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  1 Exo   |                    Exodus~(Ekzod)~1.~With white scarves~At the
  2 First |        lesson continues...~(9 May 1990)~~
  3 Status|         the road of return.~(Zym, 1991)~~
  4 Exo   |         Pallid,~When you left us.~2.~Large is our home,~Large
  5 Exo   |         courtyard,~Where are you?~3.~The maidens cut their hair~
  6 Exo   |           Since the exodus began.~4.~At the river~We’ll wash
  7 Exo   |       Mary~If they do not return.~5.~Do not observe yourselves
  8 Exo   |         our heads~Like old women.~6.~Woe upon us~If it does
  9 Exo   |          fallen~Woe upon us, woe.~7.~The maidens walk~Like flowers,~
 10 First |          The lesson continues...~(9 May 1990)~~
 11 Exo   |           brow~Flow tears,~Let us abandon our longing in the stairwell~
 12       | about
 13 Year  |       screams and takes down your address~While guarding the shattered
 14 First |          is missing.~Teuta, Ilir, Agron, Yll~And Fadil, Fadil Talla...
 15       | all
 16       | any
 17 Exo   |          are now,~What thirst for apple juice,~I stand there in
 18 Exo   |           my breasts,~The crimson apples, how mature they are now,~
 19 Year  |     Entering the race,~The unseen arena, toreador and bull,~Olé
 20 Dim   |       measures~My waste and right arm,~With the tape it measures,~
 21       | around
 22 First |              is missing,~Kimetja, Arsim, Kujtim~And Halim, Halim...
 23 Year  |            You in the midst~Plant artificial flowers,~The policeman screams
 24       | As
 25       | away
 26 Year  |      flowerpots~Cascade down from balconies,~Rakatak, rakatak,~Rakatak,
 27 Exo   |         courtyard~When I cross it barefoot,~How long the day, how long,~
 28 Exo   |         yourselves in the mirror,~Barren maidens,~Every day more
 29 Gu    |            oh,~Gu-gu-gu they were beaten,~Gu-gu-gu they were murdered,~
 30 Year  |           disoriented,~What black beauty,~Empty flowerpots~Cascade
 31 Exo   |         remained~Since the exodus began.~4.~At the river~We’ll wash
 32 First |          is missing,~Nesimi’s son Bekim is missing, too,~And Afrim,
 33 Dim   |     Neither brow, nor curves, nor belly,~Neither fever, nor blood,
 34 Status|        labyrinth,~No boundary, no belongings,~No white felt cap,~Status
 35       | Below
 36 First |              is missing,~Shpresa, Besa, Kastriot,~And Fatmir, Fatmir
 37 Skën  |         you are pregnant,~Can you better smell~The fragrance of the
 38 Year  |       dazed~And disoriented,~What black beauty,~Empty flowerpots~
 39 Year  |           cloth,~The machine, now blinded by the eagle,~Is dazed~And
 40 Dim   |         belly,~Neither fever, nor blood, nor sweat,~It sees it all,~
 41 First |        for you,~Say only missing,~Blood-red flowers will bloom~The lesson
 42 First |            Blood-red flowers will bloom~The lesson continues...~(
 43 Dim   |       Droplets slithering down my body,~Down my brow and down my
 44 Status|           Lost in a labyrinth,~No boundary, no belongings,~No white
 45 Exo   |      longing in the stairwell~And bow our heads~Like old women.~
 46 Exo   |          games forgotten~When the boys once chased us~For our braids,~
 47 Exo   |       boys once chased us~For our braids,~Few of you have remained~
 48 Skën  |           the window,~Take a deep breath~Every time you are pregnant,~
 49 First |           Prebreza... is missing.~Bring me~No medical certificate,~
 50 Gu    |            I look for~Gu-gu-gu my brothers, oh,~Gu-gu-gu they were
 51 Year  |        unseen arena, toreador and bull,~Olé olé olé,~The weight
 52       | But
 53 Status|         belongings,~No white felt cap,~Status habitus,~Sitting
 54 Year  |          beauty,~Empty flowerpots~Cascade down from balconies,~Rakatak,
 55 First |      missing.~Bring me~No medical certificate,~No paper from parents,
