Poem

  1 Return |    solitudes' crusade.~(Figline, 31.07.1998)~ ~
  2 Fright |       was nigh.~A voice~From the abode of the day drew near:~After
  3 PrayerA|      your anguish,~Let nighttime abscond now with your every tear,~
  4 Landsc |        their winter borage.~From afar they are bride and pensive
  5        | After
  6 Return |        back of my pain.~It is an age of clamour,~Of solitudes'
  7 PrayerA|        Anna Akhmatova~(Lutje Ana Ahmatovës)~How it now spins, how it
  8 Monoton|         only change~In the heavy air of time.~ ~
  9 PrayerA|                  Prayer for Anna Akhmatova~(Lutje Ana Ahmatovës)~How
 10        | all
 11 PrayerA|        for Anna Akhmatova~(Lutje Ana Ahmatovës)~How it now spins,
 12 PrayerA|      care of your fears and your anguish,~Let nighttime abscond now
 13 PrayerA|                       Prayer for Anna Akhmatova~(Lutje Ana Ahmatovës)~
 14        | Around
 15 PrayerA|        fire,~Silently glowing in ashes of dread.~Why does it wait
 16        | at
 17 Fright |          As if to remind me that~Autumn was nigh.~A voice~From the
 18 PrayerA|         every tear,~And when you awake somewhere up in the heavens~
 19 PrayerA|          child that has now been awakened,~A new dream is born and
 20 Ballad |    campaign to inhibit feelings~(Baladë fushatës së frenimit të
 21 Ballad |                                  Ballad on a campaign to inhibit
 22 Divine |       the stars shining~Over the bare dunes of the desert.~Lord,
 23        | became
 24 Fright |    sidewalks of sadness~The rain began to fall,~As if to remind
 25 Obliv  |        Since that moment when~It betrayed me~With its silence.~ ~
 26        | between
 27 Landsc |         o'er hillsides,~Tufts of billowing wool.~The wind for a moment
 28 Divine |       And a divine breeze always billows~When the day goes mad~And
 29 Landsc |          white-flannel breeches,~Black-braided seams, torrents tumble and
 30 Landsc |        still retain their winter borage.~From afar they are bride
 31 Landsc |       and rumble,~Snowy silence, boundless and virgin, clad~In the
 32 Landsc |        are clad in white-flannel breeches,~Black-braided seams, torrents
 33 Landsc |       borage.~From afar they are bride and pensive bridegroom,~
 34 Landsc |       they are bride and pensive bridegroom,~Gathered at noble wedding.~
 35 Landsc |      splendour of long months of bridehood,~Mountain passes still retain
 36 Divine |           a divine breeze~Always burgeons~To cover the shame of the
 37 Return |       And mad are the living~Who butt out their cigarettes~On
 38        | by
 39 PrayerA|       between us,~That invention called love, as the poet once said,~
 40 Divine |           Lord, oh Lord,~Who can calm~The lust of unspoken words,~
 41 Ballad |                      Ballad on a campaign to inhibit feelings~(Baladë
 42 PrayerA|          its way.~Let sleep take care of your fears and your anguish,~
 43 Evil   |          die, the evildoers~Will certainly say:~It was your doing
 44 Monoton|    mornings.~Grey hair,~The only change~In the heavy air of time.~ ~
 45 PrayerA|          in May,~Like a devilish child that has now been awakened,~
 46 Return |        living~Who butt out their cigarettes~On the back of my pain.~
 47 Return |         my pain.~It is an age of clamour,~Of solitudes' crusade.~(
 48 OnOur  |        Know~Whence the storm has come.~From that moment on,~They
 49 Fright |          day drew near:~After me comes winter,~And winter will
 50 Divine |        breeze~Always burgeons~To cover the shame of the stars shining~
 51 Return |        of clamour,~Of solitudes' crusade.~(Figline, 31.07.1998)~ ~
 52 Return |        Towards nothing expected.~Dead are the madmen~And mad are
 53 Divine |       Over the bare dunes of the desert.~Lord, oh Lord,~Who can
 54 PrayerA|          torrents in May,~Like a devilish child that has now been
 55 Evil   |          evil doings.~And when I die, the evildoers~Will certainly
 56 PrayerF|         Prayer for winter~(Lutje dimri)~These skies are~Monks freezing
 57 Divine |      tugs nighttime by the hair,~Disrobing it~In the vaults of heaven.~
 58        | do
 59 Evil   |       certainly say:~It was your doing
 60 PrayerA|     Silently glowing in ashes of dread.~Why does it wait for the
 61 PrayerA|         now been awakened,~A new dream is born and will soon go
 62 Fright |        From the abode of the day drew near:~After me comes winter,~
 63 Divine |      stars shining~Over the bare dunes of the desert.~Lord, oh
 64 Fright |     succession of seasons~(Radhë e frikshme stinësh)~On the
