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1 30 | not committed the crime of abandoning me.~
2 35 | parents, for whom I was an abominable burden, a terror, an infamous
3 39 | nothing; she looked around abstractedly at my work and only answered '
4 53 | wish to see him? It was absurd in our position. We could
5 27 | she even know where her accomplice carried this innocent little
6 19 | presiding judge asked the accused the customary question:~
7 12 | native refinement which his acquaintances did not have, he was nicknamed "
8 20 | anything that you wish to add to your defense?"~
9 46 | cannot be thus deceived. Admit it and I will keep the secret;
10 53 | could have helped him from afar, without showing ourselves.
11 38 | another. I felt a growing affection for him.~
12 | again
13 12 | an influential political agitator and a clever orator in the
14 37 | the first time two years ago. I suspected nothing. He
15 14 | the lawyer made a clever allusion to this nickname of "The
16 | along
17 | already
18 | another
19 9 | He would obstinately answer:~
20 | any
21 | anyone
22 16 | These gloomy doctrines, now applauded in public meetings, have
23 15 | father nor mother? He is an ardent republican. What am I saying?
24 | around
25 15 | arms this party to which arson is a principle and murder
26 16 | even women, yes, women -- -ask for the blood of M. Gambetta,
27 50 | prison for blackmail and assault!'~
28 18 | could be heard murmurs of assent. Everyone felt that the
29 24 | wish to go to an insane asylum, and as I even prefer death
30 18 | his case. The prosecuting attorney did not oppose him.~
31 48 | scandal, which had so far been avoided, might suddenly break out;
32 29 | other children called me a 'b -- -- -'. They did not know
33 46 | keep the secret; I will bear you no ill will; I will
34 58 | murder!' and to pull my beard. It seems that I killed
35 | became
36 | become
37 | behind
38 12 | be a socialist fanatic, a believer in communistic and nihilistic
39 15 | What am I saying? He even belongs to the same political party,
40 54 | Then I rushed up to them, beseeching. I cried:~
41 14 | workman should kill his best customers, rich and generous (
42 28 | who nursed me was honest, better, more noble, more of a mother
43 49 | My mother, bewildered, kept repeating: 'Let's
44 23 | farthest corners of the big hall:~
45 50 | you thrown into prison for blackmail and assault!'~
46 22 | He was a short, flaxen blond, with calm, clear, gray
47 12 | doctrines, a great reader of bloodthirsty novels, an influential political
48 4 | investigation revealed nothing. The boatmen, who had been questioned,
49 2 | the grass near Chatou, two bodies had been found, a man and
50 14 | three thousand francs (his books showed it)? Only one explanation
51 32 | them life -- but is life a boon? To me, at any rate, it
52 | both
53 14 | two bourgeois, on all ,the bourgeoisie, and the lawyer made a clever
54 30 | say, one of the cleverest boys in the school. I would have
55 48 | avoided, might suddenly break out; that their position,
56 35 | for whom my birth was a calamity and my life a threat of
57 35 | You will call me parricide! Were these
58 | cannot
59 40 | is my mother!' but I took care not to let her notice anything.
60 29 | indistinct impression that I was carrying some burden of shame. One
61 28 | little wretches who are cast away in suburban villages
62 53 | I soon caught up with them. It was now
63 42 | I know what suffering it causes. Now I am rich, childless,
64 22 | the first words, quickly changed the opinion which had been
65 52 | to reach the station of Chaton.~
66 2 | morning, in the grass near Chatou, two bodies had been found,
67 40 | self-controlled. That day they chattered for a long time, and they
68 40 | to me of my life, of my childhood, of my parents. I answered: '
69 42 | it causes. Now I am rich, childless, free, mistress of my fortune.
70 29 | shame. One day the other children called me a 'b -- -- -'.
71 42 | have come to help you to choose freely the woman who may
72 22 | flaxen blond, with calm, clear, gray eyes. A strong, frank,
73 30 | was, I may say, one of the cleverest boys in the school. I would
74 40 | who deserted me.' Then she clutched at her heart and fell, unconscious.
