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501 8 | her to escape. She did not reject the idea. I begged her to
502 9 | have found safety: if He rejects us for our sins, we have
503 8 | grow terrified even as I relate what happened; and, although
504 10 | these things. I who have related them to you am now old,
505 6 | another master), my owner was relentless in his rage, drew his sword
506 7 | delightful entertainment. So, remembering how Solomon sends us to
507 5 | Jacob in sacred history, and reminded me also of Moses; both of
508 9 | us?~One cause of fear was removed, but there was the prospect
509 7 | solemn lamentation were removing the dead. And, what is stranger
510 2 | Malchus, which we might render “king,” a Syrian by race
511 4 | directions. I, meanwhile, repenting too late of the step I had
512 2 | Spirit? All with one accord replied that they were holy people,
513 3 | me to betray my chastity requires no other proof than the
514 9 | two to one were offering resistance. Impatient in his rage,
515 9 | of the kind, which often resort to such shady places so
516 9 | Our confidence was not restored all at once. We did not
517 8 | our masters thought we had retired to rest we began our journey,
518 9 | us in possession of our retreat. Our confidence was not
519 5 | custom of the people to pay reverence to the mistress and her
520 6 | Himself), and wishing to reward me in order to secure my
521 10 | 10. At last we got rid of our fright; and when
522 9 | p. 318 distance two men riding on camels approaching with
523 9 | betrayed us, we found on our right hand a cave which extended
524 4 | 4. On the road from Beroa to Edessa 4048
525 4 | over which the Saracens roam to and fro without having
526 8 | both of the ambushes of the roaming Saracens, and of the excessive
527 10 | the desert arrived at the Roman camp. After being presented
528 3 | guarded by the soldiers of Rome; I therefore turned my steps
529 3 | not to forsake him, nor ruin myself by looking back after
530 9 | fleeing from death we should run into death. We thought thus
531 9 | all at once. We did not rush out, but waited for a long
532 1 | and as it were to wipe the rust from my tongue. For I have
533 6 | old cave; sorrow was bride’s-maid; we shrank from each other
534 10 | from thence were sent to Sabianus, who commanded in Mesopotamia,
535 5 | be like that of Jacob in sacred history, and reminded me
536 8 | me. My looks betrayed the sadness of my heart. She asked why
537 9 | our misery we have found safety: if He rejects us for our
538 6 | property, for the Lord’s sake, if I do the thing I wished
539 10 | when that day was spent, we sallied forth towards evening, and
540 3 | thought he was seeking not my salvation but his own comfort. So
541 | same
542 9 | that our footsteps on the sand had betrayed us, we found
543 5 | prayed continually, and sang psalms which I had learnt
544 7 | After a long time as I sat one day by myself in the
545 3 | bear the brand of a son of Satan. I do not ask your reasons
546 1 | from the advent of our Saviour up to our own age, that
547 4 | destruction, and suspended, I may say, rather than seated. Flesh
548 1 | write history on a wider scale I desire to practise myself
549 9 | such as vipers, basilisks, scorpions, and other creatures of
550 3 | me many examples from the Scriptures, and told me that even Adam
551 4 | I may say, rather than seated. Flesh half raw was our
552 6 | to reward me in order to secure my greater fidelity, gave
553 7 | were dragging along the seeds of herbs: others were excavating
554 6 | found me out. My master seeing his flock increasing and
555 3 | adviser. I thought he was seeking not my salvation but his
556 | seems
557 9 | the gloom we saw a lioness seize the man, strangle him, and
558 5 | occupation a comfort, for I seldom saw my masters or fellow
559 3 | was dead), and then to sell the little property and
560 7 | remembering how Solomon sends us to the shrewdness of
561 2(4043)| advocates, but passing into the sense of proprietor, as in the
562 1(4042)| translated in Vol. iii. of this series) which was written in the
563 6 | should be as faithfully served as God Himself), and wishing
564 7 | our sluggish faculties by setting before us such an example,
565 3 | and give part to the poor, settle part on the monasteries
566 4 | children, altogether about seventy persons. All of a sudden
567 9 | that those who go into the shade out of the sunshine can
568 9 | which often resort to such shady places so as to avoid the
569 | shall
570 1 | experience of it in the sham fight. And so it is in my
571 6 | this hour of trial, do not shed your blood and bring its
572 9 | barely went inside, and took shelter in a pit on the left, not
573 6 | whole month like a trusty shepherd traversing the wilderness.~
574 5 | both of whom were once shepherds in the desert. I fed on
575 7 | give him assistance. In short that day afforded me a delightful
576 9 | came to the cavern, and shouted like a madman as he chided
577 3 | suggestions, for the devil never showed himself openly. He set before
578 6 | sorrow was bride’s-maid; we shrank from each other but did
579 7 | Solomon sends us to the shrewdness of the ant and quickens
580 1 | ground; so that they may not shrink from all this when the real
581 8 | perfectly at rest, yet my frame shudders from head to foot.~
582 7 | the desert with nothing in sight save earth and sky, I began
583 1 | long held my peace, because silence was imposed on me by one
584 8 | idea. I begged her to be silent on the matter. She pledged
585 9 | there was the prospect of a similar death for ourselves, though
586 | since
587 9 | if He rejects us for our sins, we have found our grave.
