Poem

  1 Mauve  |           Is the Mauve Nun.~In the afternoon from behind the windowpane
  2        | against
  3 Mauve  |            Raising her arms~To the age-old sky.~Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs,~
  4 Memory |               Memory~(Kujtesë)~The aging stations of memory~Drip
  5 Colour |      fingers,~Breathless, but with ambiance.~Red,~Red is a cold colour,~
  6        | an
  7 Memory |            my head,~That unearthed ancient skull,~Only echoes~Resound.~~
  8 Mauve  |             Breathless~Raising her arms~To the age-old sky.~Lilacs,
  9 Memory |            the stations, but never arrive.~Only their lights quiver
 10        | at
 11 Land   |       though not of earth.~My home awaits me,~Unknown and buried,~
 12 Girls  |         They swing and sway to the azure heavens.~And onwards they
 13 Colour |          perfection with crippling barriers.~~
 14        | be
 15        | behind
 16 Belief |                                    Belief~(Besimi)~The broken vase~
 17 Belief |                            Belief~(Besimi)~The broken vase~Grows cold~
 18        | beyond
 19 Colour |            nothing~Without fear of black,~Burns you in scarlet reflection,~
 20 Colour | cleanliness~Oozing~Little drops of blood~From severed fingers,~Breathless,
 21 Blood  |                                    Bloodstain~(Njollë gjaku)~To recline~
 22 Belief |        believe in the sincerity of bloody hands,~Silence is a grave~
 23 Land   |            country,~That I will be born.~Somewhere it will exist~
 24 Blood  |           of white,~They greet~The bride all dressed in white~And
 25 Girls  |        warm wind~            which brings the rain,~To and fro in
 26 Blood  |       white,~And sit,~Wiping their brows with kerchiefs of white,~
 27 Mauve  |        lilacs, lilacs,~Untied they burgeon~In delirium,~A jumble~Of
 28 Land   |        home awaits me,~Unknown and buried,~There~In the midst of an
 29 Colour |     nothing~Without fear of black,~Burns you in scarlet reflection,~
 30 Disease|            the eye,~Afraid I might cause it to perish,~            
 31 Wall   |           would crouch~And rest my cheek against it,~I would find
 32 Colour |    murderous~It will cut down your cleanliness~Oozing~Little drops of blood~
 33 Girls  |          the wind,~            the clement, warm wind~            which
 34 Wall   |         What would you do?~I would close my eyes, I would crouch~
 35 Blood  |      kerchiefs of white,~And drink~Coffee from scalding cups of white,~
 36 Colour |           there any shadow in your colours,~Where you can take refuge
 37 Colour |            scarlet reflection,~And comes to rest only when rain recovered,~
 38 Wall   |            would find peace in its cool serenity.~And if this wall
 39 Mauve  |          But never gets beyond~The corner,~There she stands,~Breathless~
 40 Colour |            line of perfection with crippling barriers.~~
 41 Land   |           Here~All end in doubtful crossroads~I am searching for a Land~
 42 Wall   |       would close my eyes, I would crouch~And rest my cheek against
 43 Blood  |         drink~Coffee from scalding cups of white,~They greet~The
 44 Blood  |      recline~In a room of white~On cushions of white~They enter,~The
 45 Colour |         White is murderous~It will cut down your cleanliness~Oozing~
 46 Disease|           Diseased, yet so fair,~I dare not~Look it in the eye,~
 47 Blood  |            her offspring~On frosty days of white,~Then to the feast~
 48 Wall   |    serenity.~And if this wall were death...~~ ~
 49 Mauve  |             Sitting in the window,~Decolleté revealed,~Is the Mauve Nun.~
 50 Mauve  |             Untied they burgeon~In delirium,~A jumble~Of fragrance,
 51 Girls  |          soon as they are grown...~Despite their earthly~Urges~They
 52 Mauve  |            her energy~That she may die.~~
 53 Colour |            like silk when the wind dies down,~Seductive silk settling
 54 Girls  |       Growing up so terribly fast.~Disrobing in rundown lodgings~They
 55 Colour |      colour,~Lost energy,~Stunning dissonance,~It is a colour which offers
 56 Memory |         their lights quiver in the distance.~Relieved of the weight
 57        | do
 58 Belief |          of glass may weep~I still don't believe in the sincerity