75 56 | and as I seized him by the collar, he drew from his pocket
76 42 | getting married. I have come to help you to choose freely
77 61 | the following session. It comes up very soon. If we were
78 48 | for trying to help such common people!'~
79 17 | condemn, gentlemen; it is the Commune!"~
80 12 | socialist fanatic, a believer in communistic and nihilistic doctrines,
81 57 | what I was doing, I had my compass in my pocket; I struck him
82 17 | is not he whom you should condemn, gentlemen; it is the Commune!"~
83 27 | this innocent little being, condemned to eternal misery, to the
84 47 | the key in my pocket and continued: 'Look at her and dare to
85 23 | understood in the farthest corners of the big hall:~
86 56 | honor, before the law and my country. He struck me, and as I
87 45 | out to me: 'You must be crazy!'~
88 32 | committed against a human creature.~
89 53 | was now pitch dark. I was creeping up behind them softly, that
90 58 | Then she began to cry: 'Help! murder!' and to
91 53 | me. My mother was still crying. My father was saying: '
92 19 | judge asked the accused the customary question:~
93 14 | workman should kill his best customers, rich and generous (as he
94 53 | ourselves. Of what use are these dangerous visits, since we can't recognize
95 47 | continued: 'Look at her and dare to deny that she is my mother.'~
96 53 | with them. It was now pitch dark. I was creeping up behind
97 51 | saw them disappear in the darkness.~
98 23 | He spoke loud in a declamatory manner, but so distinctly
99 42 | father. That day she seemed deeply moved, I don't know why.
100 20 | you wish to add to your defense?"~
101 31 | were the guilty ones. I was defenseless, they were pitiless. Their
102 33 | dishonored, all this to a greater degree than those whose anger you
103 47 | Look at her and dare to deny that she is my mother.'~
104 32 | misfortune. After their shameful desertion, I owed them only vengeance.
105 41 | hidden and then hoped to destroy.~
106 51 | opened the door and saw them disappear in the darkness.~
107 39 | suffering from some nervous disease. Then she asked for a seat
108 35 | and my life a threat of disgrace? They sought a selfish pleasure;
109 52 | mingled with anger, hatred, disgust; my whole being seemed to
110 52 | injustice, the meanness, the dishonor, the rejected love. I began
111 23 | declamatory manner, but so distinctly that every word could be
112 42 | she seemed deeply moved, I don't know why. Then, as she
113 | down
114 42 | my fortune. Here is your dowry.'~
115 | during
116 | each
117 14 | years had enabled him to earn three thousand francs (his
118 14 | knew), who in two years had enabled him to earn three thousand
119 3 | They were not known to have enemies; they had not been robbed.
120 | enough
121 39 | wife, my mother. When she entered she was trembling so that
122 43 | out to me a large, sealed envelope.~
123 42 | She returned one evening, escorted as usual by my father. That
124 27 | little being, condemned to eternal misery, to the shame of
125 42 | waited. She returned one evening, escorted as usual by my
126 | every
127 | Everyone
128 | everything
129 | Everywhere
130 34 | took their happy life in exchange for the terrible one which
131 33 | than those whose anger you excuse.~
132 15 | which, formerly shot or exiled by the government, it now
133 1 | insanity. How could anyone explain this strange crime otherwise?~
134 14 | books showed it)? Only one explanation could be offered: insanity,
135 45 | a few steps and hid her face in her hands so as not to
136 12 | also said to be a socialist fanatic, a believer in communistic
137 48 | the scandal, which had so far been avoided, might suddenly
138 12 | meetings of workmen or of farmers.~
139 23 | could be understood in the farthest corners of the big hall:~
140 53 | saying: 'It's all your own fault. Why did you wish to see
141 40 | clutched at her heart and fell, unconscious. I immediately
142 | few
143 14 | be offered: insanity, the fixed idea of the unclassed individual
144 22 | He was a short, flaxen blond, with calm, clear,
145 48 | Then he flew into a passion, very pale,
146 52 | Seine, which they had to follow in order to reach the station
147 33 | robbed, takes back his own by force. A man who has been deceived,
148 34 | terrible one which they had forced on me.~
149 22 | the opinion which had been formed of him.~
150 | formerly
151 42 | childless, free, mistress of my fortune. Here is your dowry.'~
152 22 | sonorous voice came from this frail-looking boy and, at the first words,
153 14 | him to earn three thousand francs (his books showed it)? Only
154 22 | clear, gray eyes. A strong, frank, sonorous voice came from
155 42 | Now I am rich, childless, free, mistress of my fortune.