 56 Exo   |      forgotten~When the boys once chased us~For our braids,~Few of
 57 Dim   |          Down my brow and down my cheeks,~I stay put~I don’t go out,
 58 Exo   |          I tumble and rise like a child~When it learns to walk,~
 59 Status|        habitus,~They poisoned the children,~In each of the telephone
 60 Year  |         Viti 1981)~The stench and clank of metal spread,~The music
 61 Exo   |        rises,~Their heads pressed close together,~The flowers walk
 62 Year  |            Covering it~With a red cloth,~The machine, now blinded
 63 Dim   |           my neck~To fashion me a collar~And makes me clothes to
 64 Gu    |           I’m waiting for them~To come back,~To return,~They will
 65 Dim   |           measures,~Nothing can I conceal from it~Neither brow, nor
 66 First |     flowers will bloom~The lesson continues...~(9 May 1990)~~
 67 Status|           the hospitals~Are there corpses, are there,~Status habitus,~
 68 Year  |        And grasps it~By the head,~Covering it~With a red cloth,~The
 69 Dim   |        With the tape it measures,~Crawling up my spine,~Rib for rib~
 70 Exo   |        How strong my breasts,~The crimson apples, how mature they
 71 Exo   |        Large the courtyard~When I cross it barefoot,~How long the
 72 Status|           Status habitus,~Sitting cross-legged,~Slantwise to the planet,~
 73 Year  |     Wide-eyed he emerges from the crowd,~Entering the race,~The
 74 Status|     wastes away~Melting like lead~Crumbling like riverbanks~Status habitus,~
 75 Year  |        off with you now and don’t cry,~Wide-eyed he emerges from
 76 Gu    |      teach me the language of the cuckoos,~Of my sister, oh,~Gu-gu-gu
 77 Year  |           air~Know nothing of the curfew,~Rakatak, rakatak,~You in
 78 Exo   |     Waving~From behind the window curtains~Tears in our eyes~In a sombre
 79 Dim   |         from it~Neither brow, nor curves, nor belly,~Neither fever,
 80 Exo   |           are you?~3.~The maidens cut their hair~Their games forgotten~
 81 Year  |          blinded by the eagle,~Is dazed~And disoriented,~What black
 82 Skën  |           Open the window,~Take a deep breath~Every time you are
 83 Exo   |       hover in the air,~Are there dewdrops~In the early morning hours?~
 84 Dim   |                                   Dimension~(Përmasë)~With the tape
 85 Year  |           the eagle,~Is dazed~And disoriented,~What black beauty,~Empty
 86       | does
 87 Exo   |         With white scarves~At the doorstep~Waving~From behind the window
 88 Skën  |         Do not think back, do not dream~Of the fragrance of the
 89 Exo   |         breasts with water,~We’ll drench ourselves at the river,~
 90 Dim   |         With the tape it measures~Droplets slithering down my body,~
 91 Exo   |           rain~And the river runs dry~And they do not return,~
 92 First |             The first lesson~(Ora e parë)~Jusuf,~Jusuf the yellow
 93 Year  |       machine, now blinded by the eagle,~Is dazed~And disoriented,~
 94 Exo   |         Are there dewdrops~In the early morning hours?~The wind
 95 Gu    |         Gu-gu-gu Istref,~Under my eavestrough~Gu-gu-gu in the trees in
 96 Exo   |                           Exodus~(Ekzod)~1.~With white scarves~At
 97 Year  |           don’t cry,~Wide-eyed he emerges from the crowd,~Entering
 98 Year  |   disoriented,~What black beauty,~Empty flowerpots~Cascade down
 99 Year  |           emerges from the crowd,~Entering the race,~The unseen arena,
100 Dim   |            Rib for rib~As I stand erect,~And with the tape it measures~
101       | Even
102 Status|          of the West~The river of exile~Keeps flowing and flowing,~
103 Exo   |          wrinkles~In our eyes, on face and brow~Flow tears,~Let
104 Exo   |        hair,~We’ll wash our ruddy faces,~We’ll sprinkle our breasts
105 Exo   |         longing~Did we wish you~A fair journey,~Pallid,~Pallid,~