 59 Land   |            streets~Here~All end in doubtful crossroads~I am searching
 60 Mauve  |          behind the windowpane she dreams of glory~Until the stars
 61 Blood  |           They greet~The bride all dressed in white~And wish her offspring~
 62 Blood  |            kerchiefs of white,~And drink~Coffee from scalding cups
 63 Memory |           aging stations of memory~Drip in the rain~So far away,
 64 Colour |          cleanliness~Oozing~Little drops of blood~From severed fingers,~
 65 Disease|            Diseased colour~(Ngjyrë e sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~
 66 Girls  |         are grown...~Despite their earthly~Urges~They remain UNATTAINABLE~
 67 Memory |      unearthed ancient skull,~Only echoes~Resound.~~
 68 Land   |           There~In the midst of an Empire of Winds.~~
 69 Memory |          Memory,~Holes in my head,~Empty~Sad-looking trains,~They
 70        | end
 71 Colour |                                    Energies of colour~(Energji të ngjyrës)~
 72 Colour |                Energies of colour~(Energji të ngjyrës)~Oh innocence,
 73 Blood  |          On cushions of white~They enter,~The natives in their skullcaps
 74        | everything
 75 Land   |            born.~Somewhere it will exist~This new Land,~Oh earth
 76 Land   |      streets and fixed purposes~To expedite its people~Once and for
 77 Disease|            dare not~Look it in the eye,~Afraid I might cause it
 78 Wall   |           you do?~I would close my eyes, I would crouch~And rest
 79 Disease|           Yellow.~Diseased, yet so fair,~I dare not~Look it in the
 80 Girls  |             Growing up so terribly fast.~Disrobing in rundown lodgings~
 81 Colour |           it gives nothing~Without fear of black,~Burns you in scarlet
 82 Blood  |         days of white,~Then to the feast~They rise~And slay sheep
 83 Disease|        wind,~There is no pink more feeble~Than that which warmly floods
 84 Girls  |          There is to dream.~No one feeds them.~They hurry forth,~
 85 Colour |        drops of blood~From severed fingers,~Breathless, but with ambiance.~
 86 Land   |         Mutilated~With streets and fixed purposes~To expedite its
 87 Disease|      feeble~Than that which warmly floods in now,~Diseased colour~
 88 Colour |    thoughts for a moment?~Has this foolhardiness~Any meaning at all~Or will
 89 Girls  |            of a violin~Towards the forbidden fruit~            urged
 90 Girls  |         one feeds them.~They hurry forth,~Growing up so terribly
 91 Mauve  |           In delirium,~A jumble~Of fragrance, stems, petals~Which release
 92 Girls  |            brings the rain,~To and fro in their white and slender
 93 Wall   |           high wall~Should rise in front of you....~What would you
 94 Blood  |          And wish her offspring~On frosty days of white,~Then to the
 95 Girls  |       violin~Towards the forbidden fruit~            urged on by
 96 Mauve  |            shabby dream,~But never gets beyond~The corner,~There
 97 Colour |           hand.~So naive~Though it gives nothing~Without fear of
 98 Blood  |                 Bloodstain~(Njollë gjaku)~To recline~In a room of
 99 Mauve  |           windowpane she dreams of glory~Until the stars come out,~
100 Mauve  |            the stars come out,~She goes out~Into the limelight of
101 Memory |        turned cold.~Images of time gone by rusting on open platforms~
102 Belief |         bloody hands,~Silence is a grave~From which the truth will
103 Blood  |       scalding cups of white,~They greet~The bride all dressed in
104 Girls  |            them.~They hurry forth,~Growing up so terribly fast.~Disrobing
105 Girls  |         perish~As soon as they are grown...~Despite their earthly~
106 Belief |            Besimi)~The broken vase~Grows cold~A solitude of petals~
107 Disease|         colour~(Ngjyrë e sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~Trembles~In
108 Colour |        everything... while in your hand.~So naive~Though it gives
109 Girls  |        swing and sway to the azure heavens.~And onwards they tread~
110 Wall   |            wall, long and thick,~A high wall~Should rise in front
111 Memory |      platforms~Unattended.~Memory,~Holes in my head,~Empty~Sad-looking
112 Land   |            though not of earth.~My home awaits me,~Unknown and buried,~
