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  1     Int         |         writings. What she herself thought of her books is best told
  2     Int         |          Reforma de los Descalços thought that they must have been
  3     Int         |        women of various schools of thought, it may be useful to notice
  4    Pref         |          her own account. He never thought of doubting the Saint's
  5    Pref         |        depths of her humility: "he thought the evil spirit might have
  6    Pref         |          of God, against those who thought that she was deluded by
  7    Pref         |          was not so much because I thought myself able to judge of
  8    Pref         |          judge of it, as because I thought I might, by the grace of
  9    Pref, 0(64)  |            soul to any one who she thought would believe that these
 10    Pref         |         her book; but Gratian  ./. thought it better to apply to the
 11    Life, II     |          away in other respects. I thought there was no harm in it
 12    Life, II     |            by this passion, that I thought I could never be happy without
 13    Life, II     |           other practices, which I thought then were not at all sinful;
 14    Life, II     |          to fail in that wherein I thought the honour of the world
 15    Life, II     |            me in all I did. When I thought that nobody would ever know,
 16    Life, II     |      shared in was with one who, I thought, would do well in the estate
 17    Life, III    |       prevailed there, and which I thought overstrained. Some of the
 18    Life, III    |            to bear it. I must have thought so, but I do not remember
 19    Life, IV     |          any other monastery, if I thought I should serve God better
 20    Life, IV     |            to become a nun—for I thought more of the salvation of
 21    Life, IV     |          had to bear. I have often thought with wonder of the great
 22    Life, V      |        over my sins at times, they thought I was discontented, and
 23    Life, V      | contemptible. I delighted in being thought well of by others, and was
 24    Life, V      |            I had to do. All this I thought was a virtue, though it
 25    Life, V      |        only they knew no better; I thought they were learned, and that
 26    Life, V      |          frequent confession. They thought I was driven by the fear
 27    Life, V      |            or rather every moment, thought I was dying; they did nothing
 28    Life, V      |       failed to confess anything I thought to be a sin, though it might
 29    Life, VI     |           up of love—for I never thought of chastisement. All the
 30    Life, VI     |          was. But, for all that, I thought I might serve God much better
 31    Life, VI     |         uncertain. Once, O Lord, I thought it impossible to forsake
 32    Life, VII    |            I saw myself so lost. I thought it would be better for me,
 33    Life, VII    |  affliction to me that I should be thought so well of; for I knew my
 34    Life, VII    |             3. The reason why they thought I was not so wicked was
 35    Life, VII    |           by such conversations. I thought that, as receiving visits
 36    Life, VII    |       derive myself from prayer. I thought that in this life there
 37    Life, VII    |          and yet saw that he still thought I was what I used to be,
 38    Life, VII    |         others should serve God. I thought, now that I did not myself
 39    Life, VII    |           other things, which they thought good. The reason is, that
 40    Life, IX     |           for those wounds, that I thought my heart was breaking. I
 41    Life, IX     |           I went in His company. I thought of the bloody sweat, and
 42    Life, IX     |            converted to Himself. I thought they would help me, and
 43    Life, IX     |            read the Confessions, I thought I saw myself there described,
 44    Life, IX     |           understood clearly, as I thought, that I loved Him; but I
 45    Life, XI     |            in our own power.~4. We thought, also, that we gave up all
 46    Life, XI     |            never can have one good thought.~14. This is beginning to
 47    Life, XI     |       purpose, or to have one good thought: working with the understanding
 48    Life, XII    |           therefrom are sweet. The thought of the blessedness we hope
 49    Life, XIII   |        Relating Thereto.~1. I have thought it right to speak of certain
 50    Life, XIII   |          during the time that they thought well of me in some measure.~
 51    Life, XV     |     ashamed of themselves, if they thought that they were giving up
 52    Life, XVIII  |          the last kind of water, I thought it more impossible for me
