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501   4,      6  |           customs and traditions of his order. He has also those
502   4,      6  |           anger, which wars against his benevolence; cruelty, against
503   4,      6  |       benevolence; cruelty, against his kindness; wrath, against
504   4,      6  |            kindness; wrath, against his benignity; hatred of virtue,
505   4,      6  |           faith that all these were his enemies who would defile
506   4,      6  |            enemies who would defile his spouse, holy obedience,
507   4,      6  |             knife of hatred he slew his perverse self-will, who,
508   4,      6  |              for he has trampled on his own will, and does not care
509   4,      6  |        examine or judge the will of his superior, for with the light
510   4,      6  |           according to the needs of his subject's salvation. Is
511   4,      6  |           and joy in the company of his spouse, true obedience,
512   4,      6  |           saddens him is to see Me, his Creator, offended. His conversation
513   4,      6  |              his Creator, offended. His conversation is with those
514   4,      6  |      brotherly love which he has in his heart towards them he would
515   4,      6  |           religious and seculars by his words and by prayer, and
516   4,      6  |            or with sinners, through his rightly ordered love and
517   4,      6  |             love and the breadth of his charity. Of his cell he
518   4,      6  |          breadth of his charity. Of his cell he makes a heaven,
519   4,      6  |          there to converse with Me, his supreme and eternal Father,
520   4,      6  |         thoughts come crowding into his cell, he does not sit down
521   4,      6  |             thoughts or opinions of his heart, but he flies sloth,
522   4,      6  |            rising above himself and his senses with hatred and true
523   4,      6  |         weariness which he feels in his mind, and resisting by watching
524   4,      6  |           prayer, fixing the eye of his intellect on Me, and seeing
525   4,      6  |            light of faith that I am his helper, and both can and
526   4,      6  |           to him that on account of his great weariness and the
527   4,      6  |       weariness and the darkness of his mind, mental prayer is impossible,
528   4,      6  |          for he despises himself in his own mind with hatred and
529   4,      6  |            enough pain, for neither his hope nor My providence fail
530   4,      6  |           stormy sea in the ship of his order, dwelling thus in
531   4,      6  |             order, dwelling thus in his cell as has been said, and
532   4,      6  |           himself he regards him in his eagerness with a holy envy,
533   4,      6  |          not wishing, however, that his brother should have less
534   4,      6  |           without, he has abandoned his temporal substance, observing
535   4,      6  |             even the necessities of his body. His cell is full of
536   4,      6  |            necessities of his body. His cell is full of the odor
537   4,      6  |          rust or moths will corrupt his garments; and if anything
538   4,      6  |           think of laying it by for his own use, but freely shares
539   4,      6  |           but freely shares it with his brethren, not thinking of
540   4,      6  |            does not wish to fulfill his obedience in his own way,
541   4,      6  |            fulfill his obedience in his own way, or to choose his
542   4,      6  |           his own way, or to choose his time or place, but prefers
543   4,      6  |              but prefers the way of his order and of his superior.
544   4,      6  |             way of his order and of his superior. All this the truly
545   4,      6  |             passes with this key in his hand through the narrow
546   4,      6  |         heights of pride, and bowed his head to obedience through
547   4,      6  |         humility. He does not break his neck through impatience,
548   4,      6  |           mortifying and macerating his flesh, stripping it bare
549   4,      6  |        injuries inflicted on him by his father, so this child of
550   4,      6  |           blows inflicted on him by his superior in the order, but
551   4,      7  |           In return for the gift of his own will. This is the one
552   4,      8  |          conscience, with hatred of his order and superior, insupportable
553   4,      8  |            disobedience he has made his mistress with her companion
554   4,      8  |             nourished by pride, and his own pleasure, which pride (
555   4,      8  |        force to incline the neck of his own will, and pride keeps
556   4,      8  |           pride keeps it erect, all his desires are in discord with
557   4,      8  |         into so many miseries, that his aspect is no longer that
558   4,      8  |          wretched man is deluded by his self-love, because the eye
559   4,      8  |       self-love, because the eye of his intellect is fixed, with
560   4,      8  |             dead faith, on pleasing his self-will, and on things
561   4,      8  |         body, but remained there in his affections, and because
562   4,      8  |         delights and make this life his eternity, but the order
563   4,      8  |          change gives him pain, for his will was active against
564   4,      8  |             will was active against his obedience, and yet he is
565   4,      8  |         contrary falls into it, for his blindness does not let him
566   4,      8  |         pain and bitterness. Who is his guide? Self-love, that is
567   4,      8  |           guide? Self-love, that is his own passion for disobedience.