106 Exo   |          do not return,~Night has fallen~Woe upon us, woe.~7.~The
107 Dim   |           noose around my neck~To fashion me a collar~And makes me
108 Dim   |           the clothes will not be fashioned~To its own dimensions
109 Dim   |           glance of toes~On naked feet,~With the tape it measures~
110 Status|           no belongings,~No white felt cap,~Status habitus,~Sitting
111 Dim   |        curves, nor belly,~Neither fever, nor blood, nor sweat,~It
112       | Few
113       | first
114 Exo   |        our eyes, on face and brow~Flow tears,~Let us abandon our
115 Exo   |         sun~Behind them~Grows the flowerless grass.~~
116 Exo   |        cut their hair~Their games forgotten~When the boys once chased
117 Year  |            Olé olé olé,~He rushes forth~And grasps it~By the head,~
118 Dim   |          bare shoulders,~Taking a furtive glance of toes~On naked
119 Exo   |      maidens cut their hair~Their games forgotten~When the boys
120 First |           the yellow stork,~Jusuf Gërvalla... is missing.~Teuta, Ilir,
121 Status|         back home,~It was hard to get through,~How’s Mum,~Status
122 Year  |           the suburbs,~The little girl has scraped her knee, off
123 First |           goes,~Valbona, Shkurta, Gjon,~And Xhevat, Xhevat... is
124 Dim   |       shoulders,~Taking a furtive glance of toes~On naked feet,~With
125 First |             is missing,~And on it goes,~Valbona, Shkurta, Gjon,~
126 Status|          booths,~Hi, hi! How’s it going back home,~It was hard to
127 Gu    |       murdered,~Gu-gu-gu they are gone, where are they?~Gu-gu-gu
128 Year  |          olé,~He rushes forth~And grasps it~By the head,~Covering
129 Exo   |         them~Grows the flowerless grass.~~
130 Skën  |           mentioned you,~My teeth grew numb,~Open the window,~Take
131 Exo   |       Towards the sun~Behind them~Grows the flowerless grass.~~
132 Year  |           down your address~While guarding the shattered flowerpots~
133 Status|           going back home,~It was hard to get through,~How’s Mum,~
134       | have
135 First |         Say only missing,~We will heal your wounds with flowers~
136       | her
137       | his
138 Skën  |   fragrance of the quince,~Of our homeland,~Said my mother.~~
139 Status|         any jobs,~Hey, and in the hospitals~Are there corpses, are there,~
140 Exo   |     dewdrops~In the early morning hours?~The wind rises,~Their heads
141 Gu    |           Istref,~Gu-gu-gu on the house,~Gu-gu-gu I’m waiting for
142 Exo   |            longing, longing~Wings hover in the air,~Are there dewdrops~
143 First |       missing,~And Ylfete, Ylfete Humolli... is missing,~And Shukrije,
144 Year  |      Rakatak, rakatak,~Flowerpots hurtling through the air~Know nothing
145 First |    Gërvalla... is missing.~Teuta, Ilir, Agron, Yll~And Fadil, Fadil
146 Status|       schools,~Hey, are there any jobs,~Hey, and in the hospitals~
147 Exo   |    longing~Did we wish you~A fair journey,~Pallid,~Pallid,~When you
148 Exo   |        now,~What thirst for apple juice,~I stand there in the courtyard,~
149 First |           missing,~Shpresa, Besa, Kastriot,~And Fatmir, Fatmir Kërleshi...
150 Status|           West~The river of exile~Keeps flowing and flowing,~Status
151 First |      Kastriot,~And Fatmir, Fatmir Kërleshi... is missing,~And Afrim,
152 First |          Obërtinca... is missing,~Kimetja, Arsim, Kujtim~And Halim,
153 Year  |       little girl has scraped her knee, off with you now and don’
154 Year  |          hurtling through the air~Know nothing of the curfew,~Rakatak,
155 First |          missing,~Kimetja, Arsim, Kujtim~And Halim, Halim... is missing,~
156 Status|         Status habitus)~Lost in a labyrinth,~No boundary, no belongings,~
157 Status|            Status habitus,~In the labyrinths~It seeks the road of return.~(
158 Gu    |          why did you teach me the language of the cuckoos,~Of my sister,
