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501 1| of a farm manager and a milkmaid, which I did not find overly 502 1| painter I wouldn’t have minded, but he came up with a real 503 6| Then they changed their minds and decided to expel her 504 7| This is a friend of mine from the conservatory."~ 505 5| chasing after one of those miniskirts, one of those wiggling, 506 1| staff member at one of the ministries, about goods for import 507 2| influential people. A whole ministry acted on your behalf. And 508 2| studies. You’ll see what a mire this Mira is going to leave 509 1| cultural horizons. He never misses a concert even though I 510 3| after the conclusion of a mission undertaken. Strangely enough, 511 6| my doubts, Arthur. Don’t misunderstand me. I respect Mr Reufi, 512 7| from the conservatory. The misunderstanding had to be cleared up. One 513 7| exclaimed, forgetting myself momentarily.~ The old man, startled 514 5| Shemsedin, for wasting money on building a public library 515 3| enjoyed because they were less monotonous than the rest. It should 516 8| both wounded by the same mortar shell. You are talking nonsense!" 517 2| for a moment," he said, motioning to a chair.~ I sat down. 518 6| Mira by separating us. The motives were complex indeed!~ " 519 1| could build a bridge or mount a turbine. Why should I 520 3| the stone staircase. He mounted slowly, step by step, with 521 2| nose at the edge of his moustache. What he said was true.~ " 522 4| sat down and watched the movements of their spoons. My father 523 4| like someone treading on muddy ground.~ "You’re back?" 524 4| father’s side, the two of us munching away, he loudly and I quietly.~ " 525 4| been in that temple of the muses too long already. There 526 3| with the idea that I am a musical genius.~ Pale and worn 527 5| replied.~ "About him," he muttered, pointing to me.~ "I 528 7| s place?"~ "I imagine Nasi will insist that I stay," 529 4| breathing on the back of my neck. I rose and said:~ "I’ 530 1| enter this universe you needed the right uniform. I had 531 7| without Mira. The whole neighbourhood was verdant on those spring 532 1| She would confide in the neighbours some would-be secret about 533 8| ashamed," I said.~ A nerve twitched on my father’s 534 1| shelf and tried to calm my nerves by reading. A mixture of 535 7| think I was bringing good news.~ "My father is here, 536 5| unbelievable!"~ "Don’t insult a nice girl," I interrupted dryly. 537 3| Everyone has to find his own niche in life. But just wait another 538 7| Are you going to spend the night at a hotel or at your friend’ 539 7| asked him to call Mira. He nodded in silence and came out 540 | None 541 | Nonetheless 542 7| from the conservatory. He notified my father, too. Of course 543 6| through elementary texts and noting all the words of vocabulary 544 5| way all young people think nowadays? The right road, self-knowledge, 545 5| me down that road and I obeyed. But it was a mistake. Now 546 1| s vanity had made me an object of ridicule among the students. 547 3| Although her response was objective enough, it irritated me. 548 1| well impress an outside observer. One time, he brought home 549 3| for music! My father is obsessed with the idea that I am 550 2| the fair sex."~ It was obvious that my father was furious. 551 3| marks and my lack of talent. Obviously, I said to myself, Mira 552 3| even made me jealous on occasion! I had the impression that 553 7| talking, and singing the occasional song. Now on this cold and 554 7| word they said. I may be old-fashioned but I don’t believe it at 555 7| anyway? I am getting a bit older," he said.~ "He is fine. 556 5| superstitious but was taken by an ominous foreboding. It was true, 557 1| and that there are no new ones to be found. Thousands and 558 1| symphonies, sonatas, études, operas, operettas and cantatas 559 1| wading through a history of operatic music from Verdi to Wagner 560 1| sonatas, études, operas, operettas and cantatas resound all 561 5| all. Has he been given an opportunity to use his talent? Yes. 562 5| are unworthy of defence in order to defend ourselves. That 563 | Otherwise 564 4| staircase. If I had had but one ounce of inclination, if not to 565 | ourselves 566 5| father predicted, became outdated within ten years and had 567 1| milkmaid, which I did not find overly impressive.