 53    Life, XVIII  |            as if it had never been thought of. If it reads, what is
 54    Life, XVIII  |      seemed to me to be so near, I thought it impossible. Not to believe
 55    Life, XIX    |         suffered so much because I thought it showed but little humility
 56    Life, XIX    |         murmured against me; for I thought they had reason on their
 57    Life, XIX    |            from everything which I thought displeasing unto Thee. It
 58    Life, XIX    |           my devotion grew; when I thought of Thy omnipotence, I accepted
 59    Life, XX     |         sore distress to me; for I thought it a most extraordinary
 60    Life, XX     |            me in such a way that I thought I saw them fulfilled in
 61    Life, XX     |            console myself with the thought, that our Lord, without
 62    Life, XX     |           fell into the trance, it thought itself to be careful about
 63    Life, XXI    |            kings,—if I might, or thought they would listen to me,
 64    Life, XXII   |            by little and little, I thought I might understand something.
 65    Life, XXII   |           remove from myself every thought of bodily objects; but I
 66    Life, XXII   |            was always so wicked. I thought, however, that I had a sense
 67    Life, XXII   |          that I could have had the thought, if only for an hour, that
 68    Life, XXII   |          cannot find even one good thought, as I said in another place;323
 69    Life, XXII   |           this life.329~24. I also thought of this comparison: supposing
 70    Life, XXIII  |       would was also impossible. I thought to myself that there was
 71    Life, XXIII  |          was not doing—and, as I thought, could not do—what he
 72    Life, XXIII  |           me. He, in his humility, thought them weaknesses; but, if
 73    Life, XXIII  |        being very much afraid—he thought that the evil spirit might
 74    Life, XXIII  |          what I should do. If they thought it right, I would give up
 75    Life, XXIII  |        they might give me light, I thought they ought to have been
 76    Life, XXIII  |           my own wickedness, and I thought I should be obliged to cease
 77    Life, XXIV   |       direction of His servants. I thought that would be a great evil,
 78    Life, XXIV   |      Spirit of God,352 and that he thought it was not right now to
 79    Life, XXIV   |           felt it very much, for I thought I should go back to my wickedness,
 80    Life, XXIV   |           affection in them, and I thought it would be an act of ingratitude
 81    Life, XXV    |           but even this very day I thought it possible. I know by experience
 82    Life, XXV    |        were, the first movement of thought, which passes away and is
 83    Life, XXV    |            itself wavering even in thought on this point, or stopping
 84    Life, XXV    |           the first movements of a thought like this is evidently most
 85    Life, XXV    |            was against me. Some, I thought, made a mock of me when
 86    Life, XXV    |           no comfort for me when I thought of the possibility that
 87    Life, XXVI   |            tempted to leave him; I thought that the pain he inflicted
 88    Life, XXVI   |            to reveal were great. I thought they did not believe  ./. 
 89    Life, XXVIII |          that I too imagined—the thought came at once—I had fancied
 90    Life, XXVIII |           for everything else, the thought that God did it all was
 91    Life, XXVIII |        frequently it was not so. I thought it was Christ Himself, judging
 92    Life, XXVIII |          was so indistinct, that I thought it was an image; but still
 93    Life, XXVIII |       remember, what we have never thought of, and, moreover, what,
 94    Life, XXVIII |        once filled with fear; they thought it all came through my sins.
 95    Life, XXX    |     possibility of thinking a good thought,  ./. or desiring the accomplishment
 96    Life, XXX    |           the subject of prayer, I thought I understood thoroughly,
 97    Life, XXXI   |         sins. At that time, too, I thought the evil spirits would have
 98    Life, XXXI   |           their deliverance, and I thought that Satan might in this
 99    Life, XXXI   |        Then I was tormented by the thought that, as these things came
100    Life, XXXI   |           movement towards an evil thought ought not to have come near
101    Life, XXXI   |         its feet.~14. I had such a thought now and then—and, indeed,
102    Life, XXXI   |         day, if I saw that any one thought well of me, I used in a
103    Life, XXXI   |            great risks.~ ./. 22. I thought a few years ago, not only
104    Life, XXXI   |           was not so detached as I thought, and that it was necessary