588 3 | of Chalcis 4047 which is situate between Immæ and Beroa farther
589 7 | in sight save earth and sky, I began quickly to turn
590 6 | the woman, he would have slain me on the spot. Well; by
591 9 | chided the slowness of his slave, but was seized upon by
592 5 | saw my masters or fellow slaves. My fate seemed to be like
593 10 | My dear old abbot was now sleeping in the Lord; I betook myself
594 1 | with poised foot and on slippery ground; so that they may
595 8 | ourselves to the water, slowly propelling ourselves with
596 9 | madman as he chided the slowness of his slave, but was seized
597 7 | the ant and quickens our sluggish faculties by setting before
598 4 | them, and their quivers slung upon the shoulders. They
599 6 | past expression are his snares! Hid though I was, his malice
600 8 | meanwhile the flesh became sodden and partly lost, and we
601 2 | fact a genuine son of the soil. His companion was an old
602 10 | in Mesopotamia, where we sold our camels. My dear old
603 7 | carried in; another with solemn lamentation were removing
604 7 | entertainment. So, remembering how Solomon sends us to the shrewdness
605 | sometimes
606 6 | in and, for me, all too soon. I led my bride into an
607 6 | bride into an old cave; sorrow was bride’s-maid; we shrank
608 2 | give in order to show the source of my information. Well,
609 3 | between Immæ and Beroa farther south. There, finding some monks,
610 1 | whom I give pain when I speak of him. But now, in preparing
611 4 | and brandished their long spears; for they had come not to
612 7 | my friends the monks, and specially the look of the father who
613 2 | king,” a Syrian by race and speech, in fact a genuine son of
614 3 | faithlessness) keep some to spend in comforts for myself.
615 8 | her word. We constantly spoke to one another in whispers;
616 6 | would have slain me on the spot. Well; by this time a darker
617 9 | inflicted! Again my tongue stammers with distress and fear;
618 1 | decks and accustom them to stand steady with poised foot
619 2 | at the time when I was staying as a young man in Syria 4044
620 1 | and accustom them to stand steady with poised foot and on
621 3 | Rome; I therefore turned my steps to the West, taking with
622 9 | fear: without venturing to stir a step we awaited the issue,
623 9 | the cave, close by, there stood our master and fellow-servant,
624 7 | wishing to prevent their store from being converted into
625 10 | your chastity. Tell the story to them that come after,
626 7 | removing the dead. And, what is stranger still in such a host, those
627 9 | a lioness seize the man, strangle him, and drag him, covered
628 8 | might be carried down by the stream to a point on the opposite
629 4 | military boots, their cloaks streaming behind them, and their quivers
630 6 | I had not without delay stretched out my hand and taken possession
631 4 | seventy persons. All of a sudden the Ishmaelites on horses
632 4 | along with another poor sufferer, a woman, to the service
633 3 | the journey, but barely sufficient to ward off destitution.