~ I closed 568 5| seem to be preceded by an overture of clattering plates and 569 1| pockets of his trousers, he paced back and forth in front 570 2| I sat down. He took a packet of cigarettes and a lighter 571 3| and said nothing. I tore a page out of my notebook and wrote 572 1| February. The first few pages of the book contained a 573 8| gave me a look full of pain and suffering and turned 574 4| my lack of talent.~ It pained her to hear the others making 575 1| the walls, he ordered four paintings: landscapes and a still 576 4| I could feel that I was paling.~ He stood in front of 577 3| later, she stuffed a slip of paper into my pocket. I opened 578 3| up. It swung around and parked in front of the entrance. 579 1| too, but not to be able to parrot the information. I just 580 4| of warmth and sweetness pass through my body. Mira lowered 581 7| How dare he!" I cried passionately.~ "You think so, too? 582 6| long time. Burhan listened patiently with his jaw resting in 583 1| from our balcony onto the pavement below.~ The radio was 584 4| Let him eat his meal in peace!" my mother broke in.~ " 585 4| in the air seemed to have penetrated the marrow of her bones. 586 6| expounding ideas which had been pent up within me for a long 587 3| composers for the cultural periodical Drita and they would have 588 6| academic year. The head of personnel said I could start work 589 2| pitying look. His forehead was perspiring. Drops of sweat had formed 590 5| father was at the office perusing important documents about 591 1| angry with her. Someone had phoned to talk to my father. My 592 1| promise of becoming a good pianist. But what promise do I hold? 593 1| fun of me. She is studying piano and holds the promise of 594 6| back to your books!" He picked up his umbrella and left 595 1| Appassionata. I loved that piece. It never failed to move 596 2| I gave my father a pitying look. His forehead was perspiring. 597 4| he meant," Mira broke in, placatingly.~ I looked at her, thinking, " 598 2| eyes. Lowering his head, he placed it back into his pocket.~ " 599 6| bought for me. I had several plans. I wanted to start with 600 6| for a job at the tractor plant until the start of the next 601 4| like machine and tractor plants, for instance."~ Burhan 602 4| imposing figure."~ "He plays the part professionally. 603 6| feet.~ "Don’t go yet," I pleaded.~ "I must go," he replied 604 5| in life. It was you who pointed me down that road and I 605 5| About him," he muttered, pointing to me.~ "I don’t know," 606 1| import and export, or about politics. It depressed me to see 607 1| countered, imitating his pomposity. He looked me in the eyes, 608 1| I was irritated by his pompous tone.~ "What’s so insane 609 7| while in silence, each of us pondering. Until then, my only worry 610 6| teaching myself English, poring through elementary texts 611 1| armchair.~ He altered his pose to look hurt, and then frowned 612 1| amateur.~ So, there was a possibility that I might fail the year. 613 1| thoroughly convinced that all possible combinations of keys have 614 7| He said I would have to post a statement of self-criticism 615 1| pockets. I knew that all this posturing was designed to put psychological 616 6| kind of pressure. He is a powerful person, Arthur, and is capable 617 3| itself, I didn’t enjoy the practical courses at all. The basic 618 5| arguments always seem to be preceded by an overture of clattering 619 5| building which, as my father predicted, became outdated within 620 6| relationship with her as the prelude to marriage. To save me 621 5| mother? For me to have a prestigious job and be worse than everyone 622 3| began taking notes again. I pretended to be listening to the professor 623 3| now to my father. Why this pretentious fascination with music when 624 1| replied.~ I disliked the pretentiousness of the name Arthur, too. 625 2| in front of my mouth to prevent myself from giggling. My 626 1| She had only gone through primary school and had never had 627 7| and much more complicated problems had arisen. Yes, my father 628 6| lathe during extracurricular production work at secondary school. 629 6| my studies and having a professional career first. He saw my 630 4| He plays the part professionally. He considers us and everyone 631 1| convey an impression of profound reasoning, but I knew it 632 5| writing. Burhan, with his pronounced jaw, was sitting behind 633 1| artist in the family was proof of superior intelligence. 634 4| no doubt been playing the prosecution and my mother had been taking 635 1| posturing was designed to put psychological pressure on me.~ "I am 636 5| wasting money on building a public library for a small town, 637 1| Reufi’.