113        | However
114 Girls  |            No one feeds them.~They hurry forth,~Growing up so terribly
115 Memory |           weather has turned cold.~Images of time gone by rusting
116 Girls  |                    in their watery imagination.~They perish in your hands.~
117 Land   |                      My land~(Toka ime)~This land~Mutilated~With
118 Colour |      Sincerity, scarlet yet sinful~Insensitive, you stand to one side,~
119 Colour |         and obedient~You raise the intensity of colour.~A line of perfection
120        | Into
121 Girls  |          are made of water~(Vajzat janë prej uji)~Girls have only~
122 Mauve  |        they burgeon~In delirium,~A jumble~Of fragrance, stems, petals~
123 Blood  |            Wiping their brows with kerchiefs of white,~And drink~Coffee
124 Memory |                            Memory~(Kujtesë)~The aging stations of memory~
125 Memory |           Sad-looking trains,~They leave the stations, but never
126 Disease|        Trembles~In the neon light.~Lemon~Yellow.~Diseased, yet so
127 Disease|           no fever, no fever,~Here lies salvation.~~
128 Disease|    sanctitude~Trembles~In the neon light.~Lemon~Yellow.~Diseased,
129 Memory |           never arrive.~Only their lights quiver in the distance.~
130 Mauve  |         out,~She goes out~Into the limelight of her shabby dream,~But
131 Colour |         the intensity of colour.~A line of perfection with crippling
132 Colour |            your cleanliness~Oozing~Little drops of blood~From severed
133 Girls  |       remain UNATTAINABLE~For~They live no longer than a sigh.~~
134 Girls  |         fast.~Disrobing in rundown lodgings~They sacrifice themselves,~
135 Memory |         rain~So far away, like the lonely.~The walls have lost their
136 Wall   |       Walls~(Muret)~And if a wall, long and thick,~A high wall~Should
137 Girls  |      UNATTAINABLE~For~They live no longer than a sigh.~~
138 Disease|            yet so fair,~I dare not~Look it in the eye,~Afraid I
139        | made
140        | me
141 Colour |         Has this foolhardiness~Any meaning at all~Or will it come to
142 Land   |           and buried,~There~In the midst of an Empire of Winds.~~
143        | might
144 Land   |         This new Land,~Oh earth of mine, though not of earth.~My
145 Colour |           rest your thoughts for a moment?~Has this foolhardiness~
146 Girls  |          prej uji)~Girls have only~Moonlit paths~Where they tread like
147        | more
148        | much
149 Colour |            you,~Oh white.~White is murderous~It will cut down your cleanliness~
150 Wall   |                             Walls~(Muret)~And if a wall, long and
151 Mauve  |                     The mauve nun~(Murgesha violë)~Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs.~
152 Land   |          land~(Toka ime)~This land~Mutilated~With streets and fixed purposes~
153 Colour |             while in your hand.~So naive~Though it gives nothing~
154 Blood  |           of white~They enter,~The natives in their skullcaps of white,~
155 Disease|         sanctitude~Trembles~In the neon light.~Lemon~Yellow.~Diseased,
156 Land   |       Somewhere it will exist~This new Land,~Oh earth of mine,
157 Disease|                   Diseased colour~(Ngjyrë e sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~
158 Colour |     Energies of colour~(Energji të ngjyrës)~Oh innocence, disrobed
159 Blood  |                        Bloodstain~(Njollë gjaku)~To recline~In a room
160        | nothing
161        | now
162        | nowhere
163 Colour |          to one side,~Punished and obedient~You raise the intensity
164 Colour |   dissonance,~It is a colour which offers everything... while in your
165 Blood  |      dressed in white~And wish her offspring~On frosty days of white,~
166        | Once
167 Girls  |          to the azure heavens.~And onwards they tread~Like the strains
168 Colour |          cut down your cleanliness~Oozing~Little drops of blood~From
169 Memory |            time gone by rusting on open platforms~Unattended.~Memory,~
170 Belief |          cold~A solitude of petals~Opened in glass~Have withered in
171        | Or
172        | own
173 Girls  |            Girls have only~Moonlit paths~Where they tread like the
174 Wall   |           against it,~I would find peace in its cool serenity.~And