159 Dim   |           not the tears~Below the lashes, no,~For these there is
160 Status|          wastes away~Melting like lead~Crumbling like riverbanks~
161 Exo   |         rise like a child~When it learns to walk,~How long my hair,~
162 Year  |            The weight of the tank leaves tracks in the asphalt,~Olé
163 Exo   |          Pallid,~Pallid,~When you left us.~2.~Large is our home,~
164       | Let
165 Dim   |          bare physique,~My stubby limbs,~No, please, not the head,~
166 Year  |        refuge in the suburbs,~The little girl has scraped her knee,
167 Gu    |           Gu-gu-gu on the roof,~I look for~Gu-gu-gu my brothers,
168 Status|          habitus~(Status habitus)~Lost in a labyrinth,~No boundary,
169 Status|          countryman~Speaks not of love~From each of the telephone
170 Year  |          it~With a red cloth,~The machine, now blinded by the eagle,~
171       | makes
172 Exo   |          We’ll be like the Virgin Mary~If they do not return.~5.~
173 Exo   |           The crimson apples, how mature they are now,~What thirst
174 First |        The lesson continues...~(9 May 1990)~~
175 First |           is missing.~Bring me~No medical certificate,~No paper from
176 Status|       Where the youth wastes away~Melting like lead~Crumbling like
177 Skën  |           my mother.~Every time I mentioned you,~My teeth grew numb,~
178 Year  |           The stench and clank of metal spread,~The music of the
179 Year  |      Rakatak, rakatak,~You in the midst~Plant artificial flowers,~
180 Exo   |         observe yourselves in the mirror,~Barren maidens,~Every day
181       | more
182 Exo   |       there dewdrops~In the early morning hours?~The wind rises,~Their
183 Status|        hard to get through,~How’s Mum,~Status habitus refrain,~
184 Gu    |        beaten,~Gu-gu-gu they were murdered,~Gu-gu-gu they are gone,
185 Year  |        clank of metal spread,~The music of the streets has taken
186 Dim   |         furtive glance of toes~On naked feet,~With the tape it measures~
187 Dim   |         It puts a noose around my neck~To fashion me a collar~And
188 First |     Xhevat, Xhevat... is missing,~Nesimi’s son Bekim is missing,
189 Exo   |           And they do not return,~Night has fallen~Woe upon us,
190 Dim   |     Missing not a hair,~It puts a noose around my neck~To fashion
191 Skën  |      mentioned you,~My teeth grew numb,~Open the window,~Take a
192 First |            And Shukrije, Shukrije Obërtinca... is missing,~Kimetja,
193 Exo   |          do not return.~5.~Do not observe yourselves in the mirror,~
194       | off
195 Exo   |  stairwell~And bow our heads~Like old women.~6.~Woe upon us~If
196       | once
197 Skën  |          you,~My teeth grew numb,~Open the window,~Take a deep
198       | or
199 First |                 The first lesson~(Ora e parë)~Jusuf,~Jusuf the
200       | ourselves
201 Dim   |        with the tape it measures,~Overlooking nothing,~Missing not a hair,~
202       | own
203 Exo   |        day, how long,~Shaky is my pace,~I tumble and rise like
204 First |           medical certificate,~No paper from parents, police or
205 First |           The first lesson~(Ora e parë)~Jusuf,~Jusuf the yellow
206 First |        certificate,~No paper from parents, police or state,~Say only
207 Dim   |                        Dimension~(Përmasë)~With the tape it measures,~
208 Status|    cross-legged,~Slantwise to the planet,~No identity papers,~My
209 Year  |         rakatak,~You in the midst~Plant artificial flowers,~The
210 Dim   |    physique,~My stubby limbs,~No, please, not the head,~And with
211 Status|       there,~Status habitus,~They poisoned the children,~In each of
212 First |            No paper from parents, police or state,~Say only missing,~
213 Year  |           artificial flowers,~The policeman screams and takes down your