~ "Aren’t you pushing it a bit, mother?" I said 638 8| found my father lying in his pyjamas on the kitchen sofa. He 639 8| both wounded. That was a quarter of a century ago. Take Doko! 640 3| she asked.~ "What a question!" I countered.~ "I only 641 7| rainy February day, it was quieter.~ At the entrance stood 642 6| said.~ He looked at me quizzically, so I explained:~ "They 643 1| pavement below.~ The radio was playing the Appassionata. 644 6| I was red with shame and rage. My fingers moved nervously 645 7| song. Now on this cold and rainy February day, it was quieter.~ 646 4| re back?" he said without raising his head.~ "I’m back," 647 4| graduation I would join the ranks of those with diplomas of 648 1| eyes, as if to study my reaction, and said nothing for quite 649 1| minded, but he came up with a real amateur.~ So, there was 650 1| an impression of profound reasoning, but I knew it was nothing 651 5| ten years and had to be rebuilt. My father was right, I 652 2| exams. You entered on the recommendation of influential people. A 653 8| silence. His face turned redder and was already covered 654 8| slowly on the sofa. The redness on his face vanished and 655 7| that Take Doko sends his regards. Tell him we were wounded 656 3| the summer break you can register at the university. I think 657 3| understands," I lied and regretted the irony in my voice. I 658 3| to know about the chilly relations between my father and me, 659 6| career first. He saw my relationship with her as the prelude 660 7| I could feel a sense of relief in her.~ "Arthur, I am 661 8| Take Doko? I think I remember him," he said with his eyes 662 8| Looking at him on the sofa reminded me of Mira’s father, who 663 5| gave a laugh though and was repaid with an angry glance as 664 5| and the rectorate. A fine repayment for all we’ve done for him!"~ 665 5| office. Whenever he has a report to write he is all keyed 666 6| conservatory. My father reported to the dean’s office that 667 3| love with Mira, nor did he reproach her for being with me. He 668 8| her lip and looked at me reproachfully for having upset my father. 669 1| He was impressed by the reputation of the National Institute 670 1| operettas and cantatas resound all over the continent. 671 6| Don’t misunderstand me. I respect Mr Reufi, but he is the 672 4| asked.~ "Yes, I am," I responded, my eyes fixed on my plate 673 3| it read.~ Although her response was objective enough, it 674 3| less monotonous than the rest. It should have been the 675 6| listened patiently with his jaw resting in the palm of his hand.~ 676 7| Is he the one?" But he retained his composure.~ We started 677 1| my irritation is simply reverse snobbery. At times, when 678 3| sufficiently. I could have written reviews on different composers for 679 3| myself, Mira is glad to get rid of me. She is going to leave 680 1| had made me an object of ridicule among the students. Mira, 681 4| I said. "There are other roads." I put the notebook in 682 1| showed him through all the rooms of the apartment and, standing 683 6| decision, Burhan."~ He rubbed his forehead and crossed 684 6| studying English. I should have run after him and gone to see 685 6| I threw on my coat and rushed down the stairs. My mother 686 1| wet boulevard. People were rushing in all directions, huddled 687 3| lover. What a clown! It saddened me to be calling my own 688 7| in her eyes despite the sadness of her expression. She seemed 689 2| sex?" I asked.~ "The sair fex! Girls!" he shouted, 690 6| sacrificed her happiness for the sake of her husband who was very 691 5| Don’t be silly! Burhan has sandals for ears. Why should he 692 4| should I?" said my father sarcastically.~ I ignored him and continued 693 8| the aching caused by the scar.~ "Take Doko sends his 694 4| from the table, his cheeks scarlet. He did not like my answer 695 5| was one of the funniest scenes ever to have taken place 696 4| and turn up their noses sceptically at what others were doing 697 4| huddled close to me as if in search of warmth.~ "Are you 698 5| students were now in their second class. Mira was sitting 699 6| extracurricular production work at secondary school. I did not tell my 700 1| neighbours some would-be secret about a staff member at 701 | seem 702 4| Approaching the table, he seized my spoon and hurled it to 703 5| nowadays? The right road, self-knowledge, awareness of your talents, 704 4| moments. It was like the sensation I had at the conservatory 705 3| I liked Burhan. He was a sensible, level-headed person. He 706 4| job. I turned towards him, sensing from his expression that 707 4| have looked talented and sensitive but something was lacking 708 6| would sacrifice Mira by separating us. The motives were complex 709 5| for music, mother." I said seriously.