634 Int | Its origin and purpose are sufficiently described in chapters 1
635 3 | had been deceived by such suggestions, for the devil never showed
636 9 | into the shade out of the sunshine can see nothing. His voice
637 10 | strength gained from the new supply of grain, after ten days
638 9 | found our grave. What do you suppose were our feelings? What
639 9 | he was long in returning, supposed that the fugitives being
640 6 | united upon these terms. Supposing my husband should return
641 3 | as the heir and the only survivor of their race, wished to
642 4 | expecting destruction, and suspended, I may say, rather than
643 8 | whispers; and we floated in suspense betwixt hope and fear. I
644 6 | masters, and there was no suspicion of our flight; sometimes
645 8 | for more than three days’ sustenance. We drank till we could
646 7 | musing I saw a crowd of ants swarming over a narrow path. The
647 10 | realize that in the midst of swords, and wild beasts of the
648 9 | seen took up her cub in her teeth and carried it away, leaving
649 10 | you, guard your chastity. Tell the story to them that come
650 3 | to cry out that it was a temptation of the devil, and that under
651 5 | sheep were given to me to tend, and, comparatively speaking,
652 6 | rather be united upon these terms. Supposing my husband should
653 8 | heat of the sun. I grow terrified even as I relate what happened;
654 5 | delighted with my captivity, and thanked God because I had found
655 | thence
656 6 | Lord’s sake, if I do the thing I wished to avoid doing
657 9 | foreboding ill I began to think my master purposed putting
658 8 | way of preparing for the thirst we expected to endure, then
659 2 | is a little hamlet some thirty miles to the east of Antioch
660 7 | to turn things over in my thoughts, and amongst others called
661 3 | be a monk. How my father threatened and my mother coaxed me
662 8 | days’ sustenance. We drank till we could drink no more by
663 7 | ground, were cutting off the tips of the grains they had carried
664 7 | such an example, I began to tire of captivity, and to regret
665 7 | and their doings, where toil is for the community, and,
666 6 | her naked person; I never touched her flesh, for I was afraid
667 8 | pursuers might lose the track. But meanwhile the flesh
668 1(4042)| book De Viris Illustribus (translated in Vol. iii. of this series)
669 4 | abode. Through fear of them travellers in those parts assemble
670 10 | of grain, after ten days travelling through the desert arrived
671 6 | month like a trusty shepherd traversing the wilderness.~
672 6 | adjure you by this hour of trial, do not shed your blood
673 10 | After being presented to the tribune we told all, and from thence
674 6 | even a whole month like a trusty shepherd traversing the
675 2 | much eagerness about the truth of what I heard, and learnt
676 3 | soldiers of Rome; I therefore turned my steps to the West, taking
677 6 | glittered even in the dark, and turning its point towards me said: “
678 6 | the witness for Christ lie unburied in the desert; I will be
679 9 | cave which extended far underground. Well, we entered the cave:
680 3 | putting my hand to the plough. Unhappily for myself I had the misfortune
681 6 | towards me said: “Farewell, unhappy woman: receive me as a martyr
682 6 | against me. Let us rather be united upon these terms. Supposing
683 4 | They carried their bows unstrung and brandished their long
684 | used
685 6 | time a darker night than usual had set in and, for me,
686 3(4047)| 375–80. See Letters ii., v., xiv., xvii.~
687 9 | cave: but we were afraid of venomous beasts such as vipers, basilisks,
688 7 | the water. One party, in view of approaching winter, and
689 9 | venomous beasts such as vipers, basilisks, scorpions, and
690 6 | gray hairs I must lose my virgin state and become a married
691 1(4042)| it, and also the book De Viris Illustribus (translated
692 1 | but decreased in Christian virtues. But of this elsewhere.
693 1(4042)| Illustribus (translated in Vol. iii. of this series) which
694 3 | the dog returning to his vomit. Many monks, he said, had
695 6 | perish, or conquer? Are we to wait for the hand of the Lord,
696 9 | is calling and patiently waiting for you.” He was still speaking
697 9 | awaited the issue, having no wall of defence in the midst
698 3 | my hands, and curbing the wantonness of the flesh by fasting.
699 3 | but barely sufficient to ward off destitution. To be brief,
700 1 | it in harbours and calm waters by adjusting the helm, plying
701 1 | increased in influence and in wealth but decreased in Christian
702 6 | our own sword? Turn your weapon against yourself; I must
703 6 | conflict. In this strange wedlock many days passed away. Marriage
704 9 | sun. We therefore barely went inside, and took shelter
705 3 | therefore turned my steps to the West, taking with me some little
706 8 | spoke to one another in whispers; and we floated in suspense
707 | whole
708 | whose
709 6 | preserved for this? has my wickedness brought me to this, that
710 1 | preparing to write history on a wider scale I desire to practise
711 3 | my mother and cheer her widowhood while she lived (for my
712 6 | shepherd traversing the wilderness.~
713 7 | in view of approaching winter, and wishing to prevent
714 1 | little work and as it were to wipe the rust from my tongue.
715 | within
716 6 | its own martyrdom. Let the witness for Christ lie unburied
717 3 | exposed to the jaws of the wolf.”~
718 4 | were in my company men, women, old men, youths, children,
719 1 | by means of this little work and as it were to wipe the
720 9 | our hiding place? How much worse is death expected than death
721 6 | 317 I had lost, and said: “Wretched man that I am! have I been
722 3(4047)| 80. See Letters ii., v., xiv., xvii.~
723 3(4047)| See Letters ii., v., xiv., xvii.~
724 2 | when I was staying as a young man in Syria 4044 it came
725 | yourself
726 10 | Malchus was an old man, I a youth, when he told me these things.
727 4 | company men, women, old men, youths, children, altogether about
728 2 | might have been taken for Zacharias and Elizabeth in the Gospel
729 2 | s door, both of them so zealously pious and such constant
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