175 Land   |           purposes~To expedite its people~Once and for all~Somewhere
176 Colour |     intensity of colour.~A line of perfection with crippling barriers.~~
177 Disease|        breath of wind,~There is no pink more feeble~Than that which
178 Memory |            gone by rusting on open platforms~Unattended.~Memory,~Holes
179 Girls  |         made of water~(Vajzat janë prej uji)~Girls have only~Moonlit
180 Colour |             you stand to one side,~Punished and obedient~You raise the
181 Land   |   Mutilated~With streets and fixed purposes~To expedite its people~Once
182 Memory |          arrive.~Only their lights quiver in the distance.~Relieved
183 Disease|            in now,~Diseased colour~Rages~With a temperature, but
184 Colour |          Punished and obedient~You raise the intensity of colour.~
185 Mauve  |       There she stands,~Breathless~Raising her arms~To the age-old
186 Blood  |       Bloodstain~(Njollë gjaku)~To recline~In a room of white~On cushions
187 Colour |       comes to rest only when rain recovered,~Unquenched without water.~
188 Colour |        black,~Burns you in scarlet reflection,~And comes to rest only
189 Colour |        colours,~Where you can take refuge and rest your thoughts for
190 Mauve  |     fragrance, stems, petals~Which release her energy~That she may
191 Memory |            quiver in the distance.~Relieved of the weight in my head,~
192 Girls  |           their earthly~Urges~They remain UNATTAINABLE~For~They live
193 Memory |         ancient skull,~Only echoes~Resound.~~
194 Mauve  |           in the window,~Decolleté revealed,~Is the Mauve Nun.~In the
195 Blood  |      Njollë gjaku)~To recline~In a room of white~On cushions of
196 Girls  |        terribly fast.~Disrobing in rundown lodgings~They sacrifice
197 Memory |             Images of time gone by rusting on open platforms~Unattended.~
198 Girls  |           in rundown lodgings~They sacrifice themselves,~For girls perish~
199 Memory |            Holes in my head,~Empty~Sad-looking trains,~They leave the stations,
200 Disease|         fever, no fever,~Here lies salvation.~~
201 Disease|         Ngjyrë e sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~Trembles~In the neon light.~
202 Blood  |       white,~And drink~Coffee from scalding cups of white,~They greet~
203 Land   |           doubtful crossroads~I am searching for a Land~Which I can have~
204 Colour |           when the wind dies down,~Seductive silk settling soft and slow.~
205 Disease|          Diseased colour~(Ngjyrë e sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~Trembles~
206 Wall   |       would find peace in its cool serenity.~And if this wall were death...~~ ~
207 Colour |          dies down,~Seductive silk settling soft and slow.~I am afraid,
208 Colour |         Little drops of blood~From severed fingers,~Breathless, but
209 Mauve  |          Into the limelight of her shabby dream,~But never gets beyond~
210 Colour |            yet sinful~Is there any shadow in your colours,~Where you
211 Blood  |           feast~They rise~And slay sheep of white.~~
212        | Should
213 Colour |      Insensitive, you stand to one side,~Punished and obedient~You
214 Girls  |         They live no longer than a sigh.~~
215 Belief |         sincerity of bloody hands,~Silence is a grave~From which the
216 Blood  |            skullcaps of white,~And sit,~Wiping their brows with
217 Mauve  |            Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs.~Sitting in the window,~Decolleté
218 Memory |             That unearthed ancient skull,~Only echoes~Resound.~~
219 Blood  |        enter,~The natives in their skullcaps of white,~And sit,~Wiping
220 Mauve  |            her arms~To the age-old sky.~Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs,~
221 Blood  |            the feast~They rise~And slay sheep of white.~~
222 Girls  |         and fro in their white and slender veils~They swing and sway
223 Colour |   Seductive silk settling soft and slow.~I am afraid, afraid for
224 Colour |            Seductive silk settling soft and slow.~I am afraid, afraid
225 Belief |           broken vase~Grows cold~A solitude of petals~Opened in glass~
226 Girls  |    themselves,~For girls perish~As soon as they are grown...~Despite