~ "You have no talent? 710 7| field hospital and who had served in the same battalion. I 711 4| wiping his mouth with a serviette.~ "You’re right, and 712 3| the flirting between the sexes at the conservatory, and 713 3| distressed," she noted.~ "The shadow of my father distresses 714 6| added.~ I was red with shame and rage. My fingers moved 715 1| I took a book from the shelf and tried to calm my nerves 716 5| criticized his superior, Shemsedin, for wasting money on building 717 4| in my hand and began to shiver. Suddenly I felt relieved, 718 8| together in one trench. We were shooting at the Germans and at the 719 1| adopted some of my father’s shortcomings. She too had become a bit 720 3| I never let my jealousy show. Nor did I say anything 721 1| brought home a painter. He showed him through all the rooms 722 7| daughter," he said in a shrill quivering voice.~ I stood 723 7| for her, he appeared to shrink, as if he were trying to 724 7| front of Durgut. Instead he shrugged off the accusations with 725 8| only by my mother’s own sighing. The clock talked to me 726 8| low voice, a succession of sighs and lamentations, interrupted 727 5| door opened and I caught sight of my father’s hat and black 728 4| Burhan stopped. He gave no sign of surprise, but I knew 729 5| for music."~ "Don’t be silly! Burhan has sandals for 730 4| father wasn’t born with a silver spoon in his mouth," I said.~ " 731 3| Burhan sitting at my side. Simmering with wrath, I said nothing 732 4| I did not want to be a simple statistic. I stared at the 733 5| what about Burhan, that simpleton? You are surely more talented 734 7| girls laughing, talking, and singing the occasional song. Now 735 1| Neither my mother nor my sister were at home. I took a book 736 5| at his pencil, gets up, sits down. He is daring in his 737 5| the blame to save our own skin. You’re blaming her to defend 738 5| wiggling, giggling bits of skirt," he shouted, rising to 739 7| departed and began to walk. The sky was cold and grey. There 740 7| nonsense. I won’t allow such slander to spread no matter who 741 3| it was simply a lack of sleep. It was during class that 742 1| the window watching the sleet fall, I recalled that my 743 4| remained alone with Mira. Slender and wrapped in her blue 744 4| answer I would give. I was slightly offended at the idea that 745 3| moments later, she stuffed a slip of paper into my pocket. 746 5| building a public library for a small town, a building which, 747 2| waistcoat pocket. I could smell the tobacco and the lighter 748 5| smiled.~ "What are you smiling at?" she asked. "You’re 749 7| waiting for someone. He was smoking a cigarette and had his 750 1| you, you can act like a snob and take a dislike to whatever 751 1| irritation is simply reverse snobbery. At times, when boredom 752 4| slowly, departed with a solemn stride.~ "I didn’t know 753 2| entered the room. He had a sombre look on his face.~ "Where 754 6| to my room silently and sombrely.~ He sat down in the 755 | Sometimes 756 1| Thousands and thousands of songs, symphonies, sonatas, études, 757 7| group of bad girls, and all sorts of other things."~ "Who 758 7| air was filled with the sound of girls laughing, talking, 759 1| continent. A universe of sounds had already been created 760 5| hear it clattering in the soup dish.~ 761 5| eyebrows frowning over eyes sparkling with fury.~ "We often 762 4| education who are neither specialists nor intellectuals. I would 763 8| My father rose again, speechless, opened the door, gave me 764 7| students and that we have been spending our afternoons in ‘immoral’ 765 2| had committed one of his spoonerisms.~ "Shut up and sit down!" 766 4| watched the movements of their spoons. My father was chewing and 767 7| t allow such slander to spread no matter who started it. 768 7| neighbourhood was verdant on those spring evenings, and the air was 769 4| palm. They were cold and I squeezed them. I could feel a current 770 1| would-be secret about a staff member at one of the ministries, 771 2| lighter fluid.~ "Every stage of life," he said, "is subject 772 6| coat and rushed down the stairs. My mother called after 773 6| future of an individual is at stake. Should we just look the 774 2| my father was furious. He stammered and repeated himself, but 775 7| momentarily.