 65 Return |            for R.)~Night knocks.~Echo of a soul~Which incites
 66 PrayerA|   somewhere up in the heavens~An eclipse of the heart will have taken
 67 Landsc |         and there still hovers o'er hillsides,~Tufts of billowing
 68 Divine |                 A divine breeze~(Erë hyjnore)~And a divine breeze
 69 PrayerF|        skies ~A place~Around the evening fire~So that they can warm
 70        | every
 71        | everything
 72 Evil   |      doings.~And when I die, the evildoers~Will certainly say:~It was
 73 Return |          sought,~Towards nothing expected.~Dead are the madmen~And
 74 Monoton|         meet,~With the very same expressions~On that most monotonous
 75 Ballad |      frenimit të ndjenjave)~That eyes not fail us~We invented
 76 Ballad |         ndjenjave)~That eyes not fail us~We invented glasses.~
 77 Fright |        sadness~The rain began to fall,~As if to remind me that~
 78 PrayerA|          sleep take care of your fears and your anguish,~Let nighttime
 79 Ballad |         on a campaign to inhibit feelings~(Baladë fushatës së frenimit
 80 Return |          Of solitudes' crusade.~(Figline, 31.07.1998)~ ~
 81 Ballad |        pockets.~What help can we find~For our hearts?~ ~
 82 Landsc |    wedding.~Towards them I pace, forgetting~Rice to throw over their
 83 Landsc |      wool.~The wind for a moment forgot its roar and rumble,~Snowy
 84 Obliv  |         Oblivion~(Harrim)~I have forgotten how to sing of love~Since
 85 PrayerF|    freezing in solitude~Back and forth~They seem to wander~Homeless~
 86 Fright |          winter,~And winter will freeze you numb.~ ~
 87 PrayerF|     dimri)~These skies are~Monks freezing in solitude~Back and forth~
 88 Ballad |     feelings~(Baladë fushatës së frenimit të ndjenjave)~That eyes
 89 Fright |                                  Frightful succession of seasons~(Radhë
 90 Fright |   succession of seasons~(Radhë e frikshme stinësh)~On the sidewalks
 91 Ballad |         inhibit feelings~(Baladë fushatës së frenimit të ndjenjave)~
 92 Landsc |          and pensive bridegroom,~Gathered at noble wedding.~Towards
 93 Monoton|         most monotonous and~Most genuine of mornings.~Grey hair,~
 94 Ballad |          not fail us~We invented glasses.~That hands not quiver~We
 95 PrayerA|         put me on fire,~Silently glowing in ashes of dread.~Why does
 96 Sappho |          you my whole life long,~Goddess of Poetry.~ ~
 97 Divine |      always billows~When the day goes mad~And tugs nighttime by
 98 Monoton|        Most genuine of mornings.~Grey hair,~The only change~In
 99 Ballad |        We invented glasses.~That hands not quiver~We invented pockets.~
100 Obliv  |                        Oblivion~(Harrim)~I have forgotten how to
101 Landsc |         and vanish in the vales,~Haze here and there still hovers
102 PrayerA|        heavens~An eclipse of the heart will have taken place here.~ ~
103 Ballad |         help can we find~For our hearts?~ ~
104 Divine |    Disrobing it~In the vaults of heaven.~Yes, a divine breeze~Always
105 PrayerA|        awake somewhere up in the heavens~An eclipse of the heart
106 Monoton|           The only change~In the heavy air of time.~ ~
107 Ballad |        We invented pockets.~What help can we find~For our hearts?~ ~
108 Landsc |          there still hovers o'er hillsides,~Tufts of billowing wool.~
109 PrayerA|     winds of winter,~Why does it hold back the torrents in May,~
110 PrayerF|        forth~They seem to wander~Homeless~Give these skies ~A place~
111 Evil   |        soul~When I was born~As a hostage~For this world's evil doings.~
112 Divine |             A divine breeze~(Erë hyjnore)~And a divine breeze always
113        | if
114 Return |     knocks.~Echo of a soul~Which incites me onwards~Towards everything
115 Ballad |          Ballad on a campaign to inhibit feelings~(Baladë fushatës
116 PrayerA|          hovers between us,~That invention called love, as the poet
117 Return |           Kthimi)~(for R.)~Night knocks.~Echo of a soul~Which incites
118 OnOur  |       torment,~Neither you~Nor I~Know~Whence the storm has come.~
119 Return |                          Return~(Kthimi)~(for R.)~Night knocks.~
120 Landsc |                                  Landscape~(Peizazh)~The mountains
121 OnOur  |    oblivion~To wrap and warm the late nights, and yet,~How cold
122        | Like
123 Divine |    outburst of unwept tears,~The liquids of longing which do not
124 Return |       the madmen~And mad are the living~Who butt out their cigarettes~
125 OnOur  |         did we vanish~Who are no longer?~Thereafter,~White wastelands