214 First |    missing, too,~And Afrim, Afrim Prebreza... is missing.~Bring me~
215 Skën  |         breath~Every time you are pregnant,~Can you better smell~The
216 Exo   |           wind rises,~Their heads pressed close together,~The flowers
217 Dim   |        and down my cheeks,~I stay put~I don’t go out, I don’t
218 Dim   |            Missing not a hair,~It puts a noose around my neck~To
219 Year  |           the crowd,~Entering the race,~The unseen arena, toreador
220 Exo   |        Woe upon us~If it does not rain~And the river runs dry~And
221 Status|          telephone booths~You can recognize my countryman~Even without
222 Year  |          head,~Covering it~With a red cloth,~The machine, now
223 Status|         How’s Mum,~Status habitus refrain,~In big cities~Where the
224 Year  |          of the streets has taken refuge in the suburbs,~The little
225 Exo   |           braids,~Few of you have remained~Since the exodus began.~
226 Dim   |          it measures~My waste and right arm,~With the tape it measures,~
227 Exo   |          is my pace,~I tumble and rise like a child~When it learns
228 Exo   |           morning hours?~The wind rises,~Their heads pressed close
229 Status|          like lead~Crumbling like riverbanks~Status habitus,~Hey, what
230 Status|           labyrinths~It seeks the road of return.~(Zym, 1991)~~
231 Gu    |         courtyard~Gu-gu-gu on the roof,~I look for~Gu-gu-gu my
232 Exo   |           in our eyes~In a sombre room,~In longing~Did we wish
233 Exo   |          our hair,~We’ll wash our ruddy faces,~We’ll sprinkle our
234 Exo   |       does not rain~And the river runs dry~And they do not return,~
235 Year  |          asphalt,~Olé olé olé,~He rushes forth~And grasps it~By the
236 Exo   |      Exodus~(Ekzod)~1.~With white scarves~At the doorstep~Waving~From
237 Status|      habitus,~Hey, what about the schools,~Hey, are there any jobs,~
238 Year  |      suburbs,~The little girl has scraped her knee, off with you now
239 Year  | artificial flowers,~The policeman screams and takes down your address~
240 Status|     habitus,~In the labyrinths~It seeks the road of return.~(Zym,
241 Dim   |          nor blood, nor sweat,~It sees it all,~My whole physique,
242 Exo   |           long the day, how long,~Shaky is my pace,~I tumble and
243 Year  |        address~While guarding the shattered flowerpots~And tank tracks
244 Dim   |         dimensions,~Soaking wet I shiver,~With the tape it measures,~
245 First |          And on it goes,~Valbona, Shkurta, Gjon,~And Xhevat, Xhevat...
246 Dim   |    measures~My long hair and bare shoulders,~Taking a furtive glance
247 First |       Halim, Halim... is missing,~Shpresa, Besa, Kastriot,~And Fatmir,
248       | Since
249 Gu    |    language of the cuckoos,~Of my sister, oh,~Gu-gu-gu Isuf,~Gu-gu-gu
250 Status|         felt cap,~Status habitus,~Sitting cross-legged,~Slantwise
251 Status|    habitus,~Sitting cross-legged,~Slantwise to the planet,~No identity
252 Dim   |         tape it measures~Droplets slithering down my body,~Down my brow
253 Skën  |          pregnant,~Can you better smell~The fragrance of the quince,~
254       | so
255 Dim   |        clothes to its dimensions,~Soaking wet I shiver,~With the tape
256 Exo   |   curtains~Tears in our eyes~In a sombre room,~In longing~Did we
257 First |              is missing,~Nesimi’s son Bekim is missing, too,~And
258 Status|    identity papers,~My countryman~Speaks not of love~From each of
259 Dim   |          measures,~Crawling up my spine,~Rib for rib~As I stand
260 Year  |         stench and clank of metal spread,~The music of the streets
261 Exo   |       wash our ruddy faces,~We’ll sprinkle our breasts with water,~
262 Exo   |        abandon our longing in the stairwell~And bow our heads~Like old
263 First |           from parents, police or state,~Say only missing,~We will
