church's court, i.e.
948 AllMyLife | closer to the end of the vespers she went out, lighted up
949 AllMyLife | myself, but in the white vestments. Not in rags like myself,
950 TruePastor | The word at the all-night vigil to St. John Chrisostom (
951 AllMyLife | imagine. Because such a vile letter, so bad that I even
952 AllMyLife | And for me it is enough vindication of my life. I'm doing a
953 HardDays | good and beautiful, but violence was foreign to me. At the
954 TruePastor | responsibilities was to run all that: visit those in need, help them,
955 TruePastor | True Pastor" (Archpriest Vitali Borovoi)~FROM THE SERMONS
956 AllMyLife | t drunk a single glas of vodka, never went to a restoraunt,
957 HardDays | Archimandrite Sergi)~From the volume II of sermons.~A lot have
958 AllMyLife | used to live at Krasnyie Vorota, but in 1938 the place where
959 AllMyLife | appeared to be no majority vote. And so I left.~But again
960 AllMyLife | now a superior priest in Vsehsviatskoye by Sokol, - well, when he
961 HardDays | temple and, I will repeat it, wait till there is a chance to
962 HardDays | And they are as if jackals waiting: "Here father Sergi falls
963 AllMyLife | got much money think I'm walking in the forest there by my
964 HardDays | going to trouble them and wanted from them nothing. I needed
965 HardDays | parish. And when after the war in 1947 I arrived in Moscow
966 AllMyLife | but at least made it a bit warmer... That is how I lived there.
967 AllMyLife | there, designed to give warmth to the entire temple. Nobody
968 OnWorship | chance that the Scripture warns us that we should not do
969 HardDays | saw not an aspiration to wash away one's sins with tears,
970 AllMyLife | I always served it. On Wednesday ther was an acathistus to
971 HardDays | And back then it was a weight off my mind and I felt gladness
972 HardDays | new life might beget. I welcomed that newness with my heart,
973 | wherever
974 | whether
975 | while
976 AllMyLife | only awaited it that to whip me another time. But they
977 AllMyLife | knew that whichever they whipped me, they couldn't do anything
978 TruePastor | Two years he spent in a wilderness in solitude. And for those
979 TruePastor | took his knowledge, his wisdom, not sharing though his
980 AllMyLife | can reach everything is withering. So, will I really have
981 AllMyLife | the God's help and I had withstood. They all have already gone
982 TruePastor | witnesses, as such a faithful witness was Saint John Chrisostom
983 TruePastor | strengths to be His faithful witnesses, as such a faithful witness
984 TruePastor | faces that anyone rich is a wolf, for the Lord created the
985 HardDays | them off as they drive the wolves off the sheep, but that
986 AllMyLife | from... from what age, I wonder? Well, I don't think I '
987 AllMyLife | parents lived and started working. ~I was hired by a Co-operative
988 HardDays | were, I must say it, even worse than the old. What could
989 OnWorship | Testament's life when those who worshipped God did it only ritually,
990 AllMyLife | God's throne there stood worthiest people, not like myself,
991 AllMyLife | who had written it, - I wouldn't even find them worth mentioning
992 AllMyLife | could not participate in writing such a stupid letter. But,
993 AllMyLife | Well, I don't think I 'm wrong if I say that it goes from
994 AllMyLife | modestly? ~For instance, yesterday I returned here from the
995 | yourself
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