156 42 | come to help you to choose freely the woman who may suit you.
157 16 | ask for the blood of M. Gambetta, the blood of M. Grevy;
158 28 | suburban villages just as garbage is thrown away.~
159 14 | best customers, rich and generous (as he knew), who in two
160 17 | whom you should condemn, gentlemen; it is the Commune!"~
161 42 | will undoubtedly think of getting married. I have come to
162 39 | she asked for a seat and a glass of water. She said nothing;
163 16 | These gloomy doctrines, now applauded
164 24 | honor, as I do not wish to go to an insane asylum, and
165 35 | a selfish pleasure; they got an unexpected child. They
166 15 | formerly shot or exiled by the government, it now welcomes with open
167 2 | One morning, in the grass near Chatou, two bodies
168 22 | blond, with calm, clear, gray eyes. A strong, frank, sonorous
169 12 | nihilistic doctrines, a great reader of bloodthirsty novels,
170 33 | dishonored, all this to a greater degree than those whose
171 16 | Gambetta, the blood of M. Grevy; his weakened mind gave
172 29 | I grew up with the indistinct impression
173 59 | saw them both lying on the ground, without thinking, I threw
174 31 | the victim, they were the guilty ones. I was defenseless,
175 23 | farthest corners of the big hall:~
176 45 | and hid her face in her hands so as not to see me. He,
177 34 | legitimate right. I took their happy life in exchange for the
178 42 | to me to be honest and a hard worker; some day you will
179 52 | sadness, mingled with anger, hatred, disgust; my whole being
180 57 | The blood rushed to my head, I no longer knew what I
181 53 | softly, that they might not hear me. My mother was still
182 40 | Then she clutched at her heart and fell, unconscious. I
183 43 | She held out to me a large, sealed
184 53 | position. We could have helped him from afar, without showing
185 45 | drew back a few steps and hid her face in her hands so
186 41 | which they had at first hidden and then hoped to destroy.~
187 | himself
188 29 | one of them had heard at home. I was also ignorant of
189 41 | at first hidden and then hoped to destroy.~
190 32 | can be committed against a human creature.~
191 28 | doing her duty. It is more humane to let them die, these little
192 27 | often do, let him die of hunger and neglect!~
193 41 | the lifetime of the first husband, but there was no proof
194 14 | offered: insanity, the fixed idea of the unclassed individual
195 29 | heard at home. I was also ignorant of its meaning, but I felt
196 46 | secret; I will bear you no ill will; I will remain what
197 14 | Indeed, how could one imagine that this workman should
198 29 | grew up with the indistinct impression that I was carrying some
199 42 | I was married against my inclination once and I know what suffering
200 | Indeed
201 29 | I grew up with the indistinct impression that I was carrying
202 14 | fixed idea of the unclassed individual who reeks vengeance on two
203 12 | bloodthirsty novels, an influential political agitator and a
204 32 | committed against me the most inhuman, the most infamous, the
205 52 | up in revolt against the injustice, the meanness, the dishonor,
206 27 | accomplice carried this innocent little being, condemned
207 24 | do not wish to go to an insane asylum, and as I even prefer
208 33 | A man who has been insulted, strikes; a man who has
209 30 | perhaps a man of superior intellect, if my parents had not committed
210 12 | up he became particularly intelligent, with the good taste and
211 4 | The investigation revealed nothing. The boatmen,
212 3 | after the other, with a long iron spike.~
213 15 | Is this irony not enough to unbalance
214 | its
215 41 | been married since last July, my mother having been a
216 61 | up very soon. If we were jurymen, what would we do with this
217 28 | away in suburban villages just as garbage is thrown away.~
218 46 | deceived. Admit it and I will keep the secret; I will bear
219 49 | My mother, bewildered, kept repeating: 'Let's get out
220 47 | locked the door, put the key in my pocket and continued: '
221 | last
222 | later
223 56 | on my honor, before the law and my country. He struck
224 41 | information about them. I learned that they had been married
225 | least
226 42 | know why. Then, as she was leaving, she said to me: 'I wish
227 34 | myself, I killed. It was my legitimate right. I took their happy
228 41 | loved each other during the lifetime of the first husband, but
229 26 | Now, listen, and judge me.~
230 47 | my pocket and continued: 'Look at her and dare to deny
231 48 | honor might all at once be lost. He stammered out: 'You
232 38 | returned often. He gave me a lot of work and paid me well.