~ The old man, startled at the tone of my voice, 776 6| from the conservatory," stated Burhan.~ I jumped.~ " 777 4| I walked Mira to the bus station and then returned home.~ 778 4| huge mistake. The longer I stayed, the more I would suffer. 779 3| t wait anymore! I’m not staying at the conservatory any 780 5| began pacing back and forth. Steam was still rising from the 781 4| you are going to be bored stiff at home until the new school 782 2| this, he left the room and stomped down the hallway.~ All 783 3| hat, he began climbing the stone staircase. He mounted slowly, 784 2| mouth.~ I couldn’t keep a straight face. I got up and laughed 785 5| You have learned some strange ideas. Is that the way all 786 3| of a mission undertaken. Strangely enough, he never took me 787 5| as if I were a complete stranger.~ "Me telling you what 788 4| beside me in silence. The wet street and the dampness in the 789 8| father put his book down. He stretched his legs, stood up and wrinkled 790 4| departed with a solemn stride.~ "I didn’t know what 791 2| expecting. He took out his striped handkerchief and wiped his 792 7| t worry, Mira!" I said, stroking her hair. She stood silent 793 7| shoulder twitched as if she had struck me.~ "You mustn’t think 794 1| me in the eyes, as if to study my reaction, and said nothing 795 1| turned as frigid as winter. Stuffing his hands in the pockets 796 2| stage of life," he said, "is subject to many factors."~ I 797 4| us and everyone else his subordinates," I said.~ "How can you 798 2| displeasure in his voice. "I succeeded in getting you into the 799 8| my father’s low voice, a succession of sighs and lamentations, 800 8| a look full of pain and suffering and turned away. My mother, 801 3| it did not interest me sufficiently. I could have written reviews 802 7| Arthur, I am embarrassed to suggest it, but could it be your 803 3| interested me. In fact, Mira suggested that I should change my 804 3| end of the year. After the summer break you can register at 805 1| a description of a fine sunny day. It was the story of 806 5| trembled in confusion. I am not superstitious but was taken by an ominous 807 5| young man. They say he is supposed to be capable, talented. 808 5| that simpleton? You are surely more talented than he is. 809 4| stopped. He gave no sign of surprise, but I knew that he did 810 4| a current of warmth and sweetness pass through my body. Mira 811 3| cream-coloured car drove up. It swung around and parked in front 812 1| should I have to compose a symphony or even a song?~ I thought 813 5| self-knowledge, awareness of your talents, of your limitations. Do 814 3| enough, he never took me to task for being in love with Mira, 815 6| home reading. I was also teaching myself English, poring through 816 7| biting her lower lip and with tears welling in her eyes.~ " 817 5| At that moment the telephone rang. My mother went to 818 2| tell you! It’s all this television! This hippy generation! 819 4| that I had been in that temple of the muses too long already. 820 7| cigarette in his mouth. I was tempted to introduce myself but 821 5| became outdated within ten years and had to be rebuilt. 822 1| many ways. Just as children tend to imitate their parents, 823 5| Demo."~ She looked at me tenderly.~ "Everyone calls him 824 6| more than just friendly terms.~ "What male students?"~ " 825 | themselves 826 3| hours were taken up by our third lesson in the ‘basic principles 827 1| None. A composer? I am thoroughly convinced that all possible 828 6| doing it..." said Burhan thoughtfully.~ "Why are you so suspicious?" 829 2| Now they tell me that your thoughts are not concentrated on 830 6| gone to see Mira.~ I threw on my coat and rushed down 831 8| constantly at one another’s throats."~ "We weren’t fighting. 832 6| marriage. To save me from throwing away my future, he would 833 1| are there between do and ti, Arthur?"~ But who knew 834 8| the only words it knew: tick tock 835 8| I sat there counting the ticking. From the bedroom I could 836 7| murmured and approached him timidly.~ "Let’s go, daughter," 837 2| pocket. I could smell the tobacco and the lighter fluid.~ " 838 8| only words it knew: tick tock 839 3| man and said nothing. I tore a page out of my notebook 840 5| conservatory, son. You’re just torturing yourself," and took out 841 4| auditorium wall, I felt my total defeat, the futility of 842 5| down again. He had not yet touched his food.