227 Belief |            hands,~However much the splinters of glass may weep~I still
228 Belief |          From which the truth will sprout.~I believe only~In the broken
229 Colour |            sinful~Insensitive, you stand to one side,~Punished and
230 Mauve  |       beyond~The corner,~There she stands,~Breathless~Raising her
231 Mauve  |          dreams of glory~Until the stars come out,~She goes out~Into
232 Mauve  |             A jumble~Of fragrance, stems, petals~Which release her
233        | still
234 Colour |          cold colour,~Lost energy,~Stunning dissonance,~It is a colour
235 Girls  |       slender veils~They swing and sway to the azure heavens.~And
236 Girls  |       white and slender veils~They swing and sway to the azure heavens.~
237 Belief |         glass may weep~I still don't believe in the sincerity
238 Colour |        your colours,~Where you can take refuge and rest your thoughts
239 Colour |        Energies of colour~(Energji të ngjyrës)~Oh innocence, disrobed
240 Disease|       Diseased colour~Rages~With a temperature, but no fever, no fever,
241 Girls  |         hurry forth,~Growing up so terribly fast.~Disrobing in rundown
242        | them
243        | themselves
244        | Then
245 Wall   |            And if a wall, long and thick,~A high wall~Should rise
246 Colour |          take refuge and rest your thoughts for a moment?~Has this foolhardiness~
247 Memory |         has turned cold.~Images of time gone by rusting on open
248 Land   |                           My land~(Toka ime)~This land~Mutilated~
249        | Towards
250 Memory |            head,~Empty~Sad-looking trains,~They leave the stations,
251 Disease|       sëmurë)~A halo~Of sanctitude~Trembles~In the neon light.~Lemon~
252 Belief |          is a grave~From which the truth will sprout.~I believe only~
253 Memory |        colour,~For the weather has turned cold.~Images of time gone
254 Girls  |            water~(Vajzat janë prej uji)~Girls have only~Moonlit
255 Girls  |          earthly~Urges~They remain UNATTAINABLE~For~They live no longer
256 Memory |          rusting on open platforms~Unattended.~Memory,~Holes in my head,~
257 Memory |            weight in my head,~That unearthed ancient skull,~Only echoes~
258 Land   |          earth.~My home awaits me,~Unknown and buried,~There~In the
259 Colour |          only when rain recovered,~Unquenched without water.~Oh innocence,
260 Mauve  |            Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs,~Untied they burgeon~In delirium,~
261        | Until
262        | up
263 Girls  |        forbidden fruit~            urged on by the wind,~            
264 Girls  |              Despite their earthly~Urges~They remain UNATTAINABLE~
265 Girls  |           Girls are made of water~(Vajzat janë prej uji)~Girls have
266 Girls  |            their white and slender veils~They swing and sway to the
267 Mauve  |            The mauve nun~(Murgesha violë)~Lilacs, lilacs, lilacs.~
268 Girls  |                       the clement, warm wind~            which brings
269 Disease|        more feeble~Than that which warmly floods in now,~Diseased
270 Girls  |        worlds~            in their watery imagination.~They perish
271 Girls  |           They never find the only way~There is to dream.~No one
272 Memory |         lost their colour,~For the weather has turned cold.~Images
273 Belief |         the splinters of glass may weep~I still don't believe in
274 Memory |          distance.~Relieved of the weight in my head,~That unearthed
275        | were
276        | What
277        | while
278 Mauve  |             lilacs.~Sitting in the window,~Decolleté revealed,~Is
279 Mauve  |          afternoon from behind the windowpane she dreams of glory~Until
280 Land   |          the midst of an Empire of Winds.~~
281 Blood  |       skullcaps of white,~And sit,~Wiping their brows with kerchiefs
282 Blood  |           all dressed in white~And wish her offspring~On frosty
283 Belief |        petals~Opened in glass~Have withered in my hands,~However much
284 Girls  |            of a violin.~Girls have wondrous worlds~            in their
285 Girls  |        violin.~Girls have wondrous worlds~            in their watery
286 Disease|           In the neon light.~Lemon~Yellow.~Diseased, yet so fair,~