233 23 | He spoke loud in a declamatory manner,
234 41 | been rumors that they had loved each other during the lifetime
235 59 | Then, when I saw them both lying on the ground, without thinking,
236 40 | my parents. I answered: 'Madame, my parents were wretches
237 | made
238 23 | spoke loud in a declamatory manner, but so distinctly that
239 4 | questioned, knew nothing. The matter was about to be given up,
240 52 | against the injustice, the meanness, the dishonor, the rejected
241 15 | same political party, the members of which, formerly shot
242 52 | an overwhelming sadness, mingled with anger, hatred, disgust;
243 27 | being, condemned to eternal misery, to the shame of an illegitimate
244 32 | me, at any rate, it was a misfortune. After their shameful desertion,
245 42 | am rich, childless, free, mistress of my fortune. Here is your
246 48 | rascal, you wish to get money from us! That's the thanks
247 32 | most infamous, the most monstrous crime which can be committed
248 40 | The following month they returned. She was calm,
249 27 | no longer receiving the monthly pension, might, as they
250 6 | years, the woman for six months. They often had me repair
251 33 | robbed, deceived, tortured, morally slapped, dishonored, all
252 2 | One morning, in the grass near Chatou,
253 42 | That day she seemed deeply moved, I don't know why. Then,
254 18 | Everywhere could be heard murmurs of assent. Everyone felt
255 | must
256 | myself
257 12 | with the good taste and native refinement which his acquaintances
258 37 | under the seal of secrecy, naturally, he had sought information
259 2 | One morning, in the grass near Chatou, two bodies had been
260 27 | let him die of hunger and neglect!~
261 14 | Bourgeois," given throughout the neighborhood to this poor wretch. He
262 4 | a young carpenter from a neighboring village, Georges Louis,
263 | neither
264 39 | to be suffering from some nervous disease. Then she asked
265 | never
266 14 | clever allusion to this nickname of "The Bourgeois," given
267 12 | believer in communistic and nihilistic doctrines, a great reader
268 28 | was honest, better, more noble, more of a mother than my
269 | nor
270 40 | took care not to let her notice anything. I wished to observe
271 12 | great reader of bloodthirsty novels, an influential political
272 28 | The woman who nursed me was honest, better, more
273 40 | notice anything. I wished to observe her.~
274 9 | He would obstinately answer:~
275 15 | principle and murder an ordinary occurrence.~
276 14 | one explanation could be offered: insanity, the fixed idea
277 6 | They often had me repair old furniture for them, because
278 31 | victim, they were the guilty ones. I was defenseless, they
279 51 | I had remained calm; I opened the door and saw them disappear
280 22 | words, quickly changed the opinion which had been formed of
281 18 | prosecuting attorney did not oppose him.~
282 12 | political agitator and a clever orator in the public meetings of
283 37 | I suspected nothing. He ordered two pieces of furniture.