126 Divine |     unwept tears,~The liquids of longing which do not sleep?~ ~
127 Divine |        oh Lord,~Who can calm~The lust of unspoken words,~The outburst
128 Return |   nothing expected.~Dead are the madmen~And mad are the living~Who
129 PrayerA|        hold back the torrents in May,~Like a devilish child that
130 Monoton|        Under those same trees~We meet,~With the very same expressions~
131 PrayerF|     Lutje dimri)~These skies are~Monks freezing in solitude~Back
132 Monoton|                        Monotony~(Monotoni)~In that same street,~With
133 Monoton|         expressions~On that most monotonous and~Most genuine of mornings.~
134 Monoton|                                  Monotony~(Monotoni)~In that same
135 Landsc |          white splendour of long months of bridehood,~Mountain passes
136 Monoton|   monotonous and~Most genuine of mornings.~Grey hair,~The only change~
137 Landsc |        long months of bridehood,~Mountain passes still retain their
138 Landsc |          Landscape~(Peizazh)~The mountains are clad in white-flannel
139 Ballad |          fushatës së frenimit të ndjenjave)~That eyes not fail us~We
140 OnOur  |        On our "ancestral lands"~(Në "trojet" tona)~From that
141 Fright |        the abode of the day drew near:~After me comes winter,~
142        | Neither
143 PrayerA|         has now been awakened,~A new dream is born and will soon
144 Fright |        remind me that~Autumn was nigh.~A voice~From the abode
145 Return |         Return~(Kthimi)~(for R.)~Night knocks.~Echo of a soul~Which
146 OnOur  |        To wrap and warm the late nights, and yet,~How cold it is
147        | no
148 Landsc |          bridegroom,~Gathered at noble wedding.~Towards them I
149        | Nor
150        | nothing
151 Fright |       And winter will freeze you numb.~ ~
152 Landsc |      here and there still hovers o'er hillsides,~Tufts of billowing
153 Divine |       dunes of the desert.~Lord, oh Lord,~Who can calm~The lust
154        | once
155        | only
156 Return |          a soul~Which incites me onwards~Towards everything sought,~
157 Divine |      lust of unspoken words,~The outburst of unwept tears,~The liquids
158 Landsc |          wedding.~Towards them I pace, forgetting~Rice to throw
159 Return |     cigarettes~On the back of my pain.~It is an age of clamour,~
160 Sappho |    Sappho~(Safos)~I have been in parlance with you my whole life long,~
161 Evil   |       Prapësitë)~I left behind a part of my soul~When I was born~
162 Landsc |    months of bridehood,~Mountain passes still retain their winter
163 Landsc |                       Landscape~(Peizazh)~The mountains are clad
164 Landsc |          afar they are bride and pensive bridegroom,~Gathered at
165 Ballad |     hands not quiver~We invented pockets.~What help can we find~For
166 PrayerA|    invention called love, as the poet once said,~When you put
167 Sappho |      whole life long,~Goddess of Poetry.~ ~
168 Evil   |                     Evil doings~(Prapësitë)~I left behind a part of
169 Ballad |          glasses.~That hands not quiver~We invented pockets.~What
170 Return |             Return~(Kthimi)~(for R.)~Night knocks.~Echo of
171 Fright | Frightful succession of seasons~(Radhë e frikshme stinësh)~On the
172 Fright |         sidewalks of sadness~The rain began to fall,~As if to
173 Fright |          began to fall,~As if to remind me that~Autumn was nigh.~
174 OnOur  |  Thereafter,~White wastelands of repentance,~Topographies of torment,~
175 Landsc | bridehood,~Mountain passes still retain their winter borage.~From
176 Return |                                  Return~(Kthimi)~(for R.)~Night
177 Landsc |          them I pace, forgetting~Rice to throw over their ridges.~ ~
178 Landsc |         Rice to throw over their ridges.~ ~
179 Landsc |          for a moment forgot its roar and rumble,~Snowy silence,
180 Landsc |       moment forgot its roar and rumble,~Snowy silence, boundless
181        | s
182 Fright |     stinësh)~On the sidewalks of sadness~The rain began to fall,~
183 Sappho |                      For Sappho~(Safos)~I have been in parlance
184 PrayerA|    called love, as the poet once said,~When you put it out, you
185 Sappho |                              For Sappho~(Safos)~I have been in parlance
186 Evil   |         evildoers~Will certainly say:~It was your doing
187 OnOur  |        moment on,~They became my scarf of oblivion~To wrap and
188 Ballad |        feelings~(Baladë fushatës së frenimit të ndjenjave)~That