264 Dim   |        brow and down my cheeks,~I stay put~I don’t go out, I don’
265 Year  |         year 1981~(Viti 1981)~The stench and clank of metal spread,~
266 First |           Jusuf,~Jusuf the yellow stork,~Jusuf Gërvalla... is missing.~
267 Year  |          spread,~The music of the streets has taken refuge in the
268 Exo   |       walk,~How long my hair,~How strong my breasts,~The crimson
269 Dim   |     measures~My bare physique,~My stubby limbs,~No, please, not the
270 Year  |           has taken refuge in the suburbs,~The little girl has scraped
271 Exo   |         hand in hand,~Towards the sun~Behind them~Grows the flowerless
272 Dim   |     Neither fever, nor blood, nor sweat,~It sees it all,~My whole
273 Skën  |       grew numb,~Open the window,~Take a deep breath~Every time
274 Year  |          music of the streets has taken refuge in the suburbs,~The
275 Year  |         The policeman screams and takes down your address~While
276       | Taking
277 First |       Agron, Yll~And Fadil, Fadil Talla... is missing,~And Ylfete,
278 Gu    |       Istref,~Mother, why did you teach me the language of the cuckoos,~
279 Skën  |          time I mentioned you,~My teeth grew numb,~Open the window,~
280 First |           Gërvalla... is missing.~Teuta, Ilir, Agron, Yll~And Fadil,
281       | these
282 Skën  |      Skënderaj~(Skënderaj)~Do not think back, do not dream~Of the
283 Exo   |         mature they are now,~What thirst for apple juice,~I stand
284 Dim   |        Taking a furtive glance of toes~On naked feet,~With the
285       | together
286       | too
287 Year  |           race,~The unseen arena, toreador and bull,~Olé olé olé,~The
288       | Towards
289 Gu    |       eavestrough~Gu-gu-gu in the trees in the courtyard~Gu-gu-gu
290 Exo   |         long,~Shaky is my pace,~I tumble and rise like a child~When
291       | Under
292 Year  |            Entering the race,~The unseen arena, toreador and bull,~
293       | up
294 First |          missing,~And on it goes,~Valbona, Shkurta, Gjon,~And Xhevat,
295 Exo   |          river,~We’ll be like the Virgin Mary~If they do not return.~
296 Year  |                    The year 1981~(Viti 1981)~The stench and clank
297       | was
298 Dim   |           the tape it measures~My waste and right arm,~With the
299 Status|        big cities~Where the youth wastes away~Melting like lead~Crumbling
300 Exo   |         sprinkle our breasts with water,~We’ll drench ourselves
301 Exo   |           scarves~At the doorstep~Waving~From behind the window curtains~
302 Year  |        and bull,~Olé olé olé,~The weight of the tank leaves tracks
303 Status|          To the big cities of the West~The river of exile~Keeps
304 Dim   |           its dimensions,~Soaking wet I shiver,~With the tape
305       | While
306       | whole
307       | why
308 Year  |       with you now and don’t cry,~Wide-eyed he emerges from the crowd,~
309 Exo   |          early morning hours?~The wind rises,~Their heads pressed
310 Exo   |         Longing, longing, longing~Wings hover in the air,~Are there
311 Exo   |           room,~In longing~Did we wish you~A fair journey,~Pallid,~
312       | without
313 Exo   |        And bow our heads~Like old women.~6.~Woe upon us~If it does
314 First |        missing,~We will heal your wounds with flowers~And wait for
315 Exo   |           maidens,~Every day more wrinkles~In our eyes, on face and
316 Year  |                               The year 1981~(Viti 1981)~The stench
317 First |          e parë)~Jusuf,~Jusuf the yellow stork,~Jusuf Gërvalla...
318 First |      missing.~Teuta, Ilir, Agron, Yll~And Fadil, Fadil Talla...
319       | yourselves
320 Status|           In big cities~Where the youth wastes away~Melting like
321 First |         missing,~And Afrim, Afrim Zhitia... is missing,~And on it
322 Status|        seeks the road of return.~(Zym, 1991)~~