284 15 | principle and murder an ordinary occurrence.~
285 52 | seemed to have been suddenly orphaned, deserted, pushed to the
286 | our
287 | ourselves
288 | over
289 52 | began to run, in order to overtake them along the Seine, which
290 52 | wall. I was seized with an overwhelming sadness, mingled with anger,
291 38 | gave me a lot of work and paid me well. Sometimes he would
292 48 | flew into a passion, very pale, terrified at the thought
293 12 | on growing up he became particularly intelligent, with the good
294 48 | Then he flew into a passion, very pale, terrified at
295 27 | longer receiving the monthly pension, might, as they often do,
296 | perhaps
297 37 | nothing. He ordered two pieces of furniture. I found out,
298 53 | up with them. It was now pitch dark. I was creeping up
299 31 | was defenseless, they were pitiless. Their duty was to love
300 33 | man who has been deceived, played upon, tortured, kills; a
301 1 | The lawyer had presented a plea of insanity. How could anyone
302 13 | His lawyer had pleaded insanity.~
303 35 | disgrace? They sought a selfish pleasure; they got an unexpected
304 2 | young and married since the preceding year, the woman having been
305 24 | insane asylum, and as I even prefer death to that, I will tell
306 1 | The lawyer had presented a plea of insanity. How
307 19 | Then the presiding judge asked the accused
308 37 | sought information from the priest.~
309 15 | party to which arson is a principle and murder an ordinary occurrence.~
310 50 | will have you thrown into prison for blackmail and assault!'~
311 18 | lawyer had won his case. The prosecuting attorney did not oppose
312 58 | Help! murder!' and to pull my beard. It seems that
313 52 | suddenly orphaned, deserted, pushed to the wall. I was seized
314 19 | the accused the customary question:~
315 4 | The boatmen, who had been questioned, knew nothing. The matter
316 36 | And yet, up to quite recently, I was ready to
317 39 | answered 'yes' and 'no,' at random, to all the questions which
318 48 | stammered out: 'You are a rascal, you wish to get money from
319 32 | life a boon? To me, at any rate, it was a misfortune. After
320 | rather
321 52 | had to follow in order to reach the station of Chaton.~
322 12 | nihilistic doctrines, a great reader of bloodthirsty novels,
323 36 | to quite recently, I was ready to love them.~
324 27 | and the nurse, no longer receiving the monthly pension, might,
325 | recently
326 53 | dangerous visits, since we can't recognize him?'~
327 14 | unclassed individual who reeks vengeance on two bourgeois,
328 12 | the good taste and native refinement which his acquaintances
329 46 | you no ill will; I will remain what I am, a carpenter.'~
330 51 | I had remained calm; I opened the door
331 12 | otherwise. He had become remarkably clever in the trade of a
332 6 | months. They often had me repair old furniture for them,
333 49 | mother, bewildered, kept repeating: 'Let's get out of here,
334 15 | mother? He is an ardent republican. What am I saying? He even
335 16 | ruined this man. He has heard republicans -- even women, yes, women -- -
336 55 | rejected me once; would you repulse me again?'~
337 47 | He retreated towards the door, still
338 4 | The investigation revealed nothing. The boatmen, who
339 61 | prisoner sat down. After this revelation the case was carried over
340 34 | I revenged myself, I killed. It was
341 52 | being seemed to rise up in revolt against the injustice, the
342 56 | he drew from his pocket a revolver.~
343 34 | killed. It was my legitimate right. I took their happy life
344 52 | my whole being seemed to rise up in revolt against the
345 3 | from the roadside into the river, after having been struck,
346 3 | have been thrown from the roadside into the river, after having
347 16 | in public meetings, have ruined this man. He has heard republicans --
348 41 | three years. There had been rumors that they had loved each
349 52 | rejected love. I began to run, in order to overtake them
350 52 | seized with an overwhelming sadness, mingled with anger, hatred,
351 61 | The prisoner sat down. After this revelation
352 30 | I was, I may say, one of the cleverest boys
353 48 | at the thought that the scandal, which had so far been avoided,
354 30 | the cleverest boys in the school. I would have been a good
355 37 | later on, that, under the seal of secrecy, naturally, he
356 43 | held out to me a large, sealed envelope.~
357 39 | disease. Then she asked for a seat and a glass of water. She
358 37 | that, under the seal of secrecy, naturally, he had sought
359 46 | Admit it and I will keep the secret; I will bear you no ill
360 | seem
361 | seems
362 40 | returned. She was calm, self-controlled. That day they chattered
363 35 | disgrace? They sought a selfish pleasure; they got an unexpected
364 27 | having given birth to a boy, sent him out, somewhere, to a
365 60 | That's all. Now sentence me."~
366 61 | carried over to the following session. It comes up very soon.