189 Landsc |          breeches,~Black-braided seams, torrents tumble and vanish
190 Fright |          Frightful succession of seasons~(Radhë e frikshme stinësh)~
191        | seem
192 Divine |     Always burgeons~To cover the shame of the stars shining~Over
193 Divine |     cover the shame of the stars shining~Over the bare dunes of the
194 Fright |         frikshme stinësh)~On the sidewalks of sadness~The rain began
195 PrayerA|         out, you put me on fire,~Silently glowing in ashes of dread.~
196        | Since
197 Obliv  |          I have forgotten how to sing of love~Since that moment
198 Landsc |      forgot its roar and rumble,~Snowy silence, boundless and virgin,
199        | So
200 PrayerF|      skies are~Monks freezing in solitude~Back and forth~They seem
201 Return |         is an age of clamour,~Of solitudes' crusade.~(Figline, 31.07.1998)~ ~
202        | somewhere
203 PrayerA|       new dream is born and will soon go its way.~Let sleep take
204 Return |       onwards~Towards everything sought,~Towards nothing expected.~
205 PrayerA|        Ana Ahmatovës)~How it now spins, how it hovers between us,~
206 Landsc |        virgin, clad~In the white splendour of long months of bridehood,~
207 Divine |        To cover the shame of the stars shining~Over the bare dunes
208 Fright |        seasons~(Radhë e frikshme stinësh)~On the sidewalks of sadness~
209 OnOur  |        you~Nor I~Know~Whence the storm has come.~From that moment
210 Monoton|           Monotoni)~In that same street,~With those same steps,~
211 Fright |                        Frightful succession of seasons~(Radhë e frikshme
212 PrayerA|       soon go its way.~Let sleep take care of your fears and your
213 PrayerA|   eclipse of the heart will have taken place here.~ ~
214 Ballad |      Baladë fushatës së frenimit të ndjenjave)~That eyes not
215 PrayerA|      abscond now with your every tear,~And when you awake somewhere
216 Divine |           The outburst of unwept tears,~The liquids of longing
217        | themselves
218        | there
219        | Thereafter
220        | this
221 Landsc |         pace, forgetting~Rice to throw over their ridges.~ ~
222 Monoton|       change~In the heavy air of time.~ ~
223 OnOur  |    ancestral lands"~(Në "trojet" tona)~From that moment on,~I
224 OnOur  |        wastelands of repentance,~Topographies of torment,~Neither you~
225 OnOur  |      repentance,~Topographies of torment,~Neither you~Nor I~Know~
226 OnOur  |        the void of my steps,~The traces of my unlived life.~Where
227 Monoton|          steps,~Under those same trees~We meet,~With the very same
228 OnOur  |       our "ancestral lands"~(Në "trojet" tona)~From that moment
229 Landsc |     still hovers o'er hillsides,~Tufts of billowing wool.~The wind
230 Divine |        When the day goes mad~And tugs nighttime by the hair,~Disrobing
231 Landsc |    Black-braided seams, torrents tumble and vanish in the vales,~
232        | Under
233 OnOur  |          steps,~The traces of my unlived life.~Where did all the
234 Divine |         Who can calm~The lust of unspoken words,~The outburst of unwept
235 Divine |  unspoken words,~The outburst of unwept tears,~The liquids of longing
236        | up
237 Landsc |         tumble and vanish in the vales,~Haze here and there still
238 Divine |        hair,~Disrobing it~In the vaults of heaven.~Yes, a divine
239        | very
240 Landsc |     Snowy silence, boundless and virgin, clad~In the white splendour
241 Fright |          that~Autumn was nigh.~A voice~From the abode of the day
242 OnOur  |         on,~I left behind me the void of my steps,~The traces
243 PrayerA|      ashes of dread.~Why does it wait for the cold winds of winter,~
244 PrayerF|      Back and forth~They seem to wander~Homeless~Give these skies ~
245 OnOur  |        longer?~Thereafter,~White wastelands of repentance,~Topographies
246 PrayerA|        born and will soon go its way.~Let sleep take care of
247 Landsc |    bridegroom,~Gathered at noble wedding.~Towards them I pace, forgetting~
248        | What
249        | Whence
250 Landsc |        The mountains are clad in white-flannel breeches,~Black-braided
251        | whole
252 Landsc |     Tufts of billowing wool.~The wind for a moment forgot its
253 PrayerA|        does it wait for the cold winds of winter,~Why does it hold
254 Landsc |    hillsides,~Tufts of billowing wool.~The wind for a moment forgot
255 Evil   |       born~As a hostage~For this world's evil doings.~And when
256 OnOur  |          my scarf of oblivion~To wrap and warm the late nights,
257        | Yes
258        | yet