105    Life, XXXII  |         Who can endure it? It is a thought no heart can bear without
106    Life, XXXII  |            I could do for God, and thought that the first thing was
107    Life, XXXII  |         not know what to do, and I thought that people were partly
108    Life, XXXII  |            I said so, and though I thought so, I never lost a certain
109    Life, XXXII  |    moreover, he, as everybody did, thought it folly; and a certain
110    Life, XXXIII |         whom I conversed; for they thought I was exceedingly pained
111    Life, XXXIII |            that was in my power. I thought myself obliged to do no
112    Life, XXXIII |             and yet those about me thought I was exceedingly disheartened;
113    Life, XXXIII |           and give myself up, if I thought there was anything amiss;
114    Life, XXXIII |            never rid myself of the thought that the monastery would
115    Life, XXXIII |          great distress, because I thought my confessor did not trust
116    Life, XXXIII |          became a scruple to me. I thought then, when I was in that
117    Life, XXXIV  |         desire much to see me. She thought that my presence would be
118    Life, XXXIV  |           sent for me because they thought there was some good in me;
119    Life, XXXIV  |          greatest confusion when I thought of the reasons why they
120    Life, XXXIV  |      whither I was going, and so I thought I should be in some degree
121    Life, XXXIV  |             They perhaps must have thought I had some personal interest
122    Life, XXXIV  |        extremely distressed by the thought whether I was in the grace
123    Life, XXXIV  |           in great straits at this thought. I implored Him not to suffer
124    Life, XXXIV  |    unworthiness for such an end. I thought much of the graces our Lord
125    Life, XXXV   |          when she told me of it, I thought it right, though I feared
126    Life, XXXV   |             telling me that he had thought much on the subject. I answered
127    Life, XXXV   |          of superiorship. The very thought of this alone was a great
128    Life, XXXV   |        nothing but weep, because I thought that my cross was to be
129    Life, XXXV   |            was unable to pray, and thought I was failing in obedience
130    Life, XXXV   |            cross,—though I never thought it would be so heavy as
131    Life, XXXV   |    understand how this could be. I thought of this illustration: if
132    Life, XXXVI  |            was not here,537 for we thought it best she should be away,
133    Life, XXXVI  |      father St. Joseph. Not that I thought I had done anything myself,
134    Life, XXXVI  |           myself, for I have never thought so, and do not think so
135    Life, XXXVI  |         suffer for His sake; and I thought that if I carried them out,
136    Life, XXXVI  |      observed in all perfection. I thought of Christ receiving sentence,
137    Life, XXXVI  |          monastery that I might be thought much of, and to make myself
138    Life, XXXVI  |            and also how all people thought that merely twelve women,
139    Life, XXXVI  |            way; and yet the people thought  ./. there was so much in
140    Life, XXXVI  |            than at my own—that I thought it would not be amiss, till
141    Life, XXXVI  |           and imperfect as I am, I thought that perhaps our Lord wished
142    Life, XXXVI  |          is their delight; and the thought of being visited by any
143    Life, XXXVI  |         observances, which we have thought  ./. necessary for the more
144    Life, XXXVII |          representatives of God, I thought my will was always there
145    Life, XXXVII |        have said, are not slightly thought of in the world.~17. Is
146    Life, XXXVII |            cannot understand it. I thought that perhaps some saint
147    Life, XXXVIII|       night I was so unwell that I thought I might be excused making
148    Life, XXXVIII|          was humble, but because I thought he would laugh at me, and
149    Life, XXXVIII|          she valued very much. She thought this might amuse me; but
150    Life, XXXVIII|            men made much of; for I thought of what our Lord had laid
151    Life, XXXVIII|          my soul dwells upon it in thought; and it happens occasionally
152    Life, XXXVIII|           than an ordinary dove; I thought I heard the rustling of
153    Life, XXXVIII|        then never done any good, I thought He might be about to bestow
154    Life, XXXVIII|         raised up in spirit that I thought myself to be, as it were,
155    Life, XXXVIII|            my head stood,579 and I thought I should come to nothing.~
156    Life, XXXVIII|          but as I can have no good thought if Thou givest it not, no
157    Life, XXXVIII|          also in great fear, for I thought, if the vision was from