367 32 | misfortune. After their shameful desertion, I owed them only
368 22 | He was a short, flaxen blond, with calm,
369 15 | members of which, formerly shot or exiled by the government,
370 14 | thousand francs (his books showed it)? Only one explanation
371 53 | helped him from afar, without showing ourselves. Of what use are
372 6 | two years, the woman for six months. They often had me
373 47 | wife who was beginning to sob. Quickly I locked the door,
374 12 | He was also said to be a socialist fanatic, a believer in communistic
375 53 | creeping up behind them softly, that they might not hear
376 | Sometimes
377 | somewhere
378 22 | gray eyes. A strong, frank, sonorous voice came from this frail-looking
379 3 | other, with a long iron spike.~
380 23 | He spoke loud in a declamatory manner,
381 48 | all at once be lost. He stammered out: 'You are a rascal,
382 52 | follow in order to reach the station of Chaton.~
383 45 | She drew back a few steps and hid her face in her
384 29 | meaning, but I felt the sting all the same.~
385 21 | The man stood up.~
386 44 | I looked her straight in the eyes and then said: '
387 1 | could anyone explain this strange crime otherwise?~
388 33 | man who has been insulted, strikes; a man who has been robbed,
389 22 | calm, clear, gray eyes. A strong, frank, sonorous voice came
390 28 | wretches who are cast away in suburban villages just as garbage
391 42 | said to me: 'I wish you success, because you seem to me
392 | such
393 42 | freely the woman who may suit you. I was married against
394 30 | honor, perhaps a man of superior intellect, if my parents
395 45 | He, the man, my father, supported her in his arms and cried
396 47 | towards the door, still supporting his wife who was beginning
397 35 | an unexpected child. They suppressed the child. My turn came
398 37 | first time two years ago. I suspected nothing. He ordered two
399 40 | three more times, without suspecting anything. But one day she
400 56 | your honor, he struck me. I swear it on my honor, before the
401 12 | carpenter, which he had taken up. He was also said to
402 33 | man who has been robbed, takes back his own by force. A
403 12 | intelligent, with the good taste and native refinement which
404 24 | prefer death to that, I will tell everything.~
405 34 | life in exchange for the terrible one which they had forced
406 48 | into a passion, very pale, terrified at the thought that the
407 35 | an abominable burden, a terror, an infamous shame; for
408 [Title]| Text~
409 48 | money from us! That's the thanks we get for trying to help
410 38 | would even talk to me of one thing or another. I felt a growing
411 42 | day you will undoubtedly think of getting married. I have
412 59 | lying on the ground, without thinking, I threw them into the Seine.~
413 | those
414 14 | enabled him to earn three thousand francs (his books showed
415 35 | a calamity and my life a threat of disgrace? They sought
416 59 | ground, without thinking, I threw them into the Seine.~
417 | throughout
418 | thus
419 40 | order. I saw her three more times, without suspecting anything.
420 | towards
421 12 | remarkably clever in the trade of a carpenter, which he
422 39 | When she entered she was trembling so that I thought her to
423 48 | s the thanks we get for trying to help such common people!'~
424 15 | this irony not enough to unbalance the mind of this poor wretch,
425 39 | left I thought her a little unbalanced.~
426 14 | insanity, the fixed idea of the unclassed individual who reeks vengeance
427 40 | clutched at her heart and fell, unconscious. I immediately thought: '
428 | under
429 23 | that every word could be understood in the farthest corners
430 35 | selfish pleasure; they got an unexpected child. They suppressed the
431 | upon
432 | us
433 53 | showing ourselves. Of what use are these dangerous visits,
434 42 | one evening, escorted as usual by my father. That day she
435 31 | committed against me. I was the victim, they were the guilty ones.
436 4 | carpenter from a neighboring village, Georges Louis, nicknamed "
437 28 | are cast away in suburban villages just as garbage is thrown
438 53 | use are these dangerous visits, since we can't recognize
439 22 | strong, frank, sonorous voice came from this frail-looking
440 42 | I waited. She returned one evening,
441 52 | deserted, pushed to the wall. I was seized with an overwhelming
442 39 | for a seat and a glass of water. She said nothing; she looked
443 16 | his weakened mind gave way; he wanted blood, the blood
444 16 | the blood of M. Grevy; his weakened mind gave way; he wanted
445 15 | by the government, it now welcomes with open arms this party
446 | where
447 | whole
448 | whose
449 40 | let her notice anything. I wished to observe her.~
450 18 | felt that the lawyer had won his case. The prosecuting
451 22 | frail-looking boy and, at the first words, quickly changed the opinion
452 42 | to be honest and a hard worker; some day you will undoubtedly
453 12 | in the public meetings of workmen or of farmers.~
454 28 | She brought me up. She did wrong in doing her duty. It is
455 | yet
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