~ "He has come 843 4| valuable time with that little tramp. You may have talent for 844 2| five months, you intend to trample on everything we have done, 845 4| making a noise like someone treading on muddy ground.~ "You’ 846 5| me tell you," I began to tremble, "I don’t need you to tell 847 8| We were together in one trench. We were shooting at the 848 8| knew nothing about Mira’s troubles. She bit her lip and looked 849 6| Burhan to discover the full truth.~ "Listen, Burhan. My 850 7| to shrink, as if he were trying to withdraw into his cream-coloured 851 1| build a bridge or mount a turbine. Why should I have to compose 852 5| today. He will be back at two-thirty this afternoon. Where are 853 1| directions, huddled under their umbrellas. I could hear the rain gushing 854 4| Burhan seemed to understand that his presence bothered 855 3| conservatory?" she asked.~ "He understands," I lied and regretted the 856 3| conclusion of a mission undertaken. Strangely enough, he never 857 4| back home and were just as uneasy as I. These were my last 858 4| table, as my food remained uneaten on the plate, and as Mira 859 7| out of his booth. Quite unexpectedly he turned towards me and 860 3| the Writers’ and Artists’ Union. Why bother? I would rather 861 8| turned away. My mother, unnerved, followed him into the bedroom.~ 862 5| be capable, talented. But unused talent is the same as no 863 5| often defend those who are unworthy of defence in order to defend 864 | used 865 4| no talent for music," he uttered, gradually bringing the 866 1| She too had become a bit vain and liked to boast about 867 4| You’re wasting your valuable time with that little tramp. 868 8| The redness on his face vanished and he grew pale. My mother 869 3| himself descend from the vehicle. Dressed in a heavy winter 870 7| whole neighbourhood was verdant on those spring evenings, 871 4| adopt the attitudes and views of the gifted students and 872 6| noting all the words of vocabulary I didn’t know. I spoke the 873 1| residence? Perhaps she was wading through a history of operatic 874 2| and a lighter out of his waistcoat pocket. I could smell the 875 7| same battalion during the war. Good old Demosten!" the 876 4| Look, Burhan, my father wasn’t born with a silver spoon 877 4| having lunch. I sat down and watched the movements of their spoons. 878 1| Standing at the window watching the sleet fall, I recalled 879 4| others making fun of my weakness in music. Sometimes she 880 7| Durgut!" said Mira in a weary voice.~ "Yes, that’s 881 8| partisan. Even now when the weather was damp he would complain 882 6| start work the following week. I had learned how to use 883 5| feel like I’m eating some well-prepared poison."~ My mother gave 884 7| lower lip and with tears welling in her eyes.~ "Are you 885 8| another’s throats."~ "We weren’t fighting. I spoke quite 886 3| was during class that I whispered to Burhan,~ "I’ve decided 887 | Whose 888 5| course I married her. My wife the musician. I gave a loud 889 5| miniskirts, one of those wiggling, giggling bits of skirt," 890 5| took out a handkerchief to wipe a tear off my cheek.~ 891 4| walking the streets," he said, wiping his mouth with a serviette.~ " 892 4| Although it was my own wish to leave, my heart ached 893 7| as if he were trying to withdraw into his cream-coloured 894 6| there is a story about a woman who sacrificed herself for 895 7| yes, Dr Vasil Karakuli. I wonder what ever became of him?"~ " 896 6| descend to such depths, I wondered, as Burhan, wise, kind Burhan, 897 7| with his little eyes as if wondering: "Is he the one?" But he 898 5| a hard and conscientious worker all right. I have seen him 899 5| headed. They all say that he works hard and expects everyone 900 5| a prestigious job and be worse than everyone else or to 901 3| student and here I’m the worst, I thought to myself, my 902 1| confide in the neighbours some would-be secret about a staff member 903 7| knowing it, my father was wounding an old comrade, someone 904 4| alone with Mira. Slender and wrapped in her blue coat, she walked 905 3| my side. Simmering with wrath, I said nothing more until 906 8| stretched his legs, stood up and wrinkled his brow.~ "Take Doko? 907 3| me whenever we met at the Writers’ and Artists’ Union. Why 908 5| keyed up like a child. He writes, gnaws nervously at his 909 3| sufficiently. I could have written reviews on different composers 910 3| page out of my notebook and wrote a couple of lines: ‘Mira, 911 4| become a statistic in a yearbook and nothing more. I did 912 5| became outdated within ten years and had to be rebuilt. My