158    Life, XXXVIII|           to betray my distress. I thought of the treatment which that
159    Life, XXXVIII|          it to my confessor, and I thought it might be an illusion
160    Life, XXXVIII|            thirty years old, and I thought even younger, and there
161    Life, XXXVIII|          great virtue. I certainly thought that she would not go to
162    Life, XXXVIII|          me, to have even one good thought. The night before, one of
163    Life, XXXIX  |           a serious and mortifying thought that we are making much
164    Life, XXXIX  |         one of my actions, which I thought were of some service, I
165    Life, XXXIX  |            saw the form of them: I thought they might be the Evangelists.
166    Life, XXXIX  |            I had seen in heaven. I thought they were, perhaps, the
167    Life, XXXIX  |           I know not how it was: I thought I had been but a few minutes,
168    Life, XL     |        iota shall pass away."605 I thought that I had always believed
169    Life, XL     |          in the divine writings. I thought that I could rise above
170    Life, XL     |          am as one that is dead. I thought that no one would remember
171     Rel, I      |   reflections, as formerly, when I thought I was very devout, and shed
172     Rel, I      |      believe so, and to be without thought about food and raiment,
173     Rel, I      |      another person. Previously, I thought it a wrong to me that they
174     Rel, I      |          very constant dwelling in thought on God, is the ordinary
175     Rel, I      |            was that said so; and I thought that they must be saying
176     Rel, II     |        liberty of late. Hitherto I thought I had need of others, and
177     Rel, II     |            and sins, and without a thought that I was mistress enough
178     Rel, III    |          Jesus Christ only, always thought that the vision of the Three
179     Rel, III    |        know whether it was only in thought or not, for my brother was
180     Rel, III    |      trouble seemed to me light. I thought it impossible for any one
181     Rel, III    |           me and another sister. I thought it was done, not because
182     Rel, III    |     headache was so violent that I thought I could not possibly go
183     Rel, IV     |            A few days previously I thought that the vehement impulses
184     Rel, IV     |         and as nothing on earth, I thought, had any attractions for
185     Rel, IV     |      shedding It at that moment. I thought It was warm, and the sweetness
186     Rel, V      |            in contemplation; and I thought I understood, yet not by
187     Rel, V      |          before I had read this, I thought that it was poverty to possess
188     Rel, V      |            wife of Abraham, for he thought that she was his sister,
189     Rel, VI     |   recollected in such a way that I thought I must fall into a trance;
190     Rel, VI     |          from myself; and though I thought that my obedience would
191     Rel, VII    |           any for herself; for she thought that it mattered little
192     Rel, VII    |            herself as one who, she thought, did not deserve even to
193     Rel, VII    |          name is Ripalda,—and he thought very ill of her when he
194     Rel, VII    |            fears at times, for she thought that spiritual men also
195     Rel, VII    |           of whom she knew that he thought ill of her; for she, having
196     Rel, VII    |            she, having heard this, thought that he, better than any
197     Rel, VII    |            soul to any one who she thought would believe that these
198     Rel, VII    |     treated with contempt, for she thought some were really from God,
199     Rel, VII    |    therefore it was that she never thought herself altogether safe
200     Rel, VII    |             and by these means she thought she might obtain her deliverance,
201     Rel, VII    |        that at first she sometimes thought that all was the effect
202     Rel, VIII   |           it takes comfort in that thought, and offers its life to
203     Rel, IX     |         the latter preach; also, I thought it would not do because
204     Rel, IX     |          words were said because I thought he could not, with his weak
205     Rel, IX     |          When this day was come, I thought it would be well to renew
206     Rel, IX     |         light within me, so that I thought I was in another world,
207     Rel, IX     |         divert my attention; and I thought there was music also,—
208     Rel, XI     |         many years when~{p. 479}~I thought I was under a delusion:
209     Ind         |            Daza, Gaspar, xxiii. 6; thought the Saint was deluded by
210     Ind         |           7; troubled because well thought of, xxxi. 13–17; her singing