568   4,      8  |           sea, with the strength of his own arms, trusting in his
569   4,      8  |           his own arms, trusting in his own miserable knowledge,
570   4,      8  |          navigate it in the arms of his order, and of his superior.
571   4,      8  |           arms of his order, and of his superior. Such a one is
572   4,      8  |           to observe at the time of his profession; he swims in
573   4,      8  |        fastened only to the ship by his clothes, wearing the religious
574   4,      8  |      wearing the religious habit on his body but not on his heart.
575   4,      8  |        habit on his body but not on his heart. Such a one is no
576   4,      8  |             man only in appearance. His life is lower than an animal'
577   4,      8  |           labors more swimming with his arms, than the good religious
578   4,      8  |            of eternal death; for if his clothes should be suddenly
579   4,      8  |            see, for he has darkened his light with the cloud of
580   4,      8  |          self-love, whence has come his disobedience, which prevents
581   4,      8  |           which prevents him seeing his misery, wherefore he miserably
582   4,      8  |          death, because the root of his affection is planted in
583   4,      8  |          foot of the tree; that is, his affections are corrupted.
584   4,      8  |             by this tree, which are his words, are so corrupt that
585   4,      8  |             of this tree, which are his diverse and various thoughts,
586   4,      8  | disobedience, for, in the secret of his heart, he wishes to examine
587   4,      8  |      examine and judge unfaithfully his superior's will; a stench
588   4,      8  |  conversations, wretchedly tempting his penitents. ~
589   4,      8  |             first to leave it; with his lips he approaches Me, with
590   4,      8  |         lips he approaches Me, with his heart he is far from Me.
591   4,      8  |           ship of the observance of his order, to drown him in the
592   4,      8  |             swim in the strength of his own arms, and not repose
593   4,      8  |           if he do not amend before his clothes are loosened from
594   4,      9  |         according to the measure of his love, and not according
595   4,      9  |            until the word is out of his mouth, for with the light
596   4,      9  |            of faith they understand his intention. Wherefore the
597   4,      9  |            judging that the will of his superior is fixed in My
598   4,      9  |            will, and that therefore his command comes from My dispensation,
599   4,      9  |     spiritually obeyed in affection his superior's will, seeing
600   4,      9  |    religious, who at once obeyed in his affection the command of
601   4,      9  |            affection the command of his superior, commencing to
602   4,      9  |      wherefore to show how pleasing his prompt obedience was to
603   4,      9  |          being given a dry stick by his abbot, and being ordered
604   4,      9  |         possibilities, he fulfilled his obedience in such virtue
605   4,      9  |     commanded by obedience, through his purity and virtue caught
606   4,      9  |            dragon and brought it to his abbot, but the abbot, like
607   4,      9  |             vainglory, and to prove his patience, sent him away
608   4,      9  |           to fulfill the command of his superior, and so walked
609   4,      9  |            If he eats, obedience is his food; if he sleeps, his
610   4,      9  |             his food; if he sleeps, his dreams are obedience; if
611   4,      9  |           is obedience; if he serve his neighbor, it is obedience
612   4,      9  |         choir, in the refectory, or his cell? By obedience, with
613   4,      9  |             slain and cast from him his humbled self-will, and abandoned
614   4,      9  |          self-hatred to the arms of his order and superior. Reposing
615   4,      9  |             himself to be guided by his superior, he has navigated
616   4,      9  |          and fear, having destroyed his own will, from which comes
617   4,      9  |     obedience imposed on Him by Me, His Eternal Father, so she becomes
618   4,      9  |           speaks words of peace all his life, and at his death receives
619   4,      9  |          peace all his life, and at his death receives that which
620   4,      9  |           which was promised him at his death by his superior, that
621   4,      9  |        promised him at his death by his superior, that is to say,
622   4,      9  |          the Blood, in company with his sister patience, and with
623   4,      9  |           of the virtues), receives his end from Me, his Creator." ~
624   4,      9  |           receives his end from Me, his Creator." ~
625 Lette,      0|          many graces in the name of His blessed spouse, and I doubt
626 Lette,      0|             